Don’t believe this smile for a second Kim Tan. In a fictional former life (in another role when you had a crazy perm), your character fell for this before and went on a picnic only to be dumped on the way home after you had such a great time. Remember that and realize ES is hiding something behind this smile. You must know that it wasn’t luck that enabled her to get to the second floor to your room. If you had any sense you would know your dad didn’t heed your warning not to mess with her and your dad is up to his old tricks. Mothers might throw water in the face of the women they don’t like for their sons, but fathers take a backward cowardly approach – bribery through innuendos of threat if not compliant. That is what her smile is hiding – the truth that she has to make a choice when both options are far from what both of you want. You might have had faith in your father that he would back off and leave her alone, but a part of her saw this day coming. Her youthful optimism thought it would be much later, but the day of reckoning is upon both of you. We all know what you gave up to protect ES, but I still can’t figure how much she loves you to be strong enough to disregard your father’s threats and put her mom’s well being in jeopardy by not obeying him. I want to say ES will follow her heart, but I fear the child in her will crumble under the weight of all this pressure. It’s one thing for all the heirs in this drama to bear the weight of the crown, but it’s another story to ask ES to endure that weight with you when she has her mother to consider. If she does decide to obey your father, I refuse to see it as being a noble idiot. I rather see it as her loving Tan and her mother too much to let her own happiness be the cost for theirs. For far too long, people have been focusing too much on the word “idiot” and forgetting why their sacrifices are supposed to be noble. Let’s give her the benefit of the doubt to put the focus back on “noble” where it belongs. Judging from the preview, it looks like Tan will give her the emotional support and reassurance she needs to do the right thing anyway. If all else fails, at least she has some black knights to come to her rescue (YD, CY, and MS) and even one princess BN.
I don’t get what this guy’s role is anymore, but his smiles just get better and better. YD is clearly still in love with ES, but has stepped back into friendship mode. it’s wonderful to watch and yet heartbreaking at the same time cuz he is falling more for her the more he sees her smile at his sarcasm. Don’t get me wrong – I am totally loving the bromance he has going with Tan, but I liked YD when he was still trying to become something more meaningful – something more honest. He is still hiding his pain behind his smiles and quips. ES is finally getting to know the real YD – the one who cares more than he lets on. Since he is never going to end up with her, it would be nice if she saw him at his most vulnerable state so that it softens him for the next time the love of his life steps in – then he might be emotionally prepared for her this time. Here is hoping that loving ES the best that he can gives him the experience and wisdom to get it right from start to finish later on down the line so that next time he actually gets to keep the girl.
After the forehead kiss inside, Rachel is outside trying to get her corsage off so YD yanks it off for her. YD scolds: you called Cha ES over here for catering service. Rachel: I feel like crap so don’t talk to me -not even one word. YD: today Cha ES saved you. cuz she revealed it on her own, I will hold back this time. but only up to here sister. Rachel asks if ES knows how ardent YD is like this (over ES) so he says how could she know that – it would be embarrassing. MS comes out to block YD from going in and seeing that kiss by mumbling so YD asks are you drunk? MS points to Rachel and says how could she not reply to the letter he gave her the day they graduated junior high, but kids come out and say how could ES kiss Tan without knowing her place. YD hears that and says I will be going first and leaves.MS pretends he has to go to the bathroom and runs off. Rachel is upset and walks away. HS asks why she came outside. she says waiting for you cuz I really missed you. he gets a call from HJ who yells have you gone crazy how could you not take the exam. HS: I have to do it on that kind of scale for you to call me. HJ: where are you. your mother is throwing a fit looking for you. he says I will tell you if you come alone – wont you come?
Tan’s mom tells ES’s mom that Tan’s dad is resting so keep look out and says now we are accomplices. she heads over to the safe remembering how Tan said his dad already knows about ES cuz his dad put a guy to spy on them. her mom keeps lookout as Tan’s mom tries all the birthdays for the safe combination -Tan’s, Won’s, the dad’s and hers plus the date the company was founded. she wonders what the numbers could be so her mom blows pencil shavings on it and gets the keypad to show up the numbers punched the most. his mom finds out won’s mom’s bday is the lock combination and seems peeved. she finds photos of Tan and ES and something else shocking inside.
*these two seriously crack me up with their teamwork. They would make the two happiest in laws when Tan and ES get married.
when Rachel kissed HS, Tan seemed more upset for HS than any feelings for Rachel.
ES cant walk straight cuz she drank 3 cups of spiked juice. Tan knows MS spiked it. she wonders why am I so hot? he says don’t try to seduce me cuz I don’t have the confidence to hold back. she calls him good looking Kim Tan so he says stop being so cute cuz you are really dangerous right now (cuz he is being tempted). ES: you walk looking only at me Kim Tan – cuz of me you keep getting more in misery Tan: if you say one more word I will throw you away and leave. ES: Kim Tan – I like you now for real. she takes his hand and holds it and smiles. he asks why her hands are so cold – there isn’t one way when you don’t make me concerned about you. he blows on them to warm her hands. he gets a call
Tan goes to meet his mom. she brought him another coat cuz the temp tm will drop more and tells him her plan – for him to apologize to Rachel first tomorrow cuz his mom has a cheap way to reinstate his engagement. he says what I want to turn back is not my engagement. don’t you get it? I dont want to live as a fake anymore. she says how are you a fake – you are the jeguk group’s second (son). Tan: then what are you mom? is it not enough just to be Kim Tan’s mom. to you too – if i’m not jeguk group second son then am I nothing. he leaves upset.
*his mom might be slow on the uptake about most stuff, but there is one thing she is smart about – making amends not to hurt her son like this a second time.
HS’s parents tell him to do what he wants for a year and then take the exam. HS says to get angry instead. why make me unable to breathe. the dad says you have your dream but I have my dream too. don’t forget that.
next day Tan yells at HS for not taking his exam. HS says shouldn’t we be awkward around each other (cuz of him kissing Rachel). Tan asks how it was at his home. HS tells him what his parents said. Tan says what kind of hell do you live in. HS: you don’t live in a cloud too. sorry for yesterday – I swear that i didn’t plan to do the second one. I just wanted to show someone. Tan: that someone isn’t me right? HS gives him a look and laughs.
at the gym other girls confront ES. She asks if they have something to say. the other girl says look at how brazen she is. they accuse ES for being charity and pretending to be new money. ES says sorry for deceiving you – I will apologize. girl says is an apology all of it. she brings up how YS deceived them when she is an heir to room salons and ES deceived them by pretending to be new money. the school sure is running well. how did you manage to seduce Kim Tan? let me know your method too. ES: I don’t want to. the girl pushes ES for having Tan’s support and being so brazen. YD comes over and stops them from bullying ES. the girl tries to explain what ES did but he says coldly – if you heard that as being ok to speak to me -it will be a problem for each of us. the girls back off and leave. he tells them not to gather in groups -learn to live on your own. ES says to him : thanks black knight. YD: who is a black knight? if I am a black knight is Tan a prince riding a white horse cuz my face is paler/whiter. she laughs and they walk together as she tells him that HS sunbae didn’t take his exam. did you hear? YD: he is a sunbae I like a lot but I’m liking him more. ES: see? YD: see what? ES: even if you didn’t intimidate me with my secret we can talk like this. YD stops walking and says why come into my way suddenly like that -making it complicated. ES: I just thought you were hesitating cuz you aren’t talking about yourself. YD: go your way on your own from here. ES: were you escorting me? YD: even when I do something for you – you don’t realize it. just as he is about to leave, YD gets called away to do more punishment
*watching these two converse on a normal level just makes me wish she entered his life sooner – way before she ever met Tan. I can’t help but wonder – if she never went to America and met Tan and ran into YD again at the bike shop and convenience store – would he ever had a chance with her? they wouldn’t have met at jeguk high school so they would have run into each other at those other two locations. He was attracted to her first, but would she have felt anything for him? Can YD be content just being friends? what will it take for him to let her go for good and forget his feelings for her. unrequited love is the last thing he needs in his life, but for now it’s the only thing that is making him happy so content or not – I hope it stays for a while longer.
YD and Tan are going through the motions of washing windows but nothing is getting cleaned. they both see Won and YD’s dad come in. Tan asks if YD told his dad. YD: did you tell on us? Tan: did you show him your report card? YD: couldn’t we say I hit you?
they all meet with JS. won apologizes for Tan and YD’s dad says I will reprimand him. YD looks concerned. JS says do you his midterm score? YD is 98th so his dad says I will reprimand him more. then she says to Won – do you know what Tan is? He is 100th. 100th. won asks out of the whole nation. she says out of the 100 students in his grade. Won gives him a look of disbelief. Tan: I have no middle hyung.
YD walks out with his dad. his dad says your IQ doesn’t seem to have anything to do with your scores. but still for the first time you beat Tan. YD is shocked to hear the praise.
won walks out and looks at Tan and almost yells 100? won: are you going to do this for the finals too? Tan says no – I will do better. Won gets sarcastic asking: is it even possible for you to do worse? (since Tan is already at the bottom) Tan: why do I like that you are angry. I thought you wouldn’t care what my rank was. Won asks don’t you have classes? are you just always washing windows? Tan loves the concern and says thanks for coming hyung. I will be going. he walks away and won sees HJ – he asks is school hard – why does your face look like half. she says no articles went out about her being an orphan and stuff so kids are treating her like a teacher. won says the articles wont go out. take my calls cuz I wont catch and eat you. she asks if he stopped the news articles from going out, but he walks away
HJ gives the kids an assignment to work in groups -to read one of the novels and report on it. Rachel tries to say they already read all of them in junior high but HJ says you changed. if the reader changes the novel changes. BN asks CY to do it together. he says I will help you so BN asks ES to do it together and ES agrees. both Tan and YD look at ES-both plotting at the same time to get into her group
at her part time job ES stands over YD and Tan asking who made this group cuz I was going to work with BN and CY. was it you choi YD? YD: this group is not my taste/type. ES: what is your taste? YD: choi YD, cha ES, Suzy, Hyuna. ES: can you joke (about this)? how about you Kim Tan. Tan: my taste is Kim Tan, Cha ES, Cha ES, Cha ES. YD gives him a look. Tan: what are you looking at? she says I have to work part time now so I’ll be very busy so cooperate. it’s obvious if I tell you guys to read the book you wont so I prepared this. I will read the book on my own so you guys watch the movie and try to add on even one word (to the report). I will drop the person who doesn’t cooperate so know that. (she shoves ear buds in each of their ears) look at the screen and don’t fight.
* I find it hilarious that YD named Suzy as his type since she stood right next to him when Woo Bin was hosting Mnet. No wonder he looked so happy that day – it explains a lot.
cut to both of them drinking and only watching her. they both get up to rush to her side when a customer complains to ES that she got the drink order wrong so ES motions for them to focus on the movie. body guards come to escort Tan. YD says look at the scale of jeguk group. are they doing this now cuz you left home? guard says if you don’t cooperate we were told we could lay hands on you (meaning use force) he goes over to grab Tan’s arm but Tan says let go- I will go with you. YD: by any chance if you need my help in this situation ask for it. Tan says to him – not today I think. he says to ES- don’t worry I am just going home first. Tan tells YD not to flirt with ES and leaves with the guards. ES asks her manager to leave 30 mins earlier today and will work till closing tomorrow. I am sorry. manager asks if that guy was dragged away just now – was he a rich family’s son? she goes over to YD and starts to ask but he says “what? to give you a ride on my bike? bus do run late.” ES: can you give me a ride. YD: there is only the two of us left. I want to have a party so how could you ask for a ride. you owe me a debt today. he goes out to give her a ride.
