I know this feeling all too well. When you ask questions you already know answers to. You brace yourself for the truth, but it still crushes you to hear the words spoken aloud. You knew something was wrong so you came for confirmation, but hearing it only serves to shatter whatever hope you had that this wasn’t happening. Now you have nothing to hold onto. Now you are forced to accept that the person you love is going to die. People describe this moment as having the rug pulled out from under you, but it’s really the other way around. It’s the moment you want to pull some protective covering over your head to drown out all the hopelessness and overwhelming desolation. It’s the moment you feel bereft, even before the person you love dies. The way Eul kept it together to hear what the doctor said to her, it has to be her bravest moment yet. She didn’t flinch or shy away from the truth. She managed to do something even Joon Young doesn’t have the guts to do yet; she was facing the inevitable.
I trusted this writer, but now I have my doubts. She has thrown some curve balls, but they were good twists in the story so I want to keep the faith, but I’m struggling after tonight. It’s not like this is a murder mystery, but I can’t help but question Joon Young’s motives and actions towards JE. Shouldn’t everything he says or does lead to a confession of her hit and run? Isn’t that the only way for her to get her punishment? So how does wooing her help him fulfill that objective? How does hurting the one person he is trying to protect and making himself and Eul both miserable helping anything? Is it really necessary to turn your back on everything that matters to you in order to bring closure to something Eul already made peace with? If you asked Eul to choose between capturing her dad’s killer or spending more time with Joon before he dies, I wonder if she would even deliberate for a second.
Temptation is tricky. In a way, you still have some semblance of control. You can choose to act on your impulse or not. It’s right in front of you so all you have to do is make up your mind and reach out. It’s right at your fingertip, and yet it’s so far if you allow your conscience to factor in. It didn’t feel like Joon Young was holding back for her sake this time. He did it for himself. I think he knew if he allowed himself to let go and stop resisting the temptation to stay with her, he will never be able to stay away from her ever again. He doesn’t have any fight left in him to resist anymore. The desire to stay by her side gets stronger the closer he gets to his death.
You just can’t threaten someone who has nothing to lose. Joon Young is a loose cannon of emotions these days and you just never know what will set him off. I’m just glad the trigger is anyone who messes with Eul.
This drama has a lot of layers and some major ones were uncovered tonight to shake up the story even more. Just when you think it’s safe to ride things out and watch events unfold in a timely manner, the writer escalated events to a major level. More of the characters are on even footing. Joon Young and Ji Tae each know facts about the other that will dictate how they carry on with Eul. Now another character has been brought to the light so his awareness will shake things up even more. In a way, his newfound knowledge might do more good than harm. Maybe it will help him finally find a spine and start doing the right things instead of continuing to cover up for all the wrong choices he made in the past. And quite possibly, he will find some redemption at last.
I feel like this screencap is poetic cuz it speaks volumes about Joon Young’s emotions in this moment when he was face to face with his dad once more. He is leaving behind any childish illusions of reuniting with his dad and being welcomed for the sake of his love for one woman.
As Eul sat in jail hopelessly counting down the kilometers it would take for Joon to drive over to her, Joon was sacrificing so much for Eul and she doesn’t even know it. He had to give up his dream of standing before Choi and revealing that he is his son. Instead he stood before Choi and tried to make up for what Joon should have done five years ago. Back then Joon made the wrong choice, but he made it as a naive young man hoping to reunite with his dad. Now he is choosing Eul over his father cuz Joon no longer views Choi through rose colored glasses. He sees Choi for the corrupt man that he is and not the man Joon hoped he could look up to as a kid. Just watching Joon tell his mom the truth so that her delusions of Choi could be shattered broke my heart. He knew how much his mom looked up to Choi and that she was looking forward to bragging to Choi how well she raised Joon on her own. Joon was fully aware that the truth about Choi’s real character could break her, but it didn’t stop him. It speaks a lot about Joon’s character and how much he loves Eul that he could turn his back on both his parents like that and just focus on Eul.
This is the second time Joon Young stepped in to save his dad and got Eul injured, but this time Joon Young’s emotions and intent are different. He was saving Eul as much as his dad. He didn’t want her to become a killer and was trying to prevent that. He had to save her from herself more than anything. Rescuing his father was just incidental -not his full objective like five years ago. Joon Young is realizing the only way to make amends for his wrongdoing in the past is to continue to prevent Eul from committing any rash actions on her own. Somewhere along the way, his love for Eul has surpassed his childish dreams of reuniting with his father.