More reflections on Heirs cuz the loaded meaning behind each word keeps you on your toes.
When Chan Young asked – did you fight with Kim Tan, Eun Sang wrote in reply – I’m in the process of running away. She went to the rooftop and closed her eyes remembering that kiss. When she opens them, she sees Tan across the way on another rooftop looking over at her. This is yet again another divide that is separating them. Here she is wanting to run away from her growing feelings for him, but finding herself going back to this spot where they have shared memories. Sooner or later Eun Sang is going to realize there is a limit to how far you can run if your heart keeps coming back to the same spot and same conclusion.
Tan lies to YD and says that ES was a previous appointment. he apologizes to her for making her come all this way. let’s see the show next time. as you can see I cant keep my appointment with you. she says don’t worry about me – I will go home so text. she turns to leave as YD calls out to her but Tan blocks his path and tells her to keep going straight ahead so she walks away from the house. YD: what are you guys. Tan: what does it seem like? YD: her coming and going so openly in a home that has a lot of secrets – there is just one. YD: are you related? Tan: it’s siblings stupid. YD: it means to explain. why let her openly come and go. does your fiancé know? Tan: I am dating Cha ES – it’s not an excuse – it’s an explanation. Rachel already knows. do you want to stay more? I have something to do. YD: are you running away? Tan: I am going to go get revenge. when you came to my home, you came prepared for that much right? YD: what is this talk? Tan: if you are curious – follow me. even if you don’t want to regret, you will have to come.
Tan goes to YD’s dad’s office and says hello -have you been well. YD’s dad says I heard you came from America. if I saw you on the street I wouldn’t have recognized you. now it’s noticeable that you are a grown man. President Kim must feel strong ( to have a son all grown backing him). YD barges in and asks Tan – what are you doing right now. Tan: I told you you would be curious. Tan tells YD’s dad – to tell the truth I came to apologize. YD tells Tan to shut up. his dad says for YD to be still. the dad tells Tan to speak. Tan admits to hitting YD twice. I feel awful about it and I am repenting. I am sorry. he bows to the dad. the dad says young men could fight with each other. instead of keeping it bottled up inside, I think it’s healthier to let it out. you came and apologized -you grew up really well Tan. Tan: after apologizing I feel better. thank you for accepting. he tells YD – see you at school. he hits him on the arm and leaves. YD glares at Tan’s back and then prepares himself. His dad slaps him and scolds him for getting hit twice
Tan walks out smirking.
*crud – he did know this would happen to YD and did it anyway. During the live broadcast, I wondered if Tan knew this would happen to YD when he came to YD’s dad’s office to tell on YD, but seeing Tan’s smirk now gave it away that he did. Tan was aware that YD’s dad is a fan of corporal punishment and came here anyway and didn’t even think about remaining quiet. Just how much meanness did YD’s actions trigger for Tan to do this to YD in retaliation for YD coming to his home. I’m trying to justify Tan’s actions of letting YD get hit since YD intentionally came to Tan’s home to indirectly insult Tan’s mom, but I’m coming up short. Tan was wrong to do this, but even more wrong to smirk about it. Tan’s father might say some harsh things verbally, but at least Tan was never hit. There is a major difference between verbal and physical abuse – you don’t ever recover from either one of them, but when you have both physical and verbal abuse, the lasting damage is doubled. Wish someone had taught Tan that so he would have thought it over before he basically handed over his former friend to be waylaid by his dad for the umpteenth time. At least if Tan knew the facts, he would have suppressed that smirk.
the dad says what do you lack to go around getting hit. you should have won no matter what you had to do. in the end you should have won. it’s ok just to have me that you cant beat. isn’t that so? the dad starts to take his belt off to whip YD with. YD throws back his dad’s earlier comment to Tan and says “you’re always healthy father never keeping anything bottled up inside and always letting it out like this.” there is a phone sound so the dad quickly says “leave now cuz I cant stand the sight of you,” but YD goes to the door and opens it to find the dad’s hidden girlfriend behind the door. She says hello to him. YD closes the door and walks away and stops to asks his dad – did you do this too when mom was around too or did a woman who would do this become my mom? He doesn’t wait for an answer and leaves.
I was so relieved that his dad didn’t answer cuz that was a loaded question YD was just not prepared to hear the answer to – the truth might have devastated him since just the idea of it tore him up inside.
YD waits for the elevator. flashback to when young YD and Tan were playing video games and hid when his dad came in. they watched his dad make out with his girlfriend.
*I was wondering why his eyes were so red, but that memory made him cry.
I’m beginning to see why YD is so interested in ES. She is the exact opposite of the types of women that his dad dates – women who only see dollar signs and use his dad to get nice things. Never in a million years would ES ever stoop that low for money no matter how desperate she is. Esther doesn’t need his dad’s money, but even she is lowering her standards by overlooking his dad’s cheating habits to profit from this alliance. With someone like ES by his side, YD would never have to worry about infidelity or even question her love. It’s her moral integrity that he is so attracted to and seeks.
when YD gets on the elevator Tan gets on and says not to involve family anymore in their fights. we experienced it once already. its my last warning. YD: with your own mouth you said to leave out family – then is there anything else but one between us – poor ES. so Tan says don’t even think of messing with her. YD: don’t encourage me cuz it makes me want to do my best – I warned you too. the doors open and YD leaves. Tan sighs.
This is the look of regret you get on your face when you realize you just woke a sleeping tiger.
While YD is working at the hotel, Esther comes over to YD saying – I was worried so I came – I heard you fought with Tan at school – are you ok? YD: don’t pay any attention to it. I will handle it on my own. Esther: I will say something to director Lee (JS). I cant overlook it. how could he do this to this good looking face. it’s still swollen. she tries to touch his face to check on it but YD pulls away and tells her to just take care of her own family- we don’t have one drop of blood that is mixed (meaning not related by blood). He reminds her how the public shouldn’t have access here so she says “ok I get it see you next time” and leaves.
I’m getting the impression that YD is really deprived of love. He doesn’t know what a mother figure is for based on how he rebuffed her motherly affection. Not sure if he is keeping his distance with Esther cuz he knows deep down this marriage is never going to happen so he doesn’t want to get attached or if he is doing this to alienate her so she doesn’t want to marry his dad.
Tan’s mom is worried cuz Tan hasn’t come home. ES’s mom says you don’t look well and massages Tan’s mom’s hand. his mom thanks her.
This is another love story that is being overlooked in this drama – one between two mothers from different backgrounds who find themselves sharing similarities they weren’t even aware of till now. ES’s mom understands Tan’s mom’s plight all too well and cares for her like a child. Tan’s mom receives that love and care and appreciates it a lot more than she lets on. I think that was another reason that prompted her to pretend to be ES’s mom at the PTA meeting. She can be of assistance to ES’s mom and at the same time satisfy her own curiosity about those meetings. That’s the kind of reciprocity that could build up a great friendship. One I am hoping will come in handy later on when Tan’s mom discovers Tan’s relationship with ES and will help her to refrain from firing ES’s mom.
Those weren’t just mere steps to Eun Sang. Going up those stairs to his room meant she was taking initiative for the first time to come meet him at his level. His upstairs room was off limit for more reasons than they can count, but ES ventured up there cautious and nervous the entire way. Tan knew that ES would follow him up to his room. He waited behind his door but got too impatient when he noticed she was hesitating too much so he spoke first and asked what she was doing outside his door. if you have something to say come in and say it. if you don’t have anything to say then forget it. He is about to close his door but she says I do. Looking at the dream catcher gave her the courage to cross his threshold. He tells her to talk – what about the camp. she says it’s right for him to go – how could she go. aren’t you thinking of her heart – she was being cool and spent so much for her son and his friends to go to camp so how could you not go. Tan: cuz you were alone with YD like this in his room. ES: what? Tan: when he called you to his hotel – what did you talk about? ES: why talk about that now? suddenly his mom knocks so Tan pushes ES behind him holding onto her hand and opens the door a crack to show only his head. Tan: what? his mom asks why block the door like this and tries to push in but he holds the door and says why try to keep coming into a grown son’s room. I was going to wash up so I took my clothes off. she says sorry and asks what his dad said a while ago. Tan: that I was illegitimate and needed Rachel’s help. his mom gets mad that his dad spoke so harshly and runs off to scold him. she tells Tan to cover up well with his blanket and sleep. Tan closes the door and tells ES to breathe cuz she had been holding her breath. ES: think about going camping again. Tan: I said I wasn’t going. if I go between Choi YD and me – one of us wont be able to live. should I still go? she says sleep well and turns to leave but he says if you leave now you might run into my mom. ES: I can avoid her well. Tan: you wont be able to avoid her. cuz as soon as you go out I will yell. ES calls his bluff and says: yell. Tan: you said to do it. He yells out “mom” so she covers his mouth. Tan: just a short while- a minute. you came to my room for the first time. From here they are no longer talking about his room and more about his position in society and her lower one. ES: I cant come here. where you are living is another world from my room. there are thresholds in this world I cant cross. your room is that kind of threshold. She spoke from her heart and Tan listened but he followed his own. she turns to leave but he holds onto her and pulls her into his embrace. she scolds him for not listening to what she said but he says “wait just a little while. I will make it so that you can cross all the thresholds in this world. right now I am thinking of a way. have fun at camp. I will miss you.” With those words, her last will of resistance is effaced.