Tan’s dad yells cuz the engagement is broken off and all the gifts returned. his dad asks what did you do. what did you do while you were out (of the house) for these things to be returned. rachel said she had no plans to break the engagement. Tan: she finally made the right choice. Tan’s mom insists I said I broke the engagement so why are you taking this out on the kid. I didn’t like Rachel from the start – her eyes and nose were crooked. but his dad says to be quiet. he yells at Tan -you lost your last chance now. do you know what this means. it means they wont keep your secret or ours anymore. it means jeguk group has become half. Tan: but you will become more rich. rumors will go out they aren’t (full) brothers and stocks will rise. so what is the concern since you aren’t worried about mom or me being hurt. dad says I am worried about your life. you doing this – is it cuz of the kid Cha ES? Tan: it’s cuz of you father. his mom has to stop his dad from hitting Tan with his cane so Tan yells – who is a chairman. why call him the chairman at home? is father still your superior/boss? his dad threatens to harm ES by asking – do I have to lay a hand on that kid so Tan says do you not want to see me for the rest of your life. his mom agrees saying the kids are just 18 year olds in high school – it’s not like they are getting married right away. his dad points out – they arent going to get married right away but the engagement got broken off. his dad says Tan cant step one foot outside his room. cant go to school. hand over your cell phone.
tan and his mom meet together in his room. she says how Tan could have said I was wrong and I am sorry. you got your phone taken away your computer and are shut in this room. now what are you going to do? Tan: (she) said if it gets dark you can see the stars clearly. it got dark so I will be able to see the stars well. she asks what that means but he asks if she really did break off his engagement and she says yes – she (esther) said she would break it off. Tan: did you meet her? you didn’t hear anything terrible? what did she say. his mom says I took care of that on my own. cuz I wanted to do what you wanted cuz I am your mom. Tan: you dont regret? she says no I don’t. today for the first time I was your mom. my son held my hand and took me out of my room. Tan: that is why I am shut in my room now. this time you take me out. she tells him to rest and say when he gets hungry.
Rachel yells at her mom for breaking off the engagement and cries admitting she liked Tan.
YD gives ES a ride and pulls up to the house. he takes off his helmet and looks down at her hands where she held onto his jacket. he says wait and gets off the bike and helps her down. He lectures: I told you to put your hands in my pockets and hold on. you have to see your fingers get caught and cut off to say “ahhhh that’s why when I ride motorcycles whether I like this guy or not I should have put my hands in his pockets.” she thanks him for the ride. she looks over and sees the guards by the gate. she says Kim Tan must be trapped. YD: it’s the chapter where you cant watch without tears. title “JG chairman.” she asks if those men were put there to prevent Tan from leaving. YD says in this chapter more than half the players are bodyguards. there is no father and son. they are fighting man to man. even though you are in the same home you wont be able to see him. it’s good news. I will be going.” she tells him I will be sure to repay the debt. she runs off. he watches her go and mutters “why are you recklessly saying you will pay me back when you don’t know what I will ask for.” she goes and tells the guards I live here.
she goes inside and sees all the guards all over. her mom says you saw the mood here. her mom asks about their new place and if they can move in sooner cuz she is afraid something bad will happen to ES, but ES says the house they are moving to – the owners haven’t vacated yet so she will call the home owner. her mom tells her not to come out and stay here. ES texts Tan – where are you now – in your room? are you ok? the phone is next to his dad.
his dad is having a meeting with JS, Yoon, and Tan’s mom and tells them all to listen well. he wants JS to find another girl for Tan to marry and pick on everything there is to pick on and look into the best. one more thing – Won wont get that company so if you are going to help him by giving him those stocks – settle your registry (as in she wont be registered as his wife anymore). then he tells Tan’s mom – if you are going to raise Tan like that leave this home. his dad tells Yoon how people will talk about Tan’s illegitimacy and gives him an order about the stocks and bring in his resignation too. Won got rid of my employees but kept you alone. what does this mean you think. Yoon says I never became anyone’s enemy, never took anyone’s side, and didn’t betray anyone to come all this way so that is why I was fired just now. his dad says yes that’s right – not having an enemy means there was no ally too. so what is left for you in the end. teach Tan again. I will think about accepting your resignation or not then.
CY is shocked to hear his dad was fired and says how could you say that while eating bean paste soup. Yoon says how he could have kept something hidden but lost his chance. CY: are you sure you lost it and it wasn’t cuz you didn’t want to. Yoon: even if I didn’t want to – I had to be someone’s ally, but I didn’t know that not hurting someone meant in the end that I wasn’t taking anyone’s side. CY: I cant understand it all, but I want to support your failure. don’t worry I will graduate quickly and earn money. his dad gives him the thumbs up. CY: but it’s not like you don’t have any savings at all right? his dad says not sure so CY says this old man.
*since CY is at the top of his class when he said he would earn money after graduation, Yoon took him at his words, but if Tan or YD said that to ES, she would be expecting to starve.
Tan looks out the window and sees all the guards. then he sees the dream catcher. his mom asks why did you lock the door. open the door. before you starve to death -open up. he doesn’t listen
ES goes to school. YD comes over and says did you come alone. is Tan totally shut in. she says how guards are lined up going up to the second floor. Tan must be so scared. since she is confiding in him he gets upset and says why go so far Cha ES? just cuz I like you am I on your side? or would I be on Kim Tan’s side. she asks cant friends talk about this? YD: who is your friend – how am I your friend? don’t draw a line before I cross it
Tan gets out and tells the guards to move but they shove him back inside. his dad asks what are you doing. tan says I will go to school and come back and listen if you have something to say. his dad says Tan cant go to school and tells the guards if this kid doesn’t listen use force and put him in his room
Yoon comes in to be Tan’s teacher again. they started classes for the first time when Tan was 10. I thought it was strange that director Lee (JS) had a lot of shares but not my mom. I asked my hyung – how can my mom get more shares than director lee – I couldn’t forget hyung’s face then. ever since I didn’t want the company. the company belongs to hyung
ES goes and sits across YD at the cafeteria cuz he was eating alone. she tells him to enjoy his meal. other girls note that ES sat right in the seat where kids who are outcasts sit. why is she like that? YD says how about sitting somewhere else. if you sit here, I feel like Tan will pop up right away. thinking of that it doesn’t make me feel good. ES: you know he cant come here. let’s just eat. YD: please fear me a little. ES: just eat your food. suddenly kids start talking about how Tan is illegitimate. they wonder if Tan was adopted. if he is illegitimate then his mom was a mistress/concubine. if that’s for real jeguk group would have stopped it (from news getting online). Rachel did you hear? director Lee is not his mom? so he has a real mom elsewhere. BN says how it’s not true. if that’s for real last year Jo In Sung and I married in secret. CY says to ES – he didn’t come to school today – do you not know the reason? BN: maybe it’s true so he knew in advance and didn’t come. YD asks how many guards are at the front gate of the house. ES: about six – why?
*YD didn’t want her sitting in that seat and made up all those stupid excuses to get her out of that chair but she stood firm. that’s why he tried intimidation even asking her to please fear him a little. the second news spread about Tan, the look on YD’s face changed and all he cared about was his friend cuz this was the secret he was dreading would get out about Tan. I love how YD jumped from concern over ES sitting in that seat to Tan suddenly. This guy just has too much love in his heart. I bet it was stored up from all those years of not being to express it to anyone.
YD goes to the house and tells the guards I came to meet Kim Tan but they wont let him through asking how they know each other. YD: who do you think I am for you to do this? YD’s guards show up. he says tells them I am choi YD -heir to Zeus Hotel.
YD is let in and says hello to Tan’s dad. have you been well father? Tan’s dad asks why YD came and brought his guards and made all this fuss. YD: I came to do homework. he explains how he is in the same group with Tan for Lit class and have to watch a movie together, read a book together, and write a report, but since Tan missed school, our assignment is a mess. I told my father I was going to Tan’s home so he sent his regards. the dad praises YD for being passionate for education and says his dad must be proud. YD thanks him and asks which room is Tan’s.
YD knocks and says Kim Tan let’s do homework. Tan opens the door. YD says why look so moved. he goes in and sits. Tan asks hey crazy guy – cant you see the mood in this home? what are you trying to do to come here? I was already being hated by my father. YD says this is why you wont work. you and your father are having a war. Tan: let’s see you live off your father doing dishes. YD says it one moment the thing I was building for 3 yrs collapsed. so how could I not come here. Tan: what are you talking about? YD: you. news spread at the cafeteria and later on the article went up. he tosses his phone over so Tan can read for himself. Tan reads the news about himself and Won. YD: you are so surprising – as soon as you hit the ground for being illegitimate -how could you become a major stockholder. so Tan tells him to buy stocks before it goes up more. Tan puts on his coat. YD asks why put your clothes on. Tan: I have to leave this place now. want to stay behind alone or help me. YD says It’s right not to help you – between you and me, but it’s enticing – Kim Tan owing me a debt. Tan: if it’s enticing hold on. you brought your helmet a while ago right.
one of them is wearing YD’s coat and helmet and leaves but it’s really YD. when he gets outside, YD orders his guards to hold onto Tan’s guards. Tan sneaks out during the scuffle. YD bought him some time to escape and then takes off his helmet and says do you need to see me. guards yell find him (Tan). YD mutters people are so distrustful/suspicious. he looks at his reflection from his helmet and says my hair is all messed up
*Say what you will about YD, but there is no denying he is fiercely loyal to Tan. for a supposed enemy, YD sure is going out of his way to be helpful to Tan. He knows that Tan doesn’t know what is going on so YD came here to inform his friend. Since he can’t do it openly, he pretends to be begrudging in his assistance. But Tan saw right through all this and that’s why in the preview he is entrusting YD to hold onto ES cuz Tan gets there is no other guy he can trust as much as YD to take care of her. That’s the weird thing about Tan’s jealousy. No matter how much YD likes ES, Tan implicitly has faith that YD wont try to steal her away from Tan. He gets that it’s the one line YD wont cross – if her heart belongs to Tan, then YD won’t push her to change her mind. Sure he made some feeble attempts, but YD’s heart was never in it. He can’t step on his friendship with Tan just to be with ES.
Won learns that Yoon was fired. Tan rushes in so Yoon leaves. Tan: look at me. Won: why? do I have to listen well to you. Tan: I wish you would. as soon as I saw the article I had to come see you. trust me. won says I cant trust you. Tan says I never once said I would take the stocks. what do I have to do for you to believe me. won says go back to America – sell the stocks and leave never coming back then I will believe you. Tan says it’s ok to leave you the stocks but how can you say don’t come back ever. he gets upset and says I said I wouldn’t get in your way. how could you say that for me to not come back. for the last time – do you really have to do this. won- I will say this for the last time are you going to America or not. Tan: I wont go and I wont give you the stocks. I just now changed my mind. do you want my stocks – then you take them from me. they stare each other down.
ES meets with Tan’s dad. he gives her two choices.
she walks out of the room in shock. Tan comes in. she is almost in tears and they walk by each other. they clasp hands for a second and keep walking away from each other.
Tan’s dad says seeing how you ran off and came back on your own. you must like money. Tan: your son was shut in but you made jeguk group’s heir be ahead. his dad says it was a birthday present I was giving in advance. for the reason that you are my son. Tan: starting from today, I am not your son- I am hyung’s enemy. I thought I could convince you father. I wasn’t going to go after what belongs to hyung – if hyung goes on his path and I go on my path – I trusted that our family could be at peace, but today you ruined all my efforts. dad says while Won does business you don’t know what will happen. might get sick like me or go to prison. that’s when others will want that position so that is why I need you. to me that is for the sake of your hyung. there will be peace soon. Tan says – so me and hyung and hyung with you – we don’t know when we will lose this war and keep fighting being suspicious and guarded -you are saying that’s the peace we have to protect. his dad says now I can get through to you. Tan cries and says: but father – today thanks to you – I lost my family. today my hyung who is family I became his enemy -so now even if he dies he wont be my mom’s family – from the start mom wasn’t your family -you are no longer my family father. his dad says that is the weight of the crown you have to wear so you have to endure.
*I think the difference between Tan and his father has to do with the person they chose to love with all their heart. His dad might have really loved Won’s mom but she left this messed up life and died. I bet that’s when his dad’s heart started to close. Tan’s mom was younger and more beautiful than JS so his dad started his relationship with her, but I don’t believe it’s the same love he had for Won’s mom. Tan hates that his mom calls his dad chairman all the time cuz husbands and wives don’t do that unless they have drawn a line and are trying to distance each other. That’s why it was so meaningful when Tan finally said aloud here to his dad that his dad didn’t love his mom that much. saying that truth aloud made Tan feel a little less sad about letting go of this kind of father. I used to think it would have been better for Tan’s dad to die a while back, but now I realize he needed to live long enough to hear Tan say these words tonight. Tan needed to get it off his chest and his dad needs to remember these words all the way to his grave. hopefully in his last moments his dad might have a few seconds of remorse for how much he hurt Tan and his mom, but knowing this man, I wouldn’t hold my breath.
These parents are so much like children. they don’t want to listen to reason and just want to get their own way. instead of plotting to get rid of her from Tan’s life, if his dad sat down and talked to ES, he would know exactly why Tan likes her – cuz she is kind and smart. but his dad wants control of all the people in his life. at his old age, he should know by now you cant control who you love. That’s how he ended up with Tan and his mom. I get that parents don’t want their children to repeat their mistakes, but it doesn’t give them the right to sit in judgment over who their kids should love. His dad isn’t doing any of this out of love. He stepped over that line he shouldn’t have crossed the second he told the guards they could use brute force on Tan if he wasn’t compliant. That’s when his dad joined YD’s dad in the ranks of the worst father ever. I wanted to tell Tan so desperately – think of it this way – you aren’t losing a loving father – if you open your eyes and heart, you will see you never had one all this time.
ES goes up the stairs and remembers what his dad said. if you break up with Tan today I will send you anywhere you want. in the countryside, America, France, England anywhere is ok. but if you cant break it off right this second even if you die, then there is another choice. you can meet Tan as much as you want for 2 wks but after meeting for 2 wks and breaking up, you will end up where I want you to go – of course it wont be Korea -whether that is America France or England it will be a totally different place (implied that it wont be a good place). she knocks on his door and Tan asks how (did you come up here). she breaks out a happy smile that’s totally for his sake.
*I just had a terrible thought – his dad never mentioned her mom was part of his plan to get ES away so if he makes ES leave Tan, he might even separate her from her mom. Now I’m wondering how she had the strength to smile knowing that.
Telling that reporter that he is the third son in jeguk group was priceless, but then when MS added in that girly voice “I am the youngest daughter,” I about died. Looks like ES is collecting black knights left and right.
The miracle happened – Young Do’s hair was down for a few scenes -natural and free of hair wax. At first I was too busy rejoicing to realize there was some significance to it. It sort of represents that he has changed too – on the inside as well. He no longer needs to keep up pretenses of hatred – his heart was laid bare and rejected – he has nothing to hold onto anymore so he has let go. He is picking up the pieces of his broken heart and friendship with Tan – this time with a clean slate. no more fights. no more resistance. by the end, all we see is Young Do the kid again, broken after kneeling so often, but like Tan said – learning to stand again.
YD and Tan locks eyes just as Tan puts his long legs to good use and kicks his way in. YD quickly moves ES behind him so she wont get hurt. Tan tells her to get out. Tan punches out YD. he tries to hit YD with a chair but ES hugs Tan around his waist pleading don’t do it. YD never takes his eyes off of her. Tan makes her leave the room then he says to YD grabbing his collar- how dare you touch her you crazy jerk – how far are you going to go. how much more do I have to be patient. I told you not to mess with Cha ES. YD: you have to let Cha ES go so I don’t mess with her. I warned you – not to protect Cha ES. why didn’t you listen to me. Tan: I’m so sick of this. so are you going to go till the end? YD: that’s nothing – I came all this way. to win over just you, I lost the chance to have a last meal with my mom. that’s why every time I see you I want to kill myself so how could I end this fight. Tan yells stop whining. how many more chances do I have to give you? YD grabs him saying – don’t act like you are a grownup. cuz it makes me want to puke. Tan: even when you gave me pain/scars, even when you insulted by mom, even when your mom left, I did my best. YD: you still don’t know how much you doing your best makes me furious huh? Tan: in the past and even now -to make someone else miserable- you end up being miserable-while doing your best. how can you not change that much you punk. YD: do you like that only you changed. a bigger fight? don’t kid yourself. did you break your engagement? you are going to end up kneeling in front of your father. just go now and kneel or are you going to make ES kneel this time too. what you are doing is not a big fight – just a losing battle. Tan: have you ever fought in a losing battle like that- kneeling is just kneeling – all you have to do is get up again. if you keep standing up – a day will come when you don’t fall. you stay there YD- I’m no longer there anymore.
*by “there” Tan probably means adolescence – still holding onto that grudge. Just wish Tan had said this sooner cuz it’s true – when you don’t get a reaction from the other side – there is no one to fight. it’s cuz Tan retaliated or reacted each time YD did something wrong so their quarrel continued to this stage. Thank goodness Tan decided to be the bigger man and walk away. Now it’s YD’s turn to come to terms with his unresolved issues and let go of all that bitterness that was eating him up inside.
*I finally figured out why YD stared at her in surprise like that when she stopped Tan from hitting him with that chair – it was the first time in his life that someone interfered on his behalf to stop an attack on him. All those years when his dad hit him – there was no mom to stop his dad. But here she was – stopping Tan from hurting YD. That was the look on YD’s face – disbelief cuz he didn’t deserve it, but more importantly – he was moved beyond words that she did that for him. especially considering all the grief he has given her in the past – tripping her and letting her fall into that pool. I have to admit – this scene really got to me. That look in his eyes – mixture of gratitude and remorse for having to put her in that situation – it was eating him up inside.
Rachel comes over asking if ES is the cause of the fight. Tan comes and takes ES away. Rachel goes in and asks YD – if you were going to do this why keep my mouth shut-you said you would rather die than reveal so why did you have a change of heart? YD admits: I didn’t change it. she asks why he made everyone hear then. YD: for a very short time I saw someone.
Tan: sorry for fighting but I didn’t do anything wrong. you aren’t hurt anywhere? ES asks why they are always fighting. Tan says -it’s cuz of you. don’t you know we are in a love triangle now. ES: it’s not all cuz of me. Tan: you aren’t deceived. I am regretting and YD resents himself
YD admits: but it’s not like I can fight myself. how about you? Rachel: what about me. YD: you know Kim Tan hasn’t wronged you. from what I know Kim Tan didn’t even once give you hope -you are the one who broke the rule of the arranged marriage. in an arrangement so to be obsessed and clingy – it’s cheating. still -can you forgive Tan? can you admit you did something more wrong than Tan. it’s like that for me too. so I am just persisting.
ES says I think you and YD are dating. Tan there is no other push and pull of love like this. she remarks you are wearing your uniform. he asks did you wash this? ES: then who would wash it. he complains the fabric got damaged. you didn’t hand wash this right? so she says take it off. he jokes around – right now? right here? how much of it? all of it? she covers her eyes
BN gets ignored by CY and pretends to fall down and hurt herself but CY smiles and keeps walking off
YS needs a script for her drama audition and she left it at MS’s studio and she cant go there anymore so she asks ES to go get it for her. she apologizes to ES.
ES goes to MS’s studio and sees YD there. she explains she came to get YS’s stuff here. he motions with his chin that it’s on the desk and gets up to leave. she calls out his name and gives him a band aid but he doesn’t take it and leaves. BN came to get the script for YS too so ES says I already got it. do you want to give it to her but BN says no you do it. she needs it for her audition so be sure to give it to her. ES calls BN nice.
when ES leaves YD is waiting. he holds out his hand and asks for the band aid so she hands it to him. he takes it and gets on his bike and rides off.
ES is hanging up her uniform to dry. she is on the phone and tells CY to forgive BN cuz BN came herself to find YS’s script. CY is proud of his BN. he says BN put on a show a while ago and she was so cute I thought I would go crazy. I wanted to turn back and held it in. ES tells him to hurry and reconcile with BN.
Tan’s mom goes to the kitchen and reads the list her mom is making. so his mom says I didn’t find a replacement so do you want to leave that much. the other maid says the second son’s fiancé came here so his mom begs ES to hide and not go to her part time job cuz she cant run into Rachel – she cant find out ES lives here
Rachel says hi to Tan’s mom calling her mother. his mom speaks politely so Rachel tells her to speak comfortably. she brought flowers for tan’s mom. Rachel says how the decision must have been hard to make for Tan. she asks why she came as ES’s mom as the PTA. his mom explains cuz her mom had a situation that day so she went instead. Rachel assures her she isn’t thinking of breaking off the engagement even though Tan likes ES.
on her way out Rachel sees ES’s uniform. she calls and asks why ES lives in tan’s home. ES leaves and sees her missing uniform
at school, ES asks where her uniform is so rachel says I threw it away. ES finds it in the trash and they fight. Rachel says -I am going crazy cuz a housekeeper’s daughter who is a charity case went around pretending to be new money and that crazy girl is dating my fiancé. a housekeeper’s daughter – I couldn’t believe it so I couldn’t sleep last night. did you sleep well in that house. ES: would I be able to sleep well – after you came and went my uniform was gone. so what are you going to do – how will you feel better. Rachel wants her to clean this area. you will have learned something from watching your mom. ES slaps her for insulting her mom cuz she can put up with Rachel insulting her but not Rachel insulting her mom. Rachel wants ES to get lost and transfer out. before she reveals everything about ES, she is giving ES the chance to end things as new money. ES stands firm and says tell them everything cuz I am not scared -you don’t think I was prepared for that, but then Rachel threatens to out Tan being illegitimate too so ES hesitates. Rachel says that YD wasn’t able to reveal it – do you know why? cuz he never planned to reveal it from the start. but is there a reason why I wouldn’t be able to do it? ES wavers at hearing the threat about Tan and says why involved Kim Tan in my affair. Rachel: I have to do that for you to transfer out.ES: I will think about transferring. Tan yells think about what. he comes over and tells ES to go away so he can speak to Rachel alone. he asks how Rachel knew ES lived at his home. she says I went to your home yesterday to meet your mother. he asks which mom. the mom you looked at like a bug that day? I was trying to keep my friendship with you but forget it. I will just lose another friend. I cant hit a girl but in my heart I already hit you. he walks away
Tan yells at ES for not counting on him and not leaning on him. why didnt she call and tell him about Rachel coming over. ES: it’s cuz your own problems are overwhelming you. Tan: from the moment I was born till now it was overwhelming. my hidden mom. the brother who hates me. my father’s wife’s insults, a father who made all this happen, the anger of a friend who found out the secret. the 3 yrs left alone in a strange land. this situation right now – it means it’s not cuz of you. ES: it wasn’t cuz of you either. it wasn’t cuz of you. he asks should we just run away. will you go to America with me. ES: it’s tempting. I abandon my mom again. you leave your mom alone in that big house. should we go?
* I just realized ES’s strong sense of reality grounds both of them when they want to act like kids and run away from their problems. like in an air balloon – her principles and strong sense of right and wrong are the sandbags tying them down and weighing on their conscience when they want to just fly away and forget their troubles.
You can see Tan needed to hear these words – to hear someone he loves say it’s not his fault all those things happened. He has blamed his existence for all the troubles in his family, but here she is reminding him that those things are happening cuz of those people – his mom, JS, dad, brother, YD – they used his existence to displace their own problems and issues. Tan sighs when he hears her say “it wasn’t cuz of you.” In that moment – he just fell more in love with her.
JS yells at both YD and Tan – it wasn’t enough they fought with their bodies now they are damaging property – referring to the broken door. on cue both guys apologize but she says she is sick of those words now. she lists all their punishment and then adds – you gave up on studies anyway right. she makes YD bring in his dad so Tan tries to stop that from happening by asking for some leniency but she wants Tan to bring in his brother. she wants a reply from both of them, but they remain silent.
*this time Tan spoke up cuz he doesn’t want YD to get in trouble with his scary dad again like last time. YD noted that Tan tried to help him out.
HJ says I heard you guys fought in the broadcasting room and makes them write 100 pages each of what they did wrong. YD asks – cant he just do it. he was the one who always did something wrong. so Tan says when he is like this – I cant help but react. HJ: so you are saying it’s each other’s fault? then don’t write what the other did wrong.
They don’t write and sit remembering how many ways they hurt each other. there sure are a lot.
flashback to YD’s mom asking young Tan -did you not see my YD? I’m in a hurry right now. Tan explains he doesn’t play with YD these days. she says then what do I do – I don’t have my phone now. couldn’t you call YD for me? Tan says YD wont take my calls. he notices her bag and says why are you like this. she says I don’t have time right now. could you look for YD? I will wait in the snack place so please – I’m asking this favor.
Young Tan ran after YD and tried to tell him his mom is at the snack place now, but YD told him to let go. Tan narrates: to the very end – I had to take you there – I knew it was your last chance. YD: I should have followed you till the end -if I knew it was a chance that cuz I wouldn’t be able to catch again. HJ asks why aren’t you writing. did neither of you do anything wrong? there was nothing, but you fought like that?