Only a kid would make promises like that – something he might not even be able to keep – something he probably doesn’t even have the faith that he can, but youthful courage is what gave him the right to make that sort of promise. and at this point in her life, Eun Sang is willing to open her heart enough to want to believe that she can hold him to that promise.
YD goes and sits across from ES and asks did you watch the show ok? ES: what show? YD: you said you were supposed to see a show with Tan. wasn’t that why you went to Tan’s home? ES: cuz of you I didn’t get to see it – you know so why ask? YD: sorry – I wasn’t being charitable – when you admitted with your own mouth that you were a charity case. then I will ask a question. who is your mom -the one who showed up at the PTA meeting. her daughter gets paid minimum wage of $5 per hour for her many part time jobs but the mom spent thousands of dollars worth of cost for the camping trip in one swoop. who in the world is she- your mom. ES: someone you cant even imagine. also minimum wage is $5.21. will you leave now cuz the day after tm is midterms. YD: who is this girl.
If only it was this easy to wipe away their animosity towards each other and see that they make better friends than enemies. Less pain all around, but not much interesting story for a drama. I wonder if I will ever see any bromance between these two before the finale.
If I wasn’t already a fan, I would still be determined to see this drama through till the end for one reason- just to see the day YD’s hair softens. Shouldn’t they have run out of hair wax by now? Even Gu Jun Pyo straightened out his curls for one scene in BOF so I’m hoping that they go easy on the hair product one of these days and give YD hair you can run your fingers through. something tells me not to hold my breath though.
BN is taking photos of sneakers that look alike for a couple so MS comes over asking what are these. YS says it’s BN and CY’s “couple” items for their camping trip. MS says it fits me perfectly. BN: it is huh? it would “fit” perfectly if you got hit with that huh? get rid of your chicken feet. she grabs her sneakers back. MS says to YS – did you just see that? I didn’t even blink just now. in this situation it’s so hard not to die- I think I grew up well. to tell the truth – just now it was a situation where I could have been hit by BN, but girls think when they hit it doesn’t hurt. why is that so? both girls tuned him out already so he gets silence as an answer. BN sends those sneaker photo to CY.
CY is on his computer studying I guess cuz he says this is why you guys always lose (since he was first in his class for the midterms exam). BN texted let’s get this as our couple item for camping. CY texts back that’s good – let’s go buy them tm, but she texts I already bought them. so instead I want something else. CY: something else what? BN: to hug, piggyback, hold hands, and just to look at me. see you tm. CY grins and texts – 90% is skinship. if I knew this then I wouldn’t have held back. BN: were you holding it in all this time? ya how could you hold that in? pervert. CY reads that and says aloud slowly: pervert?
This is Kim Woo Bin laughing – not Young Do. He has a great natural laugh.
ES tries to get YS to help build the tent together but YS doesn’t want to help so YD comes over and tells ES -do it with me. she is about to put the wrong pole in so YD gets sarcastic and says if you connect this with that it will collapse – are you by any chance trying to construct your grave? (cuz the tent will cave in). He instructs where to hold on and MS comes over with his camera saying they look good and takes their pic. ES says to MS – why do that without saying anything (as in getting permission) so YD says to her -if you are that outraged, my feelings will be hurt. MS looks at the photo and says I thought of it -where I saw you. ES: what are you talking about? MS: it was really early in the morning. you came out of Tan’s front gate didn’t you? wearing a tracksuit. it was you right? YD: at dawn? MS: it was you right? I just remembered. you weren’t fully awake. ES: why would I come out his home? you saw wrong. she goes back to setting up the tent but YD tugs on it and gives her suspicious looks.
instructions are given for the game -shoot the other person’s body with the paint and make them be out. so BN shoots Rachel and says “like this?” YD and MS clap. YD says you are a good shot.
During paintball, ES is sitting alone when YD shoots at her feet and says should I kill her or save her -if you tell me why you came out of Tan’s house so early in the morning I will save you. ES: I said it wasn’t me. YD: it was you. ES: it wasn’t. YD: let’s just say you did that during the day, let’s say you could do that at night too -but you come out at dawn from Kim Tan’s home. what is your identity. are you adopted by any chance? she shoots him as her answer.
I think I know now why YD never bullied girls before – it wasn’t cuz he was gallant or honorable – it was cuz he knew he could never win against them.
YD sits across from ES while they eat. she gets up and walks away cuz he kept kicking the table like a child to get her attention so YD yells – everyone bring your dishes over if you are done eating- Cha ES said she would do the dishes – should I help you?
ES is washing dishes alone and says you said you would help so why aren’t you helping? YD sits there and claims to be giving her moral support. CY comes over to ES and asks why are there so many dishes. why are you doing them alone. he starts to undo his cuffs to help. she looks over at YD as her answer so CY asks YD -did you make this situation. YD asks since what age have you been friends with Cha ES. CY: I asked did you make it so that she is doing dishes alone. YD: then I will switch my question – you knew Cha ES was a charity case didn’t you. BN comes over and asks CY if he is getting water on his hands. YD asks BN – did you know Cha ES was a charity case too. she tells him to be quiet. YD: wow – I was the only one who didn’t know. when MS comes over, he asks why they all got quiet when he came – were you guys talking about me behind my back? YD is about to ask MS if he knows about ES too so ES asks to speak to YD
ES: I have a favor (to ask). YD: are you crazy? ES: I have a request. YD: I have to do something bad to get your interest/attention huh. what the heck is your relationship with Kim Tan. she asks what difference does it make what it is. what are you going to do? what are you? just torment me. just do as you have been doing. now I am no longer afraid of you. she walks away leaving him floored. if they were in a boxing ring, he would be down for the countdown right about now.
ES sits alone and looks at her phone debating whether to call Tan. she calls and Rachel comes over and sees that ES called Tan so she slaps ES. does it hurt. since I was the one who hit you how tormented I must be. you know how much I was patient all this time don’t you. but now I wont do it with words anymore. the time for that has past. even if you were the president’s daughter I would treat you like this. ES: Rachel. Rachel: shut up. to apologize I’m not sure if you have that right. to say it was a misunderstanding – I caught you in the act (of calling him). unless you are going to let me slap the other cheek just shut up and be still. ES says since I got slapped today- I will do something that is worthy of the slap just for today. Rachel: what? ES: I can make the call right? give me the phone. before Rachel can slap her again, YD stops her. Rachel tells him to let go but he says “ah – I didn’t introduce her. starting from now Cha ES is mine so only I will torment her. He takes ES’s phone out of Rachel’s hand and takes ES away.
YD drags ES off and she says you thought it over well – this is more like you (meaning instead of him being nice). he says don’t jump the gun – you didn’t even see half of what is “like me” (as in what I’m capable of). he sees Tan coming over behind her. Tan is on the phone calling her. YD stares at Tan then says to ES – “I will show you from now on” and hugs her with one arm. her back is to Tan so ES didn’t know he arrived. Tan watches their hug as YD locks eyes with him.