ES remembers Rachel’s threats to reveal Tan’s illegitimate status and for ES to transfer out
BN asks ES – did you tell CY I was repenting/was sorry? ES: last time you said you wouldn’t follow my directions. BN: you said you were friends with CY -did you really not hear him say anything about me? ES: that is his good point cuz he is like a guy. BN: do you really want me to break up with CY? HS tells her how many mins are left before she goes on the air and puts her on the air secretly so BN ends up showing her desperation on the airwaves. BN: Cha ES – tell CY how repentant I am – these days I cant breathe. CY is my oxygen so without him can I breathe? the light is on! OMG sunbaenim! no!
in the hall BN tries to hide her face from the humiliation. CY calls out to her saying where are you going – I have something to say, but she is afraid he will break up with her and runs off. CY smiles and says that’s not it and goes after her.
HJ walks down the hall towards them as HS stares at her. ES quietly introduces HJ to HS saying she is the new teacher. she is really pretty huh? is she that pretty for you to lose your words and not be able to take your eyes off her. HJ asks ES to step away. ES bows to HJ and leaves. HS asks what happened. HJ says I moved to a safer place -from tutor noona to teacher. aren’t you going to congratulate me. he says my first love got farther away.
MS makes hot chocolate asking – have you been eating. the weather is cold so why ride the bike. want to drink something hot? YD asks do you have alcohol. MS : omo – you’ve gone crazy. why? is your first love or one sided love not going well. YD asks is Cha ES really my first love? MS: yes if Kim Tan isn’t your first love. ya look into another girl. they wont break up. I will bet my whole inheritance on it. YD asks why are you trying to stop me so earnestly – it’s making me mad. MS: how much and what do you like about Cha ES? YD: how do I know? do I measure it with a ruler? weigh it on a scale? With a cute aegyo smile, MS tests him: say that Cha ES and I fell into the water. who will you rescue. YD grins and says: I wouldn’t send her out on the ocean with you. MS: then you and ES fell in the water like the Titanic there is only one broad plank that can save you- there is no other way. what will you do. YD: I was alone just with Cha ES? MS: no everyone was there but just the two of you fell in. Kim Tan wasn’t there. I wont save you too. YD: then I will save Cha ES and make her live without me. I think that is the best way to block her heart (from loving someone else) so I can save Cha ES and she cant go to Kim Tan. MS says you always do this – out of all the choices – you choose the sad ending. what are you going to do about your dad – are you going to bring him.
*these two need to get their own show – they are so adorable together. if Kim Tan is YD’s first love – Tan has competition in MS.
ES thinks it’s weird that Tan escorted her to his own home. she says to come home cuz his mom sleeps late these days, but he says if I go in she wont be able to sleep. it’s not time to go home yet. when I go home it will be with my brother. before then my first plan is to go to school with him. ES: you probably wont get to the second plan.
Tan waits in the lobby. won tries to walk by and ignore him but goes over to him. Tan says I thought you were already sleeping. won asks why are you here like this- don’t you have a key. tan says I do but I was just thinking. won sits next to him. Tan says we are really funny we have a nice home so why are we like this. won says cuz we left home. Tan asks why do you dislike me so much. won: what reason is there to like you when you are a dongsang (younger brother) with a different mother. Tan: I will do better. won says don’t do better – it makes me uncomfortable. he gets up and leaves.
BN gives YD an invitation to her party to celebrate reconciling with CY. YD jokes -will CY be there? BN: ya! YD: oppa is thinking of you and saying this but men don’t like this kind of party. calling everyone over – it’s saying “I am an idiot.” she takes back her invitation and tells him not to come. BN turns to go. she sees YS and YS starts to go away. they both say how sorry they were more than the other. Tan grabs an invitation and keeps walking.
Tan asks how HS’s condition is (for the exam). HS asks what is that -are you going to BN’s party too? Tan: just worry about your college exam. why are you thinking of a party. if you miss more than 5 questions, you might get kicked out of your home. aren’t you afraid of living in the same grade as me. HS tells him to be quiet and says what are you going to do about that – how dare you break the door to my broadcast room. Tan says dont worry about stuff like that and worry about the test. you will do well right? HS: of course.
Tan back hugs her – to stop her from going to her part time job – this is how she stopped him in the broadcast room. she says is that the same as this. he suddenly gets jealous and asks while she was alive how many times she stopped a guy – when you stopped another guy did you stop him like this? she pulls free so he asks next time couldn’t you stop me like this and hugs her with his sweater. he says I am not hugging -i’m saying stop me like this. she asks what is in his head and suddenly feels around saying something is there but he wont let go saying I wont be tricked. she pulls out $50 and says there is money. he gets so excited he lets go of her. she is upset that he let go of her over just mere $50. he gets a call from Yoon and goes to meet him.
yoon says to Tan – you are jeguk group’s second son, as much as you have gotten from the moment you were born -there are things you have to give up. like for example your own will.
YD gets out of the shower and reads a text from Rachel. his hair is down and free of wax. her text says I am in front of ES’s part time job now-aren’t you curious what will happen. he quickly leaves. when he rides over to her part time job Rachel follows him in her car.
he comes out of ES’s job realizing he had been tricked. he calls Rachel and asks where are you. where are you saying you are? she says behind you and comes over. Rachel: so this is the place where Cha ES works part time. he asks did you follow me. he grabs her collar saying – are you really going to play around? Rachel: are you going to hit a girl? YD: I’m not afraid of being a bad guy when it involves Cha ES. he lets go and she says have some fear. you liking Cha ES seems like poison to cha ES. how could you run over here like this just for Cha ES?
*can’t believe Rachel – the only toxic person around just dared to said that.
everyone at the party is having fun when Rachel crashes it and says she ordered the coffee and will be paying for it.
YD waits outside her job looking guilt-ridden. ES comes over and says why are you here it’s cold you should’ve waited inside. he says Rachel found out you work part time here – I made a mistake. sorry. ES says I hid it well for a long time. she knows something more major than this so what if she knows about this part time job. it’s ok. YD: if Rachel comes looking for you later – be sure to call me, but ES says you know I have a lot of black knights -don’t worry. he remembers back when he said that to her and says: I think it was around then – when I started to like you. even if you have a lot of black knights -I worry so call. he gets on his bike and rides off.
*this was their first normal conversation – where she was concerned for him waiting out in the cold and he was sorry that Rachel found out about her part time job cuz of his mistake. this time when he said “I worry even if you have a lot of black knights so call,” I bet this is the first time YD believed she actually might.
ES’s manager gives her a catering service order and to leave work afterwards. she calls CY to find out the address to his party and it’s the address she is holding. CY says -you are coming- (he gives her the address) hurry and come – it just now started. she says I will call back. she texts Tan asking where are you – did you go to CY’s party. he says I will be going soon. she says I am going now so don’t be surprised when you see me. he texts aren’t you working now why are you going. he calls but she doesn’t answer. he gets up and leaves seeing YD come in. YD looks at tan walking out
the couple makes a cute speech. CY tells MS not to put alcohol in the drinks. ES comes in as the catering service. others ask -what is this – are you working? why are you working part time. ES says yes – is the party fun? to earn money – congratulations CY and BN. CY goes over and asks what happened. rachel did this huh? ES: yes I came knowing. she tells the kids to form a line if they want a drink. left for coffee and right for juice. MS asks ES -new money why are you working part time. are you doing it for experience like YD. she is about to tell the truth but Tan arrives. Tan tells her to come out. she tells him- I cant now – I came as the catering service. Rachel says I ordered it cuz there wasn’t enough drinks at the party. I want coffee. ES says ok. Tan asks when her work is done. ES says I have to pour everything here. so Tan overturns the table. Tan: it’s all poured now so come out. ES says sorry to Rachel – I will bring it again. Tan takes ES outside. BN says the party is ruined -ya Rachel – is this why you came -to do this. Rachel says yes cuz it will be fun cuz ES is coming back. BN calls her crazy and goes for her but others hold BN back. MS calls YD to hurry and come.
*No one else is going to point this out, but Tan upsetting those drinks just made more work for ES. sometimes I wonder if he remembers he is supposed to be on her side.
Tan yells at her why upset a person. if you knew everything why come here? when you knew Rachel called you to make trouble so why come? ES: it’s work I get paid for so how could I not come? choi YD can do it so why cant I? if he works part time it’s ok but when I do it it’s embarrassing? why? cuz I’m not the daughter of this coffee chain? Tan: that isn’t what I meant. I don’t like you being treated like this here. ES yells back – what I was the most embarrassed about was when I was called new money at school and couldn’t say anything. not cuz I was embarrassed that I was poor – I was embarrassed for lying. Tan: don’t I know that? cant we just go easily? ES: I came to tell the kids everything -that I’m not new money-that I deceived them all that time. Tan: are you crazy. she hasn’t been able to sleep comfortably even one night worried about the day her lie will be revealed -will I be safe today – will it be revealed tm? what do I do if it’s revealed. but you did that too. from the day you were born till a few days ago – you hid it (birth secret). but you did it. Tan: even though I did it – couldn’t you not do it? I did it so I know – don’t do it. even if you reveal it you wont be happier. you will get hurt. why are you so stubborn? ES: I learned it from you. I know I will get hurt, but still go straight ahead. I will go and come back. she leaves.
Rachel comes over and rubs it in saying things between Tan and ES would have gone better if she really was new money. but her level is too low so there is nothing for Rachel to steal from ES or bet/bargain with. so this was the only way. Tan tells her not to talk to him now and from now on too.
*Rachel has to be the dumbest girl in the world – no matter how many times she stoops so low, she doesn’t realize she is the only one who will be left alone and hurt in the end. Nothing she does or says anymore can hurt Tan or ES cuz they have shut their hearts to her. when it comes to Tan, she has been knocking on a door with no owner behind it. He already left for someone else. the only sound Rachel will ever hear is the sound of her own voice – making feeble attempts to hurt Tan by insulting ES. Just like in this scene – Rachel is invisible to him cuz he only has eyes for ES – even when ES is not in front of him. Rachel’s vitriol has no meaning and has no impact cuz that’s how strong Tan and ES’s love is at this point. I don’t know why, but I don’t think Rachel will carry out her threat to reveal Tan’s illegitimate status. She only said that to get ES to transfer out, but just like how much Rachel hated her mom being so calculating about her engagement and waiting on the stocks to rise, I don’t think Rachel will take it that far. If she does, there is no hope for her soul. she is still selfish enough to want to take Tan away from ES – that entails keeping him the legal heir so that he is worthy in other people’s eyes of being her fiancé.
Tan waits outside for ES to bring more coffee and drinks. she says don’t stop me. even if you stop me but he interrupts – because I made you into new money you had a hard time. sorry – I was wrong. if you cant do it – give up and come down. she says should we go in then
MS asks what did you say – say that again. ES tells the kids -the reason I have to work is cuz I have to earn money. the reason I have to earn money is cuz my home is having a hard time. YD shows up and hears. they say but you said you were new money so what are you talking about. ES says sorry for deceiving you all that time. I am not new money – I transferred in as a charity case. Tan stops CY from going to her side cuz it’s reflex for him to want to protect his friend. MS says until now you pretended to be new money. kids are upset that ES -a charity case – dared to mess with Kim Tan who is engaged. some think Tan didn’t know about ES and was deceived. Tan admits yes I was deceived. he goes over to ES and says she was acting so strong so I thought she would be ok but she is shaking. kids says “daebak – he must really mean it. what about Rachel.” Rachel goes out. Tan says there is no music so MS says what are you talking about there is. Tan says coffee is self service cuz ES is off work. MS plays music.
Tan and ES face each other. ES: I did it. Tan: nice to meet you charity case cha ES. I am illegitimate kim Tan. YD watches that and leaves. Tan: now let’s have a party. He reaches over and unties her apron and pulls her hair tie off. he ties a corsage on her wrist. he kisses her forehead in front of everyone.
That was a really long forehead kiss – hope she washed her hair for the sake of his olfactory.
I have to admit something. I really hated the idea floating around that YD and Rachel made a good couple. Rachel just gets more despicable each episode and tonight I really resented that she got so much airtime and YD hardly had any. I don’t think they are suited for each other at all – he needs someone wholesome and kind like ES – not someone so cruel, haughty, fake, selfish, condescending, and petty. If their parents’ engagement gets called off, they better not end up together in the end cuz I will blow a gasket. Rachel shouldn’t be his second choice – she shouldn’t be anyone’s second choice for that matter cuz no guy deserves her – YD didn’t do anything that bad to warrant someone like her as his consolation prize. She deserves to suffer in the grave she dug herself for a while and realize what it really means to love someone. cuz right now – she is just a child who got her toy taken away that she didn’t even want to play with or have any interest in, but the second someone else showed interest in it – all of a sudden that toy meant the world to her. Tan is not her toy and never was -the sooner she realizes he is a person that she cant possess the faster she will get over her loss.
One couple’s love just grows stronger with each new hurdle, while another suitor deals with rejection by spiraling out of control. The damage in his wake includes emotional casualty felt by many – including himself.
ES saw YD at his most vulnerable moments – when he allowed himself to let down his guard and just be an 18 yr old boy in love – that’s why she will always mean so much to him and it’s also why he has such a hard time letting her go. When he is with her or just hears her voice, he doesn’t feel the suffocating weight of loneliness for those few seconds and minutes. When he said that line at the end “I have to let go of you soon anyway so I wont let go now,” I think he meant he knows that she isn’t his to hold onto so even for just a few seconds longer, he wants to be around her – just the two of them so that he can feel calm and normal for that brief time. I bet even he feels himself slipping into destructive mode so by holding onto her – he can hold onto the goodness that’s fighting to surface inside of him. That’s why he told her not to call out his name so softly like that – cuz that’s the voice that brings him back from the brink of doing something crazy like outing Tan’s secret. Contrary to popular belief, I still believe he wouldn’t have told Tan’s secret – he bided his time till ES or Tan came to stop him. He didn’t sit on that secret for that long just to use so easily – Tan already told him he could, but YD struggled over it. That was the scene where he had his head down on the table like ES and then suddenly got up and walked away cuz he had made up his mind. What motivated him to put all this into motion was the bitterness he felt from her rejection, but when the time came down for him to reveal the truth, he gave it another 60 seconds. That part of him that struggled with betraying Tan is what I am holding onto – that hope that it’s not too late for their friendship. ES might have had Tan wrapped around her little finger from the start and can get him to do anything for her, but it’s YD who wrapped her around his heart so she is the only one who has a calming effect on him. If anyone can diffuse this escalating situation in the broadcast room, it’s ES. All she has to do is step up and talk him down. YD is accustomed to being mistreated, but when a little kindness comes his way, it shuts him down faster than any stern warnings or threats. It practically immobilizes him cuz he doesn’t expect to receive any kindness – not just cuz he doesn’t feel like he deserves any, but more to do with unfamiliarity. If others would just treat him nicer, he would finally learn how good it feels to receive it and then eventually learn to extend some. He isn’t a hopeless cause yet, someone just needs to step up and show him that.
Putting on that brave face in front of her took every ounce of courage out of him, but to his credit, he didn’t let her see his pain till his back was to her. I get that ES is happy with Tan, but she could have let YD down a little easier. From day one, Tan and ES’s relationship was headed down an obvious path and we knew they wouldn’t be taking any detours along the way dating other people, but knowing that didn’t stop me from hoping from time to time that ES would cut YD some slack. Would it have killed her to see beyond Tan’s perfect smile and cute gestures to get just a tiny sense of the pain and loneliness YD must be going through being hopelessly in love with his former friend’s girl. Pretty sure YD fans tonight were throwing the life preservers in the water and getting ready to start bailing out the overflowing water in this sinking ship, but there is a part of me that wants to hold out for just a glimpse of the sun in the horizon on this stormy sea.
ES: are you ok? what happened. Tan: In America you said that if I was in danger that you would hold my hand and run (with me), does that apply in Korea too? She shakes her head no but she goes over and puts her arms around him to comfort him. He leans into that hug and surrenders his pain.
When Eun Sang said that line about holding his hand and running if he was in danger, they were crouching behind his dumpsters and hiding from some guys who were after Tan. That was a whole different time and place when she was on equal grounds with him – when they were still just two 18yrs olds who barely knew each other -when she didn’t know her mother’s livelihood depended on his mother’s whims. That carefree girl who was living out a dream in California could easily offer to take his hand, but the one living in reality is having a hard enough time trying to hold her own life together so she isn’t in a position to be saving anyone. That’s why she shook her head no when he asked if she could still take his hand and run, but the one who went over to hug him was the one who didn’t want to care about those things. the only thing on her mind at the moment was to comfort him and dream or no dream – that hug gave her the courage to hold onto him for good and not let him go. Her days of denial and holding back ended here and they both knew it.
Rachel goes to YD and asks what are you – what in the heck were you thinking? YD: this is a situation where having a younger sister is more tiring than I thought. rachel asks why did you know everything and hide it why didn’t you tell me Kim Tan was a child of a mistress. YD: my sister finally went to her fiancé’s home. she says how Tan told them with his own mouth. that he would break the engagement. why didn’t you use this great card all this time. what are you thinking of doing from now on. YD: i’m thinking of keeping your mouth closed – this isn’t asking as a favor but a warning sister. Rachel: are you saying you will keep Tan’s secret? why would you? YD: cuz out of all the things I did – it’s the thing I did the best (keeping Tan’s secret). out of all the things I did – it hurt Tan the most. Tan went one step closer to Cha ES. so you settle your heart – if you are going to break the engagement or not.
*YD has a way of saying stuff that makes me so proud of him and at the same time – make me want to strangle him – wish he wasn’t such a bundle of walking talking contradictions.
Tan takes her to MS’s studio and changes the code. he tells her to sleep here. ES: what are you talking about? I will just… but he cuts her off and says what she was going to say – “I will handle it on my own. I will go to my friend’s. I can be alone.” you said all those things in America. it doesn’t work on me anymore- you are the one who caught me – ah you didn’t catch me -you hugged me. he makes her sit and they have two different conversations. she asks why he cried earlier. he asks where she had been sleeping. why she was with YD so early in the morning the other time- if she slept at YD’s hotel. MS tries to come in and yells at them and Tan traps her from getting up with his long legs.
YD calls ES and Tan takes her phone out of her pocket saying – who is calling? he sees YD’s name and says to her – look at this – you’ve been caught. she says get caught for what – I just don’t need to pick up. Tan: that is more suspicious. Tan answers. hello. YD: does cha ES not have hands? why do you always answer cha ES’s phone. Tan: cuz I’m always with her. just tell me what you want. though I cant guarantee I will relay it to her. YD asks for her to make her SNS public but Tan says there is nothing for you to see there. YD reluctantly asks if Tan and her are friends (on her account) but Tan corrects him we are lovers. YD: be quiet. you revealed to everyone about being illegitimate. what were you thinking to do something like that. Tan: an answer wont come out your head so just sleep. he hangs up on YD.
Tan sees the photos of ES and YD from camp and asks why did you take this. while I was gone for a short time did you two have a lasting memory? look at your expression (in the photo) it doesn’t look like you didn’t like it.
at school Tan and ES walk in hand in hand. YD stares at them holding hands – what are you guys doing. Tan tells her to go into the broadcasting studio first – when he (YD) comes out like that I cant not play with him. you saw a lot. as she walks by, YD says to her – answer your own phone from now on. Tan tells her to go straight. she tells them not to fight with fists and leaves. Tan tells YD not to call her anymore. YD: you revealing who you are yesterday – how could you do that with your mouth -that was a moment I was waiting for a long time. Tan: it’s not too late. the steam has leaked a bit, but the rest of the kids don’t know so hurry and reveal it. YD: I was going to do that. like you said the steam has leaked a bit, I was going to make it a bigger scale and go variety. Tan tells him – doing your best – it looks good. YD: cleaning up the mess will be hard and adding me on too – how will you handle it. Tan: I wont. I will endure it. the person you knew well and the person I am these days are different – so don’t act like we are close or act like we know each other. he walks off and leaves YD staring after him with a look of envy. Bet YD wishes he could be so brazen.
Rachel comes in and tells ES to keep doing what she was doing. there is something I wanted to show you but cant show you yet. when he comes in, Tan tells Rachel to come out and not speak to ES anymore. Rachel slaps Tan. he tells her to do this to him and not torment ES anymore. Rachel tells him to shut up – you illegitimate child. Rachel asks what ES is so surprised about – his secret or the slap on his cheek. ES: I’m surprised by your behavior. that you can say such things so easily. Rachel: cuz here the bloodline is the crown. that’s something too heavy for a nouveau riche like you huh? Rachel tells Tan – this is what makes her a different level than ES so how could be break the engagement – if he is at that level she should have been the one to do that. that he should have held onto her and clung. Tan tells Rachel in no uncertain terms he wouldn’t have chosen Rachel anyway. ES leaves so Rachel asks if he plans to follow her and he says yes and turns to go but Rachel points out how suspicious it was for his mom to pretend to be ES’s mom so Tan tells her not to be interested in his mom or ES.
Tan is guarding the girl’s bathroom and makes other girls go to another one. He is happy to hear ES slept over at BN’s home twice. ES comes out and asks is there no way I can protect you.
YS warns BN not to get CY stolen away from ES and that it’s a waste for BN to be dating a secretary’s son. YS also brings up how Rachel broke off her engagement. Rachel comes over and reveals that YS’s mom is a room salon madam. Rachel asks BN to eat with her
Rachel tells YS her seat is there (the seat for being bullied and treated like an outcast)and tells kids how YS’s mom is a room salon madam. Tan hears about it and goes over there. he takes YS’s place and her plate and eats – pretending he is hungry. Rachel asks what are you doing. don’t you know what that seat is. he asks isn’t it the closest seat to the food. ES comes over and watches. then YD goes over and asks Tan what are you doing now. Tan says how many times must I say it – eating -just let me eat. YD: you are going to break the rule. Tan says I made the rule so I’m breaking it. YD says you made it but I maintained it. doing this without my permission isn’t polite. You cant break the rule. I will let you know why you cant break it – that seat is like this. he pours curry all over tan’s jacket as YS cries. Tan: up to yesterday this seat was like that but starting from today it’s a seat where I could do this. he says sorry to ES and throws his dirty jacket on YD’s face. Tan says to him – have it washed. ES goes over and pulls Tan away. CY takes BN away
ES asks why do you guys do that. do your hearts feel better after doing that. Tan: I didn’t start it. choi YD did it first. ES: did you see him doing that just once or twice? it’s cuz you are reacting strongly. Tan: then do I hold back there? how could I hold back. smell this – I can still smell the curry. ES says how YD is acting like he is in elementary school and she thought Tan was at least junior high. Tan wants to hit her.
CY asks why BN did this. she says I wasn’t the only one in the wrong. I didn’t start it. CY yells the order isn’t important now. she how YS said first to her about what is there to see in a secretary’s son. CY points out you shouldn’t have acted the same as her. what is wrong about what YS said. if you got mad then doesn’t it mean you were embarrassed. during all that time how did you date me being embarrassed of me. BN: not saying that right now. he asks if you did stuff like that (bullying) didn’t you think I would be disappointed. is that all your capable of. she gets mad at him and tells him -how did you manage to date me all this time being so disappointed. why do you have to be disappointed in me over those guys. CY: you sure do talk pretty. BN: go – I don’t want to see you – get lost. she walks off
Tan comes home and his dad says after what you did yesterday you lost the right to live in my home. leave my home. he asks for Tan’s phone, coat, and wallet. what you did yesterday means you don’t like your dad. you need to regret. Tan takes off his coat and leaves his wallet and phone. he asks just for his uniform and shoes and will return them later so his dad agrees cuz Tan still needs to go to school. Tan: I know Rachel was my insurance in life, but insurance shouldn’t become my life father. Tan thanks him for taking care of him all this time. he bows and leaves as his mom holds onto him.
ES runs out of her part time job cuz Tan needs cab fare. she hits him for being broke and still taking a cab. he says I will pay you back. he asks for a drink but she gives him free water. she asks what he is doing to do now. he says I will study hard and succeed. she says go out for kpop star instead. he says no – I cant sing well. she asks but can you study well. he asks for her phone so he can call and ask to borrow money from HS, MS, CY, and BN. she says how about choi YD and gets Tan mad. I will pay you later for the calls.
*Tan is offering to pay for every little thing just the way ES did in Cali.