*I can’t help it, but I hope E11 starts with this scene and ES kicking YD’s shin. If YD is going to give Esther lectures about boundaries, he needs to hear that from ES as well. She has never once implied she liked him so she needs to show in no uncertain terms that randomly hugging her is out of the question. Since violence is something he is very familiar with, he has a kick coming to him for tripping her in the cafeteria and now this sudden hug so I say “kick away Eun Sang – aim higher than usual to target below his kneecaps cuz he is tall and put a lot of strength into it and leave him limping.” Knowing YD, that will just end up making him admire her even more I bet. Pretty sure if she does kick him, he was already prepared for it the second he decided to hug her.
I’m beginning to see that YD has a lot of misplaced anger that he directs at all the wrong people. The only one should be his dad, but since YD still feels powerless in front of his dad, YD lashes out at anyone weaker than him. By pulling cheap stunts like this saying ES is his and hugging her, in a warped way he is trying to hold onto someone who is slipping away from him more and more each day. He was too young when his mother left him so he never even got to try to hold onto her before she slipped away so now that he is older, he doesn’t want to lose ES to Tan before he even got a shot to pursue her. He knows full well he is way behind, but I think by cheating like this and pulling stunts that puts him in such a negative light, he is trying to get her attention at least. His words about how she hasn’t even seen half of what he is like sounded like a partial declaration, threat, and promise – not just to her but to Tan and himself as well. as if YD is saying he will show her and Tan what he is capable of – not stuff like forced hugs, but the other stuff like protecting her – even if it means protecting her from Tan and what Tan’s family could do to her. YD still doesn’t know the full truth that her mom is the maid, but somehow I get the feeling when he finally learns about that, he wont put the brakes on his feelings for her. If anything he is going to accelerate even more.
Something tells me it’s been a very long time since YD has ever hugged someone. I’m fully aware that he hugged her to show Tan as an act of challenge, but there has to be a part of him that felt awful for using her like this. His feelings for her are genuine even if he is expressing them in the worst possible ways these days so I get that YD doesn’t deserve any leeway for behaving like this, but the wounded lonely part of him has to feel somewhat affected by this hug. I’m not sure if he can backtrack and undo the damage he has done to his relationship with Eun Sang, but one day I hope he gets to know what Tan learned in this episode. When you hold someone in your arms – even in a back hug, when they hold still and don’t struggle, it means they are hugging you back emotionally. If YD keeps this up, he will never get to know how that feels and there is no one who could benefit from a reciprocated hug more than him.
Young Do prides himself in being able to read people so well, but he hasn’t been in this situation before. Where he isn’t certain of the outcome before it happens. Liking someone is unfamiliar territory so he has been doing a terrible job at it and hurting Eun Sang along the way, but something tells me he is a quick study. I think he will realize just what he is doing wrong and amend his tactics and bring on the charm, but we all know how wasted those efforts will be. All the charisma in the world can’t help him when it comes to vying for Eun Sang’s attention cuz her heart is already spoken for. Until the day she sees him for who he really is – a lonely kid who has been taking out his aggressions on the wrong people (the weak ones) and is just now regretting it and stops seeing him as a bully, Young Do won’t make any headway for even a semblance of being likeable in her eyes.
*Regarding all the negative feedback these past episodes have been getting, I just want to say that there is more than one way to enjoy a drama. You can choose to sit back like me and take everything with a grain of salt and just enjoy the story or if you are determined to find faults with it – that’s all you will ever continue to see. Take for example how much fans hate how dark the guys’ lip gloss color is. They hated that from the start so they’ve been focusing on it so now each week, it just seems to get darker. I noticed it too, but it didn’t bother me cuz the last thing I am looking at is the color of their lip gloss- I tend to focus more on a guy’s clothes, body, and hair. Not to mention that I noticed that an American actor on a top drama in the U.S. had on even darker lip gloss recently. Compared to him, what LMH and KWB are wearing is nothing. And that pink fluffy sweater Tan wore last week, it just seems to get pinker and more gay each time fans look at it. I for one didn’t even pay any attention to it till someone else pointed it out, but it still doesn’t bother me cuz LMH can pretty much pull off any color. I thought that color on him softened him and made him more likeable and vulnerable in those scenes when he hugged Won. Same thing for all the product placement ads they have been inserting into the show. One more scene with Won shaving and I’m going to bet that whatever razor brand he has been promoting is getting their money’s worth. Those kind of things happen on almost every program – it’s part of the business of Kdramas so I don’t see the need to point that out all the time. It’s the price we pay for enjoying these dramas so I’m willing to overlook those faults and just relish in the fact that this story is pretty engaging. Even if you wanted to drop it and look away, it’s sort of hard to with the characters progressing each week. I’m not a huge fan of this writer cuz of Lovers in Paris and GD, but after she worked her magic on me during Secret Garden, I want to give her the benefit of the doubt and give her the chance to make it up to me for writing Young Do’s character so difficult to love.
Young Do keeps trying to call her and when she answered and didn’t say anything he asked – are you listening? all he got was silence on the other end so he hangs up and calls again. he chews on his lips as the phone rings. then later on after ES left, Tan picks up her phone and answers it asking YD – where are you? YD: why are you answering this phone? Tan: I said where are you? YD sees ES coming down the stairs and says into the phone – you are on the roof huh? what were the two of you doing on the rooftop? Cha ES is coming down from the roof now. Tan: stay put right there. YD: I have some urgent business so I will be hanging up now.
YD tries to talk to ES and grabs her hand but she shakes his grip off and leaves. Look of regret is written all over his face. MS comes over and asks “why is her uniform like that – it’s totally dirty” so YD tells MS – I made her fall down. MS asks why – by accident? on purpose? you never used to torment girls before so why are you getting worse as time goes by. YD: it wasn’t like that. even though I deserve to be insulted for other things – this time I’m not. MS asks: if it’s not that then what. YD: cuz I was curious – how I would feel if I made Cha Eun Sang trip. MS says: you think that’s different you crazy guy- if you are interested in her then confess – why torment the kid. this is why you hear people say you are childish/juvenile. YD: aren’t you going to be quiet. MS: you be quiet. MS walks off so YD yells for him to stop.
When Young Do said he was curious how he would feel doing that to her, he meant he was testing just how much he likes her. since he felt like total crap for hurting her physically and emotionally, he knows what the answer is – by tripping her he confirmed how much he likes her. if he didn’t care, he wouldn’t have tried to call her so much right after it happened. I can almost bet he really was calling to apologize. it’s too bad that he doesn’t understand that in the race to gain her affection, tripping her not only made it impossible for him to catch up to Tan, but it took Young Do out of the running completely. At this point, even trying to gain her friendship is a long shot.
Young Do keeps telling himself he is doing these things to Eun Sang cuz he is curious about his feelings for her, but he had the answers all along from the first moment his thoughts lingered over her, when he realized how happy he was around her, and when he wanted to protect her and meant every word without realizing it.
That fight wasn’t all about Eun Sang. Tan might have instigated it in retaliation for Young Do tripping Eun Sang, but some of those punches were personal. Probably for all the insults they threw at each other about their mothers. They had that falling out when they were both young kids high on emotions and didn’t know better than to keep quiet when you are hurting. Back then, Tan was trying to comfort him and Young Do lashed out cuz of his own embarrassment and shame and took out his frustrations on a true friend. They have been kicking themselves all these years – Tan regretting confiding in Young Do about his birth mom and Young Do for not seeing what Tan said as a true gesture of friendship and throwing it back at his face. Now that they are older and a bit wiser, their pride is in control and refuses to acknowledge their mistakes and the only difference is instead of just hurting each other with words, now they are using their fists too.
I just want to point out that even though both of their faces were cut and bleeding, Young Do’s hair stayed perfectly in place the whole time. They must be spending a fortune on his industrial strength hair wax – a hurricane wouldn’t budge that do.
Right before he brushes past, Won tells Tan – don’t tell them I came by. I’m just going to get what I left behind and then go right away.
As soon as Tan went to his room he quickly texted Eun Sang “even if mom tells you to – don’t go to the wine cellar today cuz you might run into hyung.” Won never said what he came to get, but Tan already knew it was the wine that Won’s mom made for him.
When Won pulled up, he noticed that Tan was holding onto Eun Sang’s hand so he knows something might be going on between them. His suspicions are confirmed later when he hears from Rachel that Tan likes some other girl. I don’t know why but I have a feeling this might be the one thing that makes Won soften up towards Tan – the fact that both of them like girls their parents would never approve of. It’s such a minor thing in the bigger picture, but it connects these two brothers in a way cuz they both want to follow their hearts and not what society or family tells them to.