Tan gathers the 3 guys and asks them like it’s an honor – who will put me up for the night, give me a ride tm, and buy him food- no volunteers. MS acts like he stood agreeing to feed Tan but walks off.
BN comes in and CY offers to leave instead so she can stay. others realize they fought. Tan yells – I got kicked out – focus on me. HS asks why Tan was kicked out-what trouble did he cause. Tan says cant go into the story but my dad was angry my mom cried and I was slapped. HS offers to put him up for the night but Tan is too scared of HS’s mom and declines. HS: she is scary. first time I’m envious of a guy who left home.
ES comes out of her job and Tan’s mom is there. his mom asks do you work here. ES: yes. his mom asks did you sleep here too. ES says yes the staff room is nice. his mom asks – you are so strong/obstinate. just cuz I said leave – how can you really leave like this and hang in there. each day the weather gets colder and I know full well you have no place to go – haven’t you considered when I see your mom that I feel ashamed? after kicking you out – whether I can sleep (comfortably) with both legs stretched out -whether I can eat the food your mom puts out -are you trying to say “let’s see if she can” why does your face look so unwell after just a few days. his mom asks if ES knows Tan left home. ES: I’m sorry. his mom says this is on me – it’s not your fault. where is my Tan right now? did he come to see you? he did huh? he left his phone so I am at a loss. why cant you answer – did Tan come here or not? Tan shows up and I came – why. she hits him. I knew you would do this. I knew I would see you if I came here. he asks- say it with words. why do women I like always hit with fists first. his mom says I came to drag you back. let’s go home and beg forgiveness from your father. Tan: I got kicked out so how could I go there. I wont go. she worries that if he doesn’t return – ES and Tan will be caught setting up house. Tan says he already does know cuz he put a person on me. his mom asks her to take her side so ES says I will go back. Tan: how could you go in when I came out. ES: that’s why I have to go back. you come back too. his mom says ES is smart. he asks his mom to take good care of his girlfriend. his mom makes him take his phone and clothes. his mom wonders aloud to ES – how could Tan trust me to take care of you -what is he trusting?
her mom wonders how ES came in together with his mom. so ES explains how Tan’s mom came to bring her home. ES came to pack up her stuff for their move and she missed her mom. her mom goes to get food for ES.
Tan goes to Won’s hotel room and asks to be put up for one night. won shuts the door on him then opens it again. Tan is eating while Won works. Tan says I got hit by dad. Won says I heard. Tan: when you packed your belonging he didn’t say anything so how could he kick me out penniless. maybe it’s cuz I’m illegitimate – it made me a little sad. Yoon calls and Won finds out most of the stock will go to Tan. after he hangs up, Tan asks was that talk about me? Won: can you not understand or are you acting like you cant understand? so Won gets up and tells him I cant sleep with you -get another room and gives his credit card to Tan.
Tan tries to get a hotel room but YD left a sketch of Tan at the front desk saying “don’t let him check in.” Tan looks at the ugly sketch and asks the man – do I look like this? YD comes up and asks -then how did you think you looked? didnt I draw it well? I saw you ride the elevator a while ago. Tan: doesn’t your hotel have rules? what is the reason? YD: first – cuz you are Kim Tan. second cuz you are Kim Tan. third cuz you are Kim Tan. fourth cuz you got my bike towed. fifth – cuz you broke the rule first. Tan: is it fun for you? YD: it’s fun for me but it looks like you have to go back to your hyung. Tan says -I don’t like saying this but I’m really grateful to you today. you helped me. He walks off while YD’s smile fades.
Tan goes back to Won’s room and sleeps on the couch. Tan asks hyung are you sleeping. are you really sleeping? there are so many things I want to ask you hyung. so many things I want to say. but you slept too early hyung. Won isn’t sleeping and hears all that.
*before this drama ends, I want a scene where Won gives his younger brother a big giant bear hug – it wont come close to making up for all the unnecessary grief Won gave Tan, but it’s a nice start. Bet Tan will hug him back just as hard. They have 18 yrs of brotherly love and affection to catch up on so they better get a move on.
won gives him a ride to school so Tan thanks him. Won tells him to get out. Tan tries to push his luck and ask it would be too hard to come here after work huh? won gives him a you’ve got to be kidding look so Tan says go safely and gets out. Won sees HJ walking by and almost gets out but doesn’t.
*Won could learn a lesson or two from his younger brother. showing bravery in love is nothing to regret. Won didn’t even have the courage to get out of his car to say hello to HJ and wish her good luck on her first day while Tan was courageous enough to leave home to defend his love for his mother and ES.
HJ starts teaching and Tan recognizes her. she tells YD to put his phone away and lower his eyebrows. she says how she heard they discriminate based on money here but she is going to do it by grades and asks for the kid who studies the best so CY gets pointed out.
ES sees Tan coming over and says looking at you today you are really good looking. Tan takes the compliment in stride. he points out how she was tardy today. she slept in cuz she slept deeply. Tan is upset she can sleep without him at the home. ES: how was it with your hyung. Tan: we slept in the same room and passed the time talking about this and that and ate something delicious. ES: sounds like a lie. don’t be like that and come home. even if you rebel cant you do that at home? he thinks she got orders from his mom. how was my mom – did she drink wine yesterday too? ES: are you making me spy now? she brought donuts for him and asks if Tan wants some. she takes a bite of hers and so does he at the same time. she hits him and orders him not to complain about the pain. she is embarrassed he is doing this stuff just anywhere.Tan says I thought about it last night and we are progressing too slowly. she reminds him of their rooftop kiss and blushes. he asks if they are just going to talk about it openly. she stands saying everything has an order.
ES is at work finds out from her manager that in five minutes – the entire place has been rented out for two hours. don’t take any other orders. she asks what is it? a birthday party. he says it might be an event. I will go and come back. must be nice for you ES. She looks baffled. YD shows up and bows at the manager as he leaves. ES says if you are going to cry – come back two hrs later cuz the whole place is rented out. YD:I know. ES: I cant take any other orders. cuz the whole place is rented the store has to be empty. YD: I told them to empty it out. ES: you rented this place? YD: yes. he puts the closed sign facing out. she asks why. he says cuz you wouldn’t answer my call and not go eat noodles with me. cuz if you just see me you avoid me. to see your face I overdid it again. ES: that’s why you rented this place? for two hours? YD: aren’t you going to take my order? ES: have you young masters not ordered at a place like this? follow me (to the counter) but he says – two drinks that are easy to make for you and don’t spit in it.
* say what you will about YD, but you have to admit the guy is funny. He already guessed how much she doesn’t like him so he had to ask her not to spit in his drink – so cute. Kinda makes you wonder – if he is willing to go to this length just to spend some time with her – what will he do if she actually reciprocates his feelings? I get the feeling that YD is all about the chase and once he catches her attention, he is at a loss for words and there will be more awkward silence like this.
she goes about her work ignoring him as he sits there awkwardly. he coughs and says – it feels like there is nothing for you to do but it seems like you are making work. sit for a while and rest. you will really end up a nouveau riche if you keep working like that. She ignores him and keeps mopping. YD warns: you should listen to me. she keeps mopping so he pours half his drink on the floor. YD: if you don’t sit I will pour out the rest. she sits. he says it would have been nice if you sat from the start but you always make me do stuff like this. she interrupts and asks what the heck do you want from me? YD takes his time and then says earnestly: for you to pick up your own phone (when I call). when I speak to you – for you to answer me. when our gazes meet- for you to say hi. ES: now I know. I know that you like me. so that’s why even though you knew all my secrets – your heart that acted like you didn’t know -now I get it. sorry for avoiding you. so there is only one thing for me to do. I have to turn down your heart. sorry. YD: I’ve been rejected for real. can I get revenge? ES: it would be nice if you didn’t, but if that’s the only way you can relieve (your pain) then do it. it’s the price for turning you down so I will handle/endure it. YD: I cant torment you anymore cuz it hurts my heart. so I will leave you out and torment everyone else. ES: Choi Young Do. YD: be sure to rest for the remaining 20 mins. he managed to put a smile on his face saying all that but walks out looking defeated.
*Do you know what saddens me the most about this scene? It was YD’s rare, but finer moments and just like all the other times, hardly anyone will catch his sincerity. The kind and decent YD I have rooted for finally surfaced, but it’s going to be overlooked just as easily ES dismissed his sincere requests. She doesn’t get how disappointed he gets each time he calls expecting to hear her voice and getting Tan on the other line. Tan and ES have their whole lives to spend together being in love so why can’t ES spare YD’s feelings for just a second and take his calls herself and not avoid him when she sees him around. It seems like such a small price to pay to keep the peace between everyone cuz if you ask me, each time she hurts YD, he thinks of a new way to get even – with the wrong person like Tan. I’m not trying to stick up for YD’s wrongdoings – just saying I get where his impulse to inflict pain comes from. When you are going through as much as he does with no one by your side to support you, you lose your sense of right and wrong and end up hurting the ones you care about deep down inside. YD really does care for Tan and it’s obvious from the look of regret on his face after each of their fights.
YD rests his head on the table at school like ES did. he remembers how she said “there is only one thing for me to do. turn you down. sorry.” He makes up his mind and walks out.
Tan goes to his locker and finds his cleaned uniform hanging inside. He hears YD’s voice comes out all over the school and the topic is about Tan – the second son of jeguk group. ES runs down the hall to stop YD. YD says I will reveal the truth in 60 secs. he quotes ” Your enemy is not the person standing in front of you with a knife but the person next to you who hides the knife behind his back.” it’s like they scanned how I feel about Kim Tan. all of you don’t know the reason so you cant understand/sympathize. ES runs in and she shuts off everything just as he says the moment I was waiting for is here- the person I was waiting for. she asks if this broadcast booth is his playground and that it’s grounds for suspension but he says it doesn’t matter. you are sheltering Kim Tan from each incident. is your dating relationship a weakness for each other? she says be quiet and drags him out but he holds onto her so she says let go. is this the revenge you said you would do. let go. he says I wont let go -I have to let go in a little bit anyway but I wont let go now. I did all this fuss for this short moment. so you be patient over this. ES says softly: stop Young Do. he pushes her against the wall and says don’t call me like that. (cuz his resolve is breaking) Tan shows up and sees them and tries to get in, but YD locks the door. he holds onto ES. Tan kicks at the door saying “open the door before I kill you.” ES says open the door choi Young Do. Tan: open up – if I go in you will die by my hands. open it! YD says to ES – when I said I would torment everyone else but you-it included Kim Tan and of course it included me too.
When ES rejected him, we all knew YD wasn’t the type to curl up into a fetal position and pine away for her drowning his pain eating ice cream, but I didn’t expect him to do this. All this time, I’ve been sticking up for this guy and trying to defend his actions till I was blue in the face, but he has to go and pull this childish stunt to get Tan and ES’s full attention. Even though he held her back from opening the door, I’m not worried about YD doing something crazy or stupid to her – he respects and likes her too much to do anything besides holding her back. I asked Joonni to verify cuz I sensed that he was stalling -not just for ES and Tan to come and stop him from revealing Tan’s birth secret, but cuz YD genuinely doesn’t seem to want to tell everyone – like if he does, then any residual hope for human decency is gone and his soul will be lost forever. There is a side of him that still regrets losing his friendship with Tan and that’s the side that’s been overlooked and pushed aside due to the pain of rejection from YD’s first love. I’m dying to know why YD pulled this little stunt, but I’m more curious about what he hoped to get out of it.
Fans of this show wonder how I could like a character like YD, but they don’t see what I try to see. Yes it actually takes some effort at times to see the good in him, but you know what – he is consistent in the sense that he does have a good side. you just have a hard time finding it cuz you have to sift through his gruff manners and cruel tactics, but there is a kernel of goodness in there somewhere. I was hoping ES would be the one to bring it to light, but I’m beginning to think YD might have to drown in his pain first to come up for some air with a sense of clarity and realize his past misdeeds.