Just like Tan warned, Eun Sang is face to face with Won. She is holding one of his bottles of wine. ES explains Tan’s mom asked her to get the wine. Won: it doesn’t matter if you take all of the wine here but I don’t think that one is ok. cuz this one is mine. He takes it from her and reaches for another wine to give her. ES: I am sorry. Won: I wasn’t scolding you. he looks at her and asks do you attend Jeguk? ES: yes. Won: and you live here? ES: yes. Won: it was good to see you. she looks up in surprise when he says that and says “me too. I will be going now.” she bows and leaves.
I was so surprised by how nice Won was to her when they only met that one time before. He is so sweet to her and so mean to Tan so it’s unsettling why Won would treat the housekeeper’s daughter so nicely and not even give a kind word to his own little brother. Maybe it’s cuz Won realizes from experience (having watched HJ when she went to Jeguk) that ES is going to go through a lot of things living in this home and attending that school so he doesn’t want to add to her stress by being another person who gives her grief, but I’m hoping he was nice for a whole other reason.
He sat there looking across at the empty seat and remembered watching her sleeping on that table. It’s like he is mentally drawing lines from his actions to his emotions and coming up with one solution – that his feelings for her were a lot stronger than he has been letting on. That if he doesn’t watch out, he is going to get his heart stomped on and realizing that, I bet he was wondering if could prepare himself for that kind of rejection and pain. The last time a woman turned her back on him – it was his own mother and he never recovered from it. I bet as a bully this emotion might be a new one, but I think he will finally get his first real taste of fear.
Each of them stared at her empty seat for various reasons, but I couldn’t help but notice how many people cared for Eun Sang. Not just concern for her well being, but for her feelings as well. No one might have welcomed her into this school, but already her absence is having an impact on all these people. It’s the same for Eun Sang. She has made some other friends here aside from Tan and Chan Young. Even BN is being so considerate and watching over Eun Sang by looking for her just to give her a change of clothes after the incident in the cafeteria. If BN doesn’t watch out, she might think she is being nice to Eun Sang for Chan Young’s sake, but BN is going to start liking Eun Sang and recognize ES’s good qualities and realize why Chan Young has been such good friends with her all these years.
This is what makes them kids -mostly him. Tan thinks that just having these feelings for her will make a difference, but harsh reality taught Eun Sang that’s not necessarily true. Even though she wanted to keep holding his hand as a girl starting to love, she let go of it and showed him the truth -that he needs to protect himself first. I bet he was so busy chasing after her he didn’t stop to think about the mountain of problems that are right in front of him. If there are so many things in his life that’s broken or strained- like his relationship with his brother, dealing with his step mom and birth mom, and his friendship with Young Do, maybe it’s time to fix some of those first and then focus fully on Eun Sang. They are both at a time in their lives when school should come first and since education matters more to her than him, I was happy that he didn’t argue and walked away. It might have looked like Eun Sang was the brave one for letting him go, but I think it was Tan cuz it takes more courage to leave when all you want to do is stay.
Young Do locates Eun Sang’s former home and looks at the address on the custom’s card and mutters -scoffing that there was talk about her being from new money. The landlady asks if he came to see the home so he says not the home – I came to meet my friend -Cha Eun Sang. the woman says ES move to Pyungchangdong. Young Do smiles and says her and me – it must have been fate. do you by any chance know where in Pyungchangdong? the woman says I don’t know but are you really friends? Young Do: probably so.
The way he laughed at the end cracked me up. It sort of sounded like a kid wishful thinking.
*There is something I always wanted to note about Young Do’s manners towards adults and strangers that’s different from the other kids. Even though he comes off as aloof and rude to other kids, he shows impeccable manners and respect to anyone who is older – no matter what their status in society is. Hate to give credit, but whatever horrible human being his father might be, the way he disciplined his son when it comes to showing manners is something else. At least his father did one thing right. If only the price of that discipline didn’t include so many victims of Young Do’s bullying.
At her part time job at the café some boys lied that there was a hair in their drink and then asks for her number since they come here often. She warns them about the CCTV here recording and how she could call the police if they keep doing this. Suddenly Young Do shows up and says the police came and kicks over the chair of one boy. He recognizes the kid and says it’s been a long time. this is the first time meeting since junior high huh? good to see you again friend. he tries to shake hands but the kid backs away. Young Do: I was so good to you so how could you grow up to be gangsters/bullies. After they run off Young Do says to her – if you are going to be tormented, it should be by me and not those childish punks. She puts the chair upright saying – I cant take customers – it’s time to close up. YD: if I rescued you then say thank you. ES: you are worse. why wasn’t I able to go to school. why was I targeted by you? why the heck are you tormenting me?! YD quietly listens and says I wasn’t tormenting you. if I do this then it seems like I am tormenting you, but today I went to the home you used to live in. ES: what? YD: listen up. number 1- you used to live in that run down home. number 2- but now you live in Pyongchangdong (a very affluent part of Seoul) so we ran into each other in front of the convenience store. number 3- but from what I can see, I’m positive you are a scholarship recipient (charity case) so number 4… she cuts in and says it’s correct. I’m not new money. I did get a scholarship. YD: that’s right – that’s what I thought. ES: so what are you going to do? am I going to be kicked out of Jeguk now? YD: couldn’t do that cuz I like you now. ES: what? YD: but you don’t like me huh?
The hardest questions to ask are the ones you have to expect hearing an answer you don’t want to hear cuz it makes it too real. In this case, Young Do asked that question knowing full well what the answer was and her silence only confirmed it. For a spit second he didn’t know where to look from the blow of feeling rejected, but his gaze went back to her again and stayed.
I bet it was harder for Eun Sang to keep walking than Tan. She did the right thing though – she was strong for the both of them. One word or look that indicated a change of heart and Tan would have turned around and went to her so she forced herself to keep walking. Now they both know how a heavy heart can make each step feel just as weighty.
*this song sounds like PSH singing. it’s the same song that played when she sat outside the front gate and spoke to her mother about missing school.
When that girl YS was drilling ES about her family and poked her, YD stuck up for ES and told YS not to touch Eun Sang. He said it like a partial warning and threat – “how about not laying a hand on her”
Both boys have to do clean up as part of their punishment for fighting. Tan tells Young Do to do his part too and tries to leave, but YD says I’m sick and tired of cleaning cuz I have to always clean at the hotel so I will ask you to do it. He tries to walk away but Tan kicks a bucket of water to stop him. Tan starts to leave but YD asks are you going home? why? do you want to see your real mom? Tan: did your mom come to the PTA meeting today? ah I forgot. your mom ran away huh? Young Do: why throw punches (in boxing) like this -like you are totally enjoying it. Tan: you started it. 3 years ago too and now too.
Young Do and Tan keep hurting each other using their moms as a weapon to wield to inflict pain. Earlier -after they walked out of Tan’s step mom’s office, Young Do rubbed it in that since she isn’t Tan’s real mom (birth mom) that she didn’t seem to care about how banged up Tan’s face got from the fight and only cared about her own career and not tarnishing her reputation at the school. Knowing that Young Do’s mom ran away from home and abandoned Young Do, Tan says hurtfully that it sure does feel good to have the support of a mother (since Young Do wouldn’t know that sort of security). It seems like every time Young Do tries to rub it in that Tan is an illegitimate son, it never works out cuz Young Do has no crutch to stand on since he will always be motherless.
There is no way for Young Do to ever win on this front cuz even though to the public Tan’s step mom is his only mother, in reality he has two mothers and Young Do doesn’t have even one. No matter how many insults he throws Tan’s way about Tan’s birth mom, the fact remains she loved her son so much she was willing to sacrifice even having her identity as Tan’s mom taken away from her and stayed by Tan’s side. Young Do will never know that kind of devotion from his own mom.
*When Tan’s mom offered to go as Eun Sang’s mom in her place to the PTA meeting with the moms, it was so hilarious till Tan’s stepmom came in. Then it became even more hilarious cuz Tan’s mom had already offered to pay for the kid’s camping trip. even though Tan’s mom went there in place of ES’s mom cuz she always wanted to go to the those PTA meetings, I still love that indirectly she did ES a favor.
When Tan asks if she really went there and learns his mom went to that PTA meeting, she brags about how she showed up all the other moms. He scolds how could you think of doing that? She gets worried and asks are you angry? I’m sorry son. I was short sighted. I was just curious – what kind of families you were going to school with – what your friends’ moms looked like – how parent meetings were like – what they do. Tan softens hearing that and just says – mom drink wine less cuz it makes me worry. she agrees to do that.
The maid announces a friend of Tan’s came. Young Do comes in and smiles at Tan and says “hi Tan” like a little kid. YD: is director Lee – no – where is your mother? I have to say hello and then play. (cuz that’s the order of doing things when you go to your friend’s home – you say hi to the parent first so YD was pretending to look for Tan’s step mom since YD knows that Tan’s birth mom is sitting there). She tries to walk away but YD purposely treats her like a housekeeper asking “I’m sorry but please go and get me a glass of water.” So Tan’s mom bows and speaks jondae to Young Do and was about to go to the kitchen and get him some, but Tan did the right thing and spoke up and addressed her as “mom” and stopped her from leaving. Tan told her – mom say hello – this is my friend. She asks why are you doing this (meaning – letting YD know the secret) so YD pretends to be surprised and says- “she is different from the mother I know so I didn’t recognize her. she must be your real mother.” Tan says to his mom – we will go out and talk. He tells YD “come out before I kill you.” Young Do bows and act respectful to her as he follows Tan out.
I didn’t doubt for even a second that Tan would stick up for his mom and acknowledge her as his mom in front of Young Do. Not cuz he doesn’t fear that Young Do will tell everyone else, but solely because Tan would never betray his mom like that. Tan knows full well why his mom drinks so much and why she is suffering living under this roof as the mistress – it’s a title she has to live with to remain by his side and if she can endure that and all the abuse from JS (the current wife), then the least Tan can do is not turn his back on his mom and let his friend treat her like a maid.
While Tan was in California when he didn’t take calls from his mother, I always thought it wasn’t cuz he doesn’t love his mom, it was cuz talking to her would make him more homesick. if he was going to stick it out there in America alone and exiled, he had to cut ties from Korea to endure it. That’s why he didn’t keep in touch with his school friends either while he was over there.
Once they are outside, Young Do points out how he held back in front of Tan’s mom. Then when he sees ES walking over, YD asks “did you have a relationship where you drop by each other’s homes. I didn’t come to do this, but jackpot.”
The tide in this drama is turning. I no longer see just animosity between these two – I see some room for a possibility for reconciliation judging by the elevator scene in the preview. How great would it be if what is keeping them apart (both of them liking ES) actually brings them closer together.
By the way, that muffler YD is wearing sure is long – it could keep Rhode island warm.
In the elevator Tan told YD that they cant bring in families anymore in their fights – meaning leave out the moms. so YD points out “then there is only one between the two of us – poor Cha Eun Sang.”
I certainly hope Young Do meant that – how great would it be if he really felt sorry to her and didn’t want her to be their weapon to hurt each other with. Seeing how hurtful they can be with each other’s moms, I would hate to imagine them doing that with ES. In this case, I think it will definitely be different. The moms never knew how these two kids talked about them, but with ES, she won’t allow that to ever happen. She wont be a pawn in their game so the rules have to change when it comes to ES. She will be voicing her opinions too and standing up to Young Do. That’s why I am so curious as to how YD plans to deal with her. I think the more he goes up against her and gets resistance, he is going to fall for her even more. Spunkiness is what he respects so the more she demonstrates that, the more hopelessly in love he will fall.
Ever since Young Do started to piece together the facts about ES not being from new money, I never once felt uneasy that he would tell the others. I knew that as long as he liked her, her secrets about being poor and working those part time jobs were safe, but now I’m wondering how his attitude will change once he realizes she will never reciprocate his feelings. Will the continual rejection drive him over to the edge and make him lash out and tell her secret or am I just not having enough faith in him. One other reason why I thought he would keep her secret was due to Tan. Even though they stopped being friends ages ago, Young Do kept Tan’s birth secret to himself and it wasn’t just cuz Tan knows about Young Do’s mom leaving him and YD was afraid of that getting out. There was something more mutual than that – a tacit agreement to not lay their shame out in public for others to use as ammo against them. It’s one thing if they use it against each other privately, but I’m pretty sure it’s not something both of them want out there. I also don’t agree with Tan that Young Do will never use Tan’s “Jeguk group’s illegitimate son card” cuz it’s the only worthwhile card Young Do is holding and without it YD has nothing. It might be true, but I trust that YD is above that. He knows full well how despicable his behavior has been to others in the past, but if there is one thing he doesn’t want to be accused of it’s disloyalty. If YD tells others about Tan’s birth secret, YD might as well forget having any shred of decency left. He wouldn’t be able to hold up his head in public anymore if he ever told.
Having said that since it’s almost E10, I really hope I’m right about this writer. I hope she did all she could do to make YD such a terrible person and now for the rest of the series, she will start building up is character so that he can go on the path of reforming. She showed him at his worst enough – now show why he deserves clemency and reprieve.
While in Cali, Tan got a do- over – all that time to reflect cleared his eyes and heart – now he sees what it must have been like for the victims when he bullied them. It took leaving and stepping back from this world for Tan to become enlightened so I’m wondering if falling in love is all that it will take for Young Do to go through the same transformation. I kept hoping that each time Young Do stares at her – he starts to see what Tan saw in her. Instead of seeing a poor girl who has to work so many part time jobs, he saw a girl fighting to keep what’s left of her family from falling apart. He has to see what’s important – that the quality of her character matters more than her status in society.
If Rachel wants to persist in living in denial land, wish she wouldn’t try to enlist people to keep her company there. I say suffer alone and don’t drag Young Do along with her. it’s bad enough she already asked him to do something about breaking up ES and Tan. I’m not a fan of that pairing – Young Do and Rachel. Two wrongs do not make a right -it just makes more wrong. They wouldn’t be good for each other at all. Then again, I’m not all in favor of Esther and secretary Yoon getting together in the end either cuz Chan Young would suffer. I feel sorry for him cuz he will end up step siblings with a female version of Young Do- what did the poor guy do to deserve that. Then again Chan Young might be a good influence on Rachel.
There were two declarations for Eun Sang tonight – one she heard loud and clear and the other was a silent whisper of suspicion about his growing feelings for her.
Misunderstood in every sense of the word. His past tainted him and it brutality caught up to him so that no one could get past his image to see the real him. There really wasn’t all that much to get through before you reached a human being with a soul. This whole infatuation with Eun Sang snuck up on him and took him by surprise, but you can tell from the tone of his voice, how he looks at her, and how he speaks to her that he is not the same Young Do. Just by starting to fall in love, he has changed. She brings out the goodness and sincerity in him – even when he doesn’t realize it – those honest words pour out. The mere possibility of having that love reciprocated is what he lives for each day. If only his love could be returned, then we would see a transformation that would shock him and everyone who ever knew him. It must be so hard to want something you know deep down in your heart you can never get. Even the idea of admitting that aloud must be so painful. All these years Young Do was the one inflicting pain and now he is finally on the receiving end and suffering greatly. Watching Tan and Eun Sang fall deeper in love with each passing day is going to torment Young Do more than he knows. Just hearing the words from Rachel that Tan confessed that he liked Eun Sang took the breath out of him. I really hope for his sake, he didn’t hear them kissing on that rooftop. I can’t begin to imagine how he would react if he knew. The weight of that crushing pain will be written all over his face.
It was heartbreaking to hear Eun Sang pleading for her phone back explaining “I have a lot of payments left on it -to me that’s really expensive . I have to text mom with that – I also have to contact the stores I work part time -give me my phone I said! Tan: Right now I’m a crazy guy who wants to hug you. ES yells – (if you do) you will die! but he pulls her into a hug anyway. The thing is that her answer was the reply to his question but he didn’t even see it – by saying all that stuff about why her phone was so important to her she was spelling out exactly how different their worlds are- their perspectives don’t match – he has the luxury to follow through on his impulses to hug, but she has to be more guarded cuz she knows what the price of that hug will be – the last part of her will to resist him.