Written earlier right when the episode aired:
I’ve managed to do the impossible. I’ve fallen head over heels in love with a despicable second character and found every excuse in the book to defend him, but YD sure isn’t make it easy for me cuz tonight’s last scene made me almost run out of excuses. Every time he does something that makes me scowl at first, when I replay the scene and catch his emotions written all over his face and hear his voice breaking, I find another layer that is masking his pain. Just wish Young Do would stop doing things that needs defending and just do the right thing for a change. What does he fear he will lose if he just apologizes to Tan and let bygones be bygones. Why keep doing this redundant dance of hurting each other. I just wish someone would inform him that letting go of their feud makes him the better man in the end, but I guess losing his first love to Tan is just too hard a pill to swallow. Guess he needs to mature and grow up more so he has to learn his lessons the hard way so he will need to choke on that pill before he finally gets it. Here is hoping he doesn’t have to choke for too long before Tan or ES gives him some water to wash it down with. As enemies these kids are starting to run their course, but if they collaborate and work as friends, they can wreak some serious havoc on their parents’ plans for them I bet.
These kids are fighting the battles their parents were too cowardly to stand up for themselves and fight. It’s true not only for Won, but mostly for Tan. The events that unfolded tonight was 18 yrs in the making, but it was the last three years spent alone away from his family that really set the pace for what transpired tonight. Tan’s mom never had the courage to assert herself in that home cuz she realized what her position had to be in order to secure Tan’s. All these years JS took advantage of that to look down on his mom every chance she had. Tan watched his mom being belittled and insulted at every turn over the years by his legal mother JS, but what JS never knew was that every insult she threw his mom’s way, Tan’s mom wasn’t the only one hurt by her words. Tan also kept track of each insult, but instead of being scarred by it like his mom, he stored it away to fuel his motivation tonight. Like JS said tonight as she watched Tan tenderly taking care of his mother, this is why people have children. It was hardly discernible, but she said it with a condescending tone of someone who envied Tan’s mom suddenly since JS will never know such devotion. JS never counted on Tan gaining more courage from her vitriol over the years- biding his time to use it all at once. When he finally stood up for the both of them, you couldn’t tell through all her tears and scolding, but Tan’s mom was inwardly beaming with pride. She might have married a coward, but she certainly didn’t raise one. There were verbal fireworks galore tonight and the only two people left shining in the spotlight was Tan, holding on tightly to his mother’s hand. No matter how strong and determined he seemed, I bet he was shaking inside. He might have wavered a bit and told his dad he might one day regret tonight’s actions and if he does he would apologize then, but you sure couldn’t tell all that from how unflinching he was in his stance. Like a little kid, he saved his fear to show the one person he could look vulnerable to. He was strong for his mother tonight, but when he went to face ES, he knew he didn’t have to hold it in any longer. That’s what we were looking at – a boy who fought his battle, but didn’t know the outcome of the war yet. He came to ES for courage, he came to her for comfort, but more importantly, he came to hear her say “you did well.” Then and only then he could allow himself to crumble, so he fought to hold back his tears, but just the sight of her made them start to fall and you know what- no one could blame him cuz mine fell right along with his.
About that last line in E13 preview…
There are two ways to translate what Tan said so it can have two meanings. After Eun Sang tells Tan “have a good dream,” Tan replies: I’m already dreaming – you are there. He could have meant “you are there” in my dreams or he could have meant “it’s cuz you are (sitting over) there” in front of me. I bet anything he meant the second one cuz he is sleeping on the sofa in the same room with her. On a fun note, as soon as Tan asked Eun Sang “who were you with at night? you’ve been caught,” I was hoping like crazy she was with YD. These previews are getting better and better each Sunday – can’t wait till Wed. 🙂
About that scene where Young Do says to Rachel “I’m thinking of keeping your mouth shut – this isn’t asking a favor – it’s a warning,” YD is probably referring to keeping Rachel mum about Tan being illegitimate (unless Rachel figured out who Eun Sang’s mom is on E13). Just like how YD kept ES’s secret about being poor out of his feelings for her, I hope Rachel will do the decent thing and keep silent about Tan being illegitimate. If Rachel had any true feelings towards Tan at all, I think she will. But the amount of jealousy and resentment Rachel has stored up, who knows what she will do about Tan’s secret.
By the end of the series, I think all these kids will step out from under their parent’s shadows to cast their own on the world – one that is bigger and greater than their parents. Not only will they learn from their parents’ mistakes, they will be inspired to avoid them at all costs. Even someone like YD is changing his spots. He is no longer the same bully we met on E1. Now he cares too much to hurt people the way he has been trained and taught by his father. maybe Tan’s courage will rub off on him and YD will want to exert himself as well. pretty soon YD will follow suit and one of these days when his dad lifts his hand to strike YD, this time YD will hold him back. Same for Won. I hope he realizes love might be a better choice than being the heir – at most, wouldn’t it be satisfying to see his father not getting his way for once. I never mentioned it before, but I really love HS. Not just for overcoming his suicide attempt so well, but for deciding to choose life the way he wants to live it. These kids are learning to make their own rules and not follow the ones laid out for them. they grew up with these parents and they don’t want to be another repeat generation of their parents. breaking the mold is the goal and with each other’s support, I bet they can do it.
After ES pulls her hand away and says she cant do this anymore, Tan holds out his hand for her to hold. YD says don’t take it but she does -with both her hands. Tan knows what she is about to say so he pleads – dont do it. she says we came a long way already – let’s not go anymore. Tan yells don’t do it but she takes her hand away. she says see you around. I will go first and walks away leaving both guys behind. YD says to Tan: you make people leave as always
YD catches up to her. he gets in her path. she says move away. he sees her crying and says ppl will think I kidnapped you. she cries and asks did Tan leave? YD: is it over between the two of you? why? I want to have a party now so why are you crying. your first class is gym huh?on a great day like today want to ditch class and have a party? ES: is that something someone ranked 98 should be saying? she keeps sobbing and walks away. he mutters she wont be caught by me.
Tan stares at ES in gym class. BN goes over to ES saying how surprised she was cuz ES left without eating breakfast. ES thanks her for letting her crash. CY: you called me yesterday – why? Tan: why didn’t you pick up? CY: I am not your secretary. Tan: it was that urgent (for me to call you). did you put Cha ES up for the night yesterday. CY doesn’t know anything about it and asks what is that about – ES slept outside? Tan: never mind if you don’t know. so it wasn’t you? BN asks when ES is going to give her CY’s pics so ES says soon. Tan remembers how ES went to YD’s hotel and thinks she went to him.
in the locker room, Tan asks YD if she cried a lot this morning. YD: why ask so openly? Tan: just in case you think “maybe” don’t do it. it’s not a chance for you. this is my chance.
*Tan didn’t want YD to think just cuz she let go of Tan’s hand that YD might think he has a chance with her so Tan is clarifying “this is my chance” to mean it’s his chance to prove to her that she hasn’t gone close enough to him to know if he is out of reach so it’s up to Tan to prove to her that he means what he said to her.
YD is looking up her SNS account and mutters why are there so many (Cha Eun Sungs). he looks at each photo of the girls and makes a face cuz they aren’t ES. MS puts up pics from the camping trip and notices YD staring at ES in most of them. so MS asks him if he really likes ES. YD: did someone/I say that. BN says everyone knows that something is going on between ES and Tan and you played a big role in making that happen. MS says there are lots of girls in the world half of them women so why find your first love at school. BN cant believe ES is his first love so YD looks at the photos and says that’s how I look when I look at Cha ES. I will be going first. he leaves as MS mutters – where are you going. you cant forget your first love – it’s in the rules. BN: that’s right look at me and Tan. MS: to tell the truth how was that first love it was unreciprocated love -you chased after Tan. she argues what difference is it to you if I chased or was chased and what right do you have to say who is my first love
*I already guessed that ES was his first love and wrote that on previous posts. here are the clues that just screamed out she was his first love: he changes around her – his voice, tone, attitude, smile, mannerism, the way he looks at her – everything softens and gets more gentle around her. next – he has a rule about not bullying girls – cuz he knows how awkward he can be around them – tongue tied and inept. Maybe it’s from not having any female influence around in his life, but the way he acts around ES clearly shows he has not dated much. then you have his dad’s numerous girlfriends. YD just grew up distrusting women and is very strict about the types of girls he likes – they have to be the opposite of his dad’s type so ES is ideal in his book. the rest was easy – all the signs pointed to him falling for her – from as far back as when he saw her stick up for herself at the bike shop. he tried to get a look, but she left too quickly before he could. like I said – I think his heart knew before his brain did that he was falling for her.
Tan’s mom asks if he saw ES at school. she wonders if they meet separately. they talk seriously then he asks her to take off those socks (the one ES gave him that his mom always wears)
ES looks at homes. she texts to meet her mom at 5pm and asks her to bring her clothes.
Tan jogs over to HS. Tan sits and tells him the truth that he isn’t a legitimate son.
Won learns from Yoon about HJ working for Jeguk High so Won rushes over and finds her sitting there with his dad. the dad scolds him for not being able to get over one girl. then he scolds HJ for meeting his son. Won yells at his dad to stop. why confess to her in my place – I haven’t confessed to her yet. she cries and excuses herself. Won lists what he has done to get into that seat but his dad says hurry and settle things (as in get over her) cuz you have to get married soon. won says I will settle it quickly
HJ cries and leaves. Tan asks if she is ok. she says you are Tan. Tan: do you know me? HJ: I will see you again soon. he asks did you walk here? the big street is far to walk so should I call a cab but she asks him to hold onto his brother as a favor. when Won comes out Tan says the person who just came out, she went that way and told me to hold onto you. won says I wasn’t going to go after her. Tan says you don’t look well hyung -is something going on. Won says how their dad hired someone to keep tabs on them and tells Tan to be careful too
HJ sits at the bus stop. Tan goes over and says hyung wont come. he just left. she says I wasn’t waiting. he asks who are you? are you my hyung’s girlfriend. how did you recognize me a while ago? did hyung talk about me. she says all the nice things Won said about Tan by quoting Won-“my dongsang is warm, straightforward, grew tall a lot, and his eyes are like mine” she looks at Tan and says your eyes really are.
Tan sits there basking in the praise from his hyung he never got to hear directly, but at least it was through someone Won likes so I bet that was close enough for now. The camera pans over both of their faces so it made me think that these two people are in love with someone who isn’t good at expressing his love, but nevertheless, they still feel his love and that’s all that matters.
ES’s mom texts ES – I am leaving now. she shows the note to Tan’s mom that she will work till the end of the month and to hire someone else. his mom says ok then she thinks her mom is leaving right now and gets panicked saying-“are you going right now so suddenly right after saying that- this isn’t right – also that shopping bag is ours” but then she calms down when she realizes her mom isn’t leaving for good yet.
YD goes over and sits near her mom. He called ES and asks where are you? ES: I am busy now. he says I am so grateful. ES: for what? YD: for picking up when you are busy. ES: If I don’t pick up I get nervous that something bad might happen. but why did you call? YD: I am near your neighborhood so want to eat noodles with me” but she hangs up. he mutters how messed up her phone habits are. ES walks over and sees her mom is waiting at the same convenience store as YD so when he calls back ES hides and answers his call. he starts to say “if you don’t like noodles” but she quickly agrees to eat noodles with him saying she likes it a lot. she tells him where she is and tells him to come to her. he cant stop grinning as he hangs up cuz to him this is like their first date. She sent him the other way so he rides off. she meets with her mom and her mom mentions how she told Tan’s mom they were leaving. ES fills her in on the cheapest one room she found for them so far. I will text after I find some more. her mom wonders who ES is staying with so ES says a friend from school who has a pretty face and heart. her mom is so grateful and wishes she brought side dishes for her friend. ES: later. I have to go now I’m late for my part time job. I will text mom. she gets up and leaves.
she walks off and meets YD. he asks why did you ask to meet at the intersection and come from the direction of the convenience store – I was in front of it. he notices the shopping bag she is holding – the one he saw with her mom. he realizes she is carrying the bag her mom brought for her . ES lies and says you did? I didn’t know. he smiles and says you probably didn’t know cuz you aren’t psychic. but I have somewhere to go for a sec so stay here for a short while. ten mins? 15? she says I wont wait, but he asks her to wait and rides off
he waits for her mom by the front gate and says “hello mother” is ES is at home? she shakes her head no. when he asks “you are ES’s mother right?” she nods yes. YD goes over and says we were supposed to meet but I cant contact her. what time does ES come home? so her mom types on her phone – ES went to her part time job now.
*I don’t think he was surprised to learn ES’s mom is the housekeeper, but I think he was stunned by the fact that her mom couldn’t speak. I love how he addressed her as “mother” cuz that’s how you call your friend’s moms and he was so super sweet to her – very polite too.