After she gets that lecture from his mom, Eun Sang asks him not to speak to her at the house so Tan asks: What did my mom say? is it a problem that if I apologize in her place you can accept? ES: just go away, I’m nervous she will come out. Tan jokes: are you sure you are nervous? and not cuz you are trembling from being with me? ES: I’m in no mood to kid. Tan: let’s joke cuz I want to make you feel better. ES: I said to go. Tan: why do you keep telling me to go. this is my home. so she says ok I will go then. Tan: even if you go there do you think it’s not my home? even if you go elsewhere it’s my home. do you know how much I like it that you are at my home? ES: sleep well. She goes to her room. I wanted to translate this part to show how he tries to cheer her up by joking around. it works cuz her mood is lifted. that’s when he really catches her unawares by confiding how much he likes she is living at his home. I never expected him to actually say that to her, but since he already crossed a great hurdle by confessing his feelings – the smaller stuff like this must be a cinch to him. As most women can attest – sometimes all those little confessions can add up to become something quite worthwhile. Eun Sang will be storing up each of these moments for when she has doubts later on and I bet it will fuel her to keep going in this relationship.
ES gets a call from YD but ignores it. suddenly he is leaning over her shoulder and reads how she saved his number as “Don’t take it/don’t accept it” so he asks “don’t accept what? my heart?” She tells him to move. YS: it saddens me. I even bought you black bean noodles so what’s up with “don’t accept”? will you change the name friend? ES: how are we friends? YD: then will you be the flower? ES: move cuz I have to go to class. YD: don’t be like this. since you are like this, it makes me curious how you saved Kim Tan (‘s number). will you give me your phone? She sighs and changes it and puts in YD’s name and shows it to him later. YD watches her changing it and remarks – without Kim Tan things don’t progress. He informs her that her name is on the bulletin board and congratulates her. she gets panicky and asks why. YD: why are you this surprised? did you do something wrong? She walks away as he watches her go.
During the live broadcast, when he said “don’t accept what? my heart?” – I almost fell out of my chair. There is something about the way this guy flirts- I think it’s the delivery that makes your knees weak – evidently even when you are sitting. He even flirts with Rachel at times too, but with Eun Sang it’s different. There is more emotion behind his stares. When he asked her to be the flower again – I bet on the inside there was a hint of a hopeful plea. He knows she wont say yes, but he finds the courage to throw out the question anyway – as if just saying the words aloud gives it some weight and meaning. I’m curious if ES even knows the poem he is referring to and that’s why she avoids answering or if it’s just cuz he asked that she doesn’t want to reply. I can’t wait for the day she gets past her fear of him, but it certainly doesn’t look like it will be anytime soon.
Tan: I asked you to make that one call to me, but you wouldn’t, but you left that on the bulletin board. ES: I didn’t know you would really see it. why did you want to call? Tan: you sure are asking early. I had something to say so I told you to (call). ES: what is it that you wanted to say? Tan: where are you? who are you with? when are you leaving? cant you not go? don’t go. stay with me a little longer. I miss you.
His delivery was perfect. He didn’t just say the words – he said it with his gaze as well. He locked eyes with her and said each sentence. With those words, you can see Eun Sang falling in love with him all over again. Just the fact that he saw her note and kept it meant a lot, but to hear what he wanted to say to her – pretty sure she was glad she never returned his call or they might both be in LA still.
Young Do calls again and ES ignores it. she goes over and sees him sitting there. YD: even if you changed the name – not answering is the same. ES: how did you know to come here? YD: how do you see me (as in didn’t you know I was capable of that much). out of the things I found out about you – the most surprising truth was that you became a nouveau riche from working hard at part time jobs. ES: what answer do you want to hear? YD: you don’t have to say anything. cuz I just came cuz I was lonely. oh yeah – I retracted the lawsuit. ES: for real? YD: I said I would back then.
It saddens me each time he does it- just watching him hide his pain behind his smiles kills me. He does it so often it’s become second nature. From the way this conversation was going, Young Do didn’t come to stir up trouble. He wasn’t here to threaten her about knowing her secret – he simply came cuz he was lonely. He probably just wanted to confide his problems too – just like he called her “friend” earlier – that’s what he was trying to start up – a connection that isn’t tied to Tan. Meaning he didn’t want to torment her to get to Tan anymore. He wanted to form his own connection with her. Maybe he already felt the same thing as Tan when Tan first met her -that she was someone worth knowing -someone he should hold onto. Young Do’s way of bonding was to be honest with her and not hide why he came. Would have loved to hear the rest of their conversation.
Tan’s voice cuts in and asks: what did you say you would do? YD sees him and his contented mood is broken. YD says to ES: this is cheating. Tan sits and asks how did you know to come here? YD: she already asked that. Tan: what did you say in response? YD: me knowing about this place – I know the other places she works part time – it means I know the fried chicken place, pizza place, and restaurant. I just thought that to myself. Tan: so what of it? a hotel owner’s son works part time during vacations and weekends washing dishes too. YD: stop acting like you don’t know (what’s going on). ES is still standing there so Tan asks aren’t you going to work? she walks away. YD asks Tan: how about you? how do you know so much about her situation? Tan: I am always one step ahead of you. YD: that’s why watch your back – cuz I’m one step behind you. Tan: so you can backstab me with Cha Eun Sang? don’t waste your energy on unnecessary/useless things. YD: why? are the two of you dating? Tan: do we look good together? YD: don’t ask such awful things. Tan: we do look good together. YD stops smiling cuz he knows Tan means every word. Tan: don’t mess with Cha Eun Sang. I warned you. YD: you are attacking head on? that’s not a really good strategy. take good care of your knees. there are no rules on my mat. the manager tells them to take their drinks. Tan asks about ES but the man says she finished and left. she said she was buying you these so take it and drink it. they walk out sipping their drinks. YD finds a notice that his bike was towed and Tan grins and says that’s how you use the law. you know tuning it was illegal right? suffer some.
I can’t help but note that even when YD was furious and crumpled up the notice, he held onto that drink and kept drinking cuz it’s the first thing she ever bought him.
Tan: why did you run off a while ago? cuz of Choi YD? ES: cuz of you. Tan: I said don’t answer. ES: from here on don’t come to where I work part time. Tan: why? did Choi YD say he would come from here on? before I got there what were the two of you talking about? ES: something strange. Tan: what strange talk? she remembers how YD said you don’t need to say anything – I just came cuz I was lonely. Tan snaps his fingers at her and asks again – what was the strange talk? ES: he said he came cuz he was lonely. but it was strange cuz he looked lonely. Tan: so did you meet his gaze and comfort him and accept everything? ES: what would I accept. Tan: how are you going to explain that he knows all your part time jobs. ES: how can I explain that when I just heard a while ago. Tan suddenly gets it and sighs looking worried. ES: why? don’t worry. there is nothing for me to get involved with him. Tan: you are already involved. I don’t think he is messing with you now to make me watch. He wants to see you.
Pretty sure Tan doesn’t see YD as any competition for her affections since she is too scared of YD. what worries him the most is that Tan could have handled YD if he went after ES to mess with him, but if YD goes after her for himself – there is no telling how far YD will go. That’s what scared Tan.
You can see the wheels in his head turning and catching up to his heart as he remembers all his run ins with ES and how he felt when he was with her. To us -all we see are clips of him tormenting her, but he doesn’t remember it quite that way. He is remembering his progression of growing interest in her. How those few times alone with her wasn’t enough -probably wanting to spend more time with her.
Rachel: I owe you a debt. YD: you just need to pay it off. You have to give me what I ask. she asks what do you want to have? YD: are you really going to give it to me? Rachel: what is it? YD: you have Cha ES’s customs form don’t you? I want to have that. Rachel: why do you want that? do you know something about her? why were the two of you at the hotel that day? YD: you don’t need to know that. just be sure to bring it to school tm. he starts to walk away but she says Kim Tan said he likes Cha ES. YD turns and looks at her. Rachel: he came to me and confessed. cant you do something about that? YD: then what are you going to do for me? this time I might want something you cant give. Rachel: let’s talk about it after you settle it (break up Tan and ES). YD: you promised.
I’m so afraid of what YD will ask of Rachel – the look on his face made it seem like it would be something she hates to part with – like Tan.
This wont ever happen, but I couldn’t help but wish that the request he makes from Rachel is to let Tan go so Tan can be with ES . There is no way YD would ever make that kind of request since he is just now starting to get really interested in ES, but if he even learned anything about love from those poems and books- I would hope he knows that letting the person you like be with the person they love is how you show your love.
It’s almost pitiful that Young Do has to resort to this just to have a meal with her. He was actually just eating and after lunch was over he would have let her go safely, but Tan came in and saw her trembling in fear and caused this commotion to take her away. Young Do would have never tripped her if Tan hadn’t confronted him to begin with. Hurting her was the last thing on his mind so I have a feeling he is going to regret doing that. I get that this is the kind of person YD is -someone who reacts out of pettiness or to show he has the upper hand -not differentiating who falls victim. He tripped her to show Tan that instead of making Tan go to his knees, she was the one who ended up on her knees. In this moment – being the one to win mattered more cuz this was his pride acting out. The menacing cut throat side that learned all those harsh lessons from his father on that mat. That is what makes him less deserving, but his one redeeming grace is that each time he does something wrong like this from here on – he will feel that pain right along with her. None of this was indicated in the dialogue or behavior, but I want to believe the writer must have wanted YD to have these gentler sides to him deep down or else there wouldn’t be any sense to consider him the obstacle for Tan and ES or even a second male lead.
So many people are going to say Eun Sang deserves better than Young Do. Most have already written him off as a thug, but true as that may be, he is still redeemable. As long as he stops bullying and starts to make it up to the ones he hurt, he can still get back that right to be forgiven. Tan was just like him or worse three years ago, but now Tan is treated better cuz he saw the error of his ways. He stopped tormenting the weaker kids and got a fresh start – as long as Young Do stops too – shouldn’t he be given that same chance to reform.
I’m glad Tan waited to kiss her. he sensed she wasn’t ready for something like this when they were hiding in the pantry so he respected that and held back. He only did it now cuz she was still scared from her run in with YD and Tan just wanted to calm her and distract her from her fear that if she doesn’t answer YD’s call, that he will tell her secret. I was too preoccupied by the fact that she answered and then Tan kissed her. any dialogue they have after the kiss will be heard unless she remembers to hang up first. the first few minutes of E9 is going to be nerve racking.
It struck me that Tan has Eun Sang to comfort him after the fight, but Young Do only has his memories of watching her sleep at the convenience store. He is sitting there bruised and beaten and no one to turn to or give him comfort. People might say he did this to himself – he has no true friends cuz of his behavior – that you can only place part of the blame on his crappy dad and the rest is on him, but I say he is a kid still learning and growing. Even how he manages his dad – tonight he turned the tables on his dad and showed him how he is benefiting from their lessons. He threw his dad’s words back at him -the same ones his dad said when he cheated just to beat Young Do during their match. We have to keep in mind that Young Do is 18yrs old. Maybe he didn’t see this coming – he had no idea how alone he would feel until this moment when his past actions caught up to him. It’s one thing to not like anyone and not care and be alone, but to feel this much loneliness when his heart was just starting to open up -right when he was about to become a different person with Eun Sang -right when he was about to let himself be the vulnerable one – that silence sitting there must have been deafening. This is going to be his turning point I bet. When he decides he doesn’t want to feel this way again. He will try harder with Eun Sang. Once she overcomes her fears and sees him for who he is now and not his reputation, even if there is no room in her heart to love him, maybe there is enough just for friendship. The question is if that will be enough for Young Do and if he can accept that. Something tells me he will want more and my heart is going to break right along with his when she doesn’t reciprocate.
11/02/2013. At 7am on Saturday morning, I replayed these scenes in my head and a correlation occurred to me so I typed up what I wanted to say on my iPhone and then went back to sleep. Here it is:
Young Do tripped Eun Sang twice so far. First time was when he didn’t care about her except as a curiosity as to what her relationship was to Tan. To get her attention, he tripped her and then made sure to hold her hand so she wouldn’t fall. Then when Young Do was trying to have a harmless meal with Eun Sang, Tan came to her rescue and took her out of there. Tan held onto her hand and started to walk away and that’s when Young Do tripped her again. If Tan held on a little tighter, she wouldn’t have gone down. In his defense, there was no way for Tan to predict Young Do would do something so despicable so Tan probably didn’t get a firm grip of her hand, but you know what – he should have. Tan already figured out that Young Do isn’t trying to get to him through Eun Sang and that Young Do actually wants to meet Eun Sang himself – what is the point of knowing that knowledge if it doesn’t keep you on your guard. If you like someone and make up your mind to defend and protect her, you have to be ready for anything – you must be on the alert – especially around people like his mom and Young Do. These are the two people who could say something hurtful to Eun Sang and keep her from thinking it over whether she can like Tan. Just saying the words that he will get involved in her life isn’t enough. Throughout the episode Tan was too preoccupied asking if she was thinking it over about liking him back and didn’t see what’s going on. She never gave him a clear direct answer that she would, but her actions gave it away. She was extra careful about being seen talking with him at school and especially at the house. Her precautions were a dead giveaway that she would continue to like him. If she had no feelings, she wouldn’t have been on the alert. If you ask me, Tan isn’t holding up his end very well. Only Eun Sang is constantly aware that if they are ever caught, the penalty will be something she can’t afford – like her mom getting fired or Eun Sang losing her education and a chance for a better future. That’s why when his mom called, she wanted to answer, but at that moment, all Tan cared about was getting a reply from Eun Sang and answered her phone himself knowing full well his mother was on the other line. Not only was that reckless, but it went against what he should be doing. It cost Eun Sang more headache since she got an earful from his mom about knowing her place. That lecture could have been prevented if he hadn’t reacted so rashly. Tan has nothing to lose from going after Eun Sang so it’s unfair to put such a huge burden on her shoulders and not help her out with it by being cautious too. Even in the preview clip, you can see that Tan took a huge risk being caught by back hugging her as she was leaving his room. It’s stuff like that he needs to be more careful about so she isn’t the only one getting hurt in the long run. One of these days, I’m just afraid she will end up on her knees emotionally to learn the hard way that bruises from the physical pain of falling will eventually heal, but her emotional scars will last.
Just cuz I have blinders on for Young Do doesn’t mean I’m oblivious to his faults. It was terribly wrong to trip her, but this whole scene made me see what Young Do brings to the table. Just like when he first tripped her on purpose to catch her when she fell, once he makes up his mind to fully commit to liking her, I think he will be prepared to catch her in every sense of the word. With Tan, Eun Sang is facing a bevy of opposition like his dad, stepmom, mom, Eun Sang’s own mom, maybe even Won, but Young Do is in a better position to keep her from pain cuz he only has to go through his dad. His father’s loose lifestyle prevents him from having any moral ground to stand on to judge who Young Do should be dating so I can’t picture his dad scheming to separate Eun Sang from his son like Tan’s dad (not that his nonexistent moral high ground slowed him down any). After that stunt Young pulled to get out of doing the photo shoot, Rachel asked him “how do you plan to handle how your dad will get back at you” so Young Do said “if I think about how he will get back at me, I wouldn’t be able to do anything.” That seems to have been his motto so far in life. He throws caution to the wind and does what he wants and tries to make the best of right now. At least that’s how he used to live – with the security that even if he steps out of line and gets in trouble for bullying or illegally tuning his bike, the matter will get resolved and he can move on to the next rebellious stunt. But I have a feeling developing feelings for Eun Sang will put a brake to that way of life. You can already witness the changes in his mannerisms when he is with her. It’s like he is trying to reach her through the gaps of the barrier he put up against his dad and the world. He had this mean side to his personality for too long to change overnight, but he is taking baby steps to reach her to let her know there is some goodness left in him if she is willing to notice. That is why each time where it’s just Eun Sang and Young Do, he speaks with a more gentle non threatening tone now. It’s so hard for Eun Sang to take that at face value since she witnessed him terrorizing Joon, but Young Do was really making an effort not to scare her. Even the way he relayed that he knows the truth about her was phrased so she wouldn’t get alarmed. Instead of stating the obvious, he said “out of the things I found out about you – the most surprising truth was that you became nouveau riche from working hard at part time jobs.” Something tells me he didn’t throw that out so he can use that as bargaining chips and continue to intimidate her with it. I’m hoping he realizes having that kind of knowledge and keeping it to himself would prove more beneficial and really pave the way to earning her trust.
From the moment Young Do first met Eun Sang at that bike shop, she managed to not only get his attention but his respect. Starting from then and all the way up to now, that respect has grown. Tan wouldn’t understand this since he doesn’t work like Young Do does, but Young Do can appreciate hard labor and diligence. He sees a bit of himself in her and admires her for balancing work and school. I wish I could say he just might end up being one of the few people who will respect her and not judge her for her poverty, but he hasn’t fallen completely in love yet to warrant that much of a deviation from his personality. Washing dishes and helping at the hotel might have been a way to groom him for his position later in life, but those job experiences will help him relate to Eun Sang. Pretty certain when Young Do learned the truth about her work background, the first emotions he felt weren’t pity, judgment, or the satisfaction of assuming correctly since it was obvious just from dumping her bag content that her nouveau riche story doesn’t line up. He checked up on her background already knowing full well what he would find. That’s why I am almost certain respect was his initial reaction to learning the truth that she worked four part time jobs. No matter how different they are personality wise, at least they share that – they both know the value of working hard and struggling to get through each day. In comparison, her struggles are harder, but she has Tan, Chan Young, and her mother by her side to support her. Young Do only has loneliness so that’s what has kept him from acting like a decent person up till now. Tripping her like that is going to set him back and undo all the niceness he has shown so he better have something big to make it up to her. For starters, I hope that was the reason for calling her – to ask if she is ok.
Young Do is very good at putting two and two together. I hope he realizes very soon why Eun Sang stops to rest at that table at the convenience store. Tan had to hear from her that she just wanted a place to unwind that doesn’t cost money, but I hope Young Do figures that out for himself. No matter how jealous or envious he gets in the future about seeing Tan and Eun Sang together, I want Young Do to remember what he said to her about wanting to protect her. I don’t want those words to be a fleeting comment. I hope he keeps her secret about being poor to himself till the end for two reasons: for the sake of the hard working girl who needs a break and for himself so that he can do one honorable thing that will bring him one step closer to showing her that he still has a heart.
Why is it so hard for a guy to lean his head on the shoulder of the girl he likes. He has to jump through so many hoops just to get some face time with her. When it comes to Eun Sang, I see Tan react first and think later. Sometimes that really scares me cuz he isn’t taking into consideration the repercussions of his actions and how it might affect her, but there are times like this when I find it adorable. Knowing what we are in for on E8 tomorrow night, I would venture one guess – those outcomes I mentioned are about to surface. Confronting Young Do in front of everyone at school to protect Eun Sang is just spelling disaster for her situation. It’s going to be heroism at a very steep cost for Eun Sang.
I love Tan’s choice of words. It was one of the first reasons why I like this drama. He doesn’t just say stuff, he always throws in so much sarcasm and humor.
When Eun Sang is introduced to Tan by his mother, Eun Sang lies and says it’s nice to meet you for the first time. Tan: but I saw you a lot of times. his mom asks you saw her? when? at home? Tan: at school. I was wondering who that unsophisticated kid was – it was you. it’s nice to meet you. let’s see each other often. his mom says there is no need to meet often. then she asks Eun Sang: have you not seen him at school? ES: I haven’t seen him. his mom finds that hard to believe saying – even if you didn’t want to see him -he is a kid your eyes go to. Tan: that’s so huh? she is a strange kid.
Next morning, Tan waits around in front of a deluxe cab for Eun Sang to come out. she comes outside and asks what he is doing so early in the morning. Tan blames her for leaving when his driver hasn’t come to work yet. we never ran into each other even once in the mornings so I was wondering when you left – was it always this early in the morning to avoid me? ES: I wasn’t just avoiding you. I will be going first. Tan stops her from leaving and pulls her over to put her in the cab saying: you think I waited this early in the morning to send you off first. it wont be good to protest too long -CCTV. She sees it and quickly gets in. In the car he says “kids like Kim Tan cuz he is good looking. Kim Tan studies well cuz he is good looking.” ES: what are you doing. Tan: what you should report to my mom. I heard it all yesterday. ES: so are you telling me to lie? Tan: which part was the lie? ES: never mind. Tan: cuz she said to report about me you immediately said “yes” were you waiting for it? ES: out of the things I can say in your home – “I don’t want to” isn’t among them. Tan: so that’s why you say “I don’t want to. it’s ok” so much to me huh. ES: did I do that? He looks over at her. Tan: what is the reason you go so early in the morning? exactly what is it that you are avoiding? she thinks about all those other kids who are dropped off by their drivers. ES: cars. I am being careful of cars. Tan: car? She asks the driver to drop her off at the crosswalk, but Tan tells him to go up to the front of the school. ES: we cant get out together. Tan: who would be there at this time? just go today together. starting from tm, even if you asked me to come out at this time I wont go out so don’t worry. ES: still. he suddenly points outside to distract her and rests his head on her shoulder. Tan: I am sleepy. cuz of you I woke up too early. ES: what are you doing. Tan: let’s get out together. the uniform looks good on you. She smiles.
As he walked behind her with that knowing smile on his face, I wondered if he was aware of some facts that might wipe that smile off. That walking behind her might make Eun Sang’s heart flutter at this moment, but by doing this he could unwittingly end up being the reason that breaks that same heart down the line. Hasn’t he learned anything from what’s going on with Won? There are circumstances beyond his control – if stuff like being an heir can get between him and his beloved older brother, what makes him think he can overcome what will get between Eun Sang and him. Does he get that he is starting something he doesn’t know he can follow through on? That protecting her from being bullied is the easiest task at hand out of all the complications they face. That he can’t even protect her from hearing his own mother calling her mother a mute. Tan sensed that twinge of hurt at his mother’s words just as Eun Sang felt it. Truth be told, if he really wanted to protect her, he would try harder not to fall in love so deeply. I know it was inevitable that Eun Sang would fall for him, but in this moment when she allowed herself to enjoy his special attention, I was so afraid for her. She is going to have to shed a flood of tears before she even sees the beginning of any progress towards getting any hope of acceptance from his parents. Whatever residual pride she has left will have to weather quite a beating before any relief is in sight. She is going to have to pay dearly to fight to keep his love so I hope she has many more moments like this to cherish and store up to see her through it.
Tan pulled out her ponytail holder and said “don’t tie up your hair at school. you have to cover up (your face) a lot to look pretty. He musses up her hair and says “go around like this. got that?” When Myung Soo says that she looks familiar, Tan pipes up and says : she doesn’t go to clubs. MS: how would you know? Tan: clubs make a distinction about looks (meaning she isn’t pretty enough to get admitted into clubs). ES makes a face at the back of his head as he walks away. Then MS checks her out and says “she is just plain (as in not dressed nicely), but not bad.” Eun Sang makes another face at him as he walks away. I loved those lines cuz they were treating her like any other girl. It’s nice to see that she gets some sense of normalcy from time to time in an otherwise hostile environment.
I swear the look on Young’s Do’s face was pure envy as he watched Tan pull her hair loose again. He knows that no matter how many ways he comes up with to spend some time with her, she will never give him the same reaction she had towards Tan. They’ve built something solid already and even an outsider like Young Do can see that clearly. Young Do probably isn’t ready to admit it yet, but every time he sees Tan and Eun Sang together, it is no longer just about scheming of ways to hurt Tan through Eun Sang. There is a bit of jealousy mixed in with those glares. He is developing feelings for this girl and the brainy side of him is starting to get that, but the emotional half that wants to avenge Tan is trying to suppress those feelings. He has started a battle he can’t win and the only casualty will be his own heart.
I thought maybe I was reading too much into what’s not there, but I really do think Young Do is bullying Eun Sang differently and not just cuz she is a girl. He is reining in his meanness to an extent cuz of his attraction to her. You can see that is why he is being so polite to Eun Sang even when he torments her. When he emptied her bag to make a point that she hasn’t ever spent money (frivolously), he made his two goons stand guard at the door. He made sure to not publicly humiliate her and just wanted to confirm his suspicions that she isn’t nouveau riche. The fact that he emptied out DN’s purse just like Eun Sang’s proves