YD is riding down the hill and runs into Tan. Tan asks why are you going from that way. YD says there are a lot of people living in your neighborhood that I want to see so maybe I should move here. Tan: do we have a relationship where we kid around? why are you coming from that direction. YD: what difference does it make where I came from. Tan: it doesn’t matter where you came from but if it’s my home I don’t have the confidence to just let you leave. YD rubs it in – cuz Cha ES didn’t take your hand, you’re losing it. Tan: do you want to see more. YD: I want to see but I have to meet someone who makes my heart race so I don’t have time to do my best with you right now. I will be going first
Won texts Tan they all have to play golf tm with YD and his dad and to prepare for it
YD rides back and looks for ES.
she looks in the bag and sees the I love cali t-shirt. her mom texts saying your friend came just a while ago- a guy riding a bike -how could you let him come looking for you here. call him” ES runs back
YD waits and sees her running towards him. he says number 6 she is the daughter of the housekeeper -a mute. he asks why she came back. ES: same reason why you waited. YD: I bet not. waiting is my habit. she says you know everything cuz you met my mom. you should have been patient a little while longer. I am going to leave there soon. YD: I already found out. they should just get rid of all these cell phones. ES: tell the other kids if you want – torment if you want to torment – but until my mom and I leave – don’t come looking for me again. cuz that place is where my mom works. YD: did anyone say anything? if you are done talking – let’s go eat noodles. ES: don’t avoid and speak directly/clearly. so I can prepare my heart. what are you going to do to me now?! YD: what can I do?! I don’t know what to do about my own pain so what can I do about your pain. I was just lonely cuz you left. cuz you came back I’m happy. your secret is heavy. just that. did I say I would do anything. she says I saw you do something a lot (meaning all that bullying). you did that to me too. YD: that’s why I cant do anything to you now. so all I can do is ask to eat noodles. I cant play with you. let’s eat noodles next time. he rides off leaving her shocked.
Didn’t recognize it before but this was another confession. that sincerity YD wanted Tan to relay to her, if she didn’t get the message then she got it very clearly now. if you crack open an egg, the yolk spills out. that’s what happened here. she made him crack. he said aloud everything he has been holding in. even admitting how he felt bad about how he tormented her before so that’s why he cant do anything now. he knows he owes her big and must keep her secret about her mom for tripping ES and letting her fall into the pool. I love that he reacts like a hurt kid. all he wanted was to eat with her, but she jumped down his throat accusing him of doing something he had no intention of doing. She has never been able to trust him, but I thought she was over that by now but I was wrong. hopefully she got the message now. he is no longer the enemy – just a boy who wants to make amends with her but she wont give him that chance and he doesn’t know what else he can do to show her he wants that chance so much.
Yesterday I made a comparison about Tan and YD’s love for ES and I wanted to explain what I meant by it. Tan straight out said from the start that he would protect her – he has made that promise repeatedly, inwardly knowing that he might not be able to keep that sort of promise, but when YD was finally given the chance to speak up – he said very honestly that he doesn’t know what to do with his own pain so what could he do about hers. It’s like Tan wants to protect her at all costs – even if that price is getting her mom fired by sticking up for ES with his own mom while YD doesn’t want to make any promises to her face, but quietly wants to be the one to protect her and does so each and every time he keeps silent about ES’s secrets – starting from all her part time jobs and how she wasn’t from new money. I’m not saying one love is better than the other, but if actions could speak for itself, it’s not hard to see who would inflict a lesser amount of headache and pain for ES right now. I never once agreed to views that YD tormented or terrorized her at the start- if anything he was super cautious not to sound offensive. People might argue that YD is the one who tripped her in the cafeteria and also made her fall into that pool, but in his defense, she wouldn’t have been tripped in the first place if Tan hadn’t tried to take her out of there so he shares half the blame for that. Just listen to their dialogue – that lunch would have gone on and finished just as peacefully as the one in the hotel room and she wouldn’t have been harmed at all if it hadn’t been for Tan jumping to conclusions that YD was bullying her. As for letting her fall into that pool, YD wanted to give her an eye opening reality check for her sake. YD just didn’t realize that it was something she was already fully aware of. It’s hard to justify such an action as protection, but he wanted to prevent ES from getting her feelings hurt later on. Most would agree his intentions were good, but how he chose to carry out his message was the mistake. At least he learned his lesson from it.
won, tan, YD, and his dad play golf. YD tells Tan talk to your hyung some. cuz it makes it obvious you aren’t full brothers (meaning shares only one parent). Tan : don’t talk to me. YD comments how the world got better cuz illegitimate sons get permission and stuff. they threaten about how each are holding weapons -Tan says I’m holding a golf club. YD: are my hands empty? Tan: will it be ok in front of your dad (meaning to fight and lose)YD: you only see a golf club in my hand as a weapon huh? will the kids be more shocked about you being an illegitimate son or be more shocked that ES is your housekeeper’s daughter or will the most shock be that you an illegitimate son is dating Cha ES. Tan: you found out. do we look good together? YD : your voice is shaking right now. Tan grabs him by the collar. I know you are trying hard, but don’t think of threatening ES with stuff like that. you don’t need to come on that strong. YD: why would I threaten her? I’m threatening you right now. so don’t protect Cha ES mindlessly. if you protect her I have no choice but to reveal her identity. if you don’t protect Cha ES, I will protect everything. (It’s hard to get a sense of what’s going on here but YD just wants Tan to back away from ES so he is threatening to reveal her secret, but this was just a threat with no intent to carry it out no matter what Tan answered) Tan: starting from now listen carefully to my words. in order for me to beat you at this fight – I have to go back to the misfit I was in the past, but I don’t want to do that. now I do it with thinking. but if you react like this my thoughts might change. YD: even if you do you cant beat me. Tan: if I go back to the way I was to beat just you – you will really die. cuz I will beat just you. you – your father-your father’s company – the kids hanging around next to you – their dads’ companies -all the lives of the people next to you – I will tear them all up. YD says how could you as a child of a mistress? Tan: you said that 3 yrs ago too. that woman we saw the other day if she has a child with my dad -that kind of kid would be like you. it’s true I am a child of a mistress but the truth that I am Jeguk group’s second son doesn’t change. if I get on my father’s back – will someone like you be able to dare fight me? YD: 3 yrs ago you said that – “you would regret this moment forever choi YD” you should have run to me a little sooner back then- before I lost my mom. Tan explains how angry he was and he gave YD five mins as punishment. then Tan ran back to YD and they ran together to meet YD’s mom but she left by then. Tan: do you remember that? what was on the table. two forks. cuz you wanted to beat just me in a fight you lost your chance to eat with your mom for the last time. It doesn’t matter what you do to me, but don’t mess with Cha ES. please – let’s live settling things between us so that we are just regular people to one another. I don’t have time to fight you now cuz I’m preparing for a bigger fight. YD remains silent but I got the feeling that he respected Tan for a second here.
There was an invisible white flag waving at the end of this scene. A truce had been called and both of their silence acknowledged it. This is how they should have started when Tan first returned – speaking to one another as people and not two former friends who were hurt by the other, but wasn’t sure why they continued to hold onto a grudge neither one cared about. it must have been exhausting fighting all this time when neither one had the heart to win over the other. cuz winning entails hurting the former friend even more than they already did. I admit YD pushed Tan’s buttons way too much in the beginning, but Tan wasn’t exactly an angel either in response. when YD started to change recently and back down more, Tan didn’t pick up on it and kept up the fight cuz of his jealousy over ES and YD talking alone so often. I wish this truce had been called over their mutual desire to protect ES, but if remnants of their former friendship was the cause, no complaints here.
ES is at her locker and sees Tan walking by. he doesn’t turn around and keeps going.
BN tells ES that YD likes ES. “it’s a secret. don’t act like you know in front of YD.”
YS’s mom speaks with Tan’s mom and YS’s mom advises not to let the maid leave since she knows all of Tan’s mom’s secrets. his mom then finds out Rachel and her mom will come to eat here so she confronts JS about it.
as Tan’s mom cries in her room cuz she has to hide during the dinner when Esther and Rachel arrive. ES’s mom takes her water and writes that the guests said hello and went straight to eat dinner. his mom thanks her.
Tan arrives late to dinner. he invites Rachel to come up to his room if she is done eating. Rachel doesn’t go into his room cuz she was thinking about what YD was talking about when he said there is something shocking that he saw at Tan’s home. she goes in and sees the dream catcher. he invites her to sit. he apologizes in advance for what he is about to do that is wrong. he is going to show starting now what YD saw that she was so curious about.
JS rubs it in to Tan’s mom how this is her place -even after 18 yrs. his mom yells hurry and go out cuz you have guests. JS throws water on her for that. Tan goes in. JS tells him to shut the door and leave but he goes over and wipes the water off his mom’s face. his mom asks Tan: why did you come in. what if your dad looks for you. JS watches the son taking care of his mom and says: this must be why they have kids and live. Tan takes her hand and says mom don’t let go of my hand. let’s go out. she asks what? are you crazy – go out where. why are you like this? Tan holds his mom’s hand and goes out to where esther and Rachel are. Esther says aren’t you Cha ES’s mom? Tan: no you saw wrong. the person next to me is my mom. my real mother – the one who gave birth to me. I am the jeguk group second son- an illegitimate . I know what parentage and confession means to my father, director Lee, President Lee, and my friends. so I will end this engagement. Esther: what is this. this is so unbelievable I cant say anything. his dad says I will contact you about setting the date (to discuss this) but Esther says I set the date and I will call. JS follows them out trying to explain. tan’s mom begs his dad to forgive her son saying this is all my fault and begs Tan to beg forgiveness, but his dad slaps Tan twice. his mom lies and says I made him do this -Tan did nothing wrong. I said I was having a hard time living like this. now that you are all grown – you do something about it. I was crazy for a second. Tan begs his mom to stop but she says beg for forgiveness. Tan: I don’t want to. I wont beg now. after I live and end up regretting this choice, I will apologize then. I have the confidence not to regret. his dad calls him lacking, pathetic, and a fool. Tan says it’s ok if you kick me out but since mom is your woman, take responsibility for her. his dad leaves and his mom keeps asking how could you do this you awful kid.
*I don’t care for YD’s dad at all, but after watching how Tan’s dad behaved tonight – those two dads are a tie for the worst father. I hate that Tan’s dad put Tan in this situation. Just how much longer did his dad expect his son to tolerate the abuse heaped on his mom – all because the dad cheated on his wife with her. Tan’s mom is at fault as well for getting involved with a married man, but it’s clear the woman suffered all these years for her choice but his dad just sits there day after day deciding the fate of his two sons and dictating who they should love when he has no right to do so. I don’t care how successful he has been in business, cuz his failures as a husband, father, and a decent human being outweighs the other.
Tan tells his mom to stop crying. you will get sick if you keep this up. unless you want to punish me -don’t get sick. she says why did you do this. did you think this was the right thing to do for me? after sending you to America -for 3 yrs living between your dad and Won – I couldn’t breathe. just waiting for you to come back so how could you do this. Tan says sorry I think differently than you. I’m really sorry. she cries and says now what do we do.
ES gets scolded for not doing her job properly. she made other mistakes too so the guy wonders why she is like this.
she takes out the trash and Tan is standing there. he has tears in his eyes and just stands there crying. she starts to cry too and neither one of them moves.
No one can disagree that Tan finally held onto the right hand at the perfect time tonight, but I have to admit this scene killed me. I didn’t have any questions as to why he stood there crying. He just came back from doing what he always promised. He wants to protect ES, but before he can do that he needs to protect his mom, he needs to stand up to his dad, and one more thing he should have done but didn’t have the courage till now – break off that engagement with Rachel. Even though he was always honest with Rachel about his feelings for ES- as long as the engagement was still on, he couldn’t truly claim to belong to ES or even ask ES to be his until he was a free man. That made me wonder about his tears – was it cuz it was so difficult standing up to his dad like that or if his actions finally caught up to him so it made him wonder and rethink what other repercussions there might be for his actions. one certainty he never had to doubt was poor or an heir, ES would take him either way.
Getting swept of your feet never looked better. Turns out tormenting isn’t the only thing YD excels at – he is really outdoing himself being a lovesick puppy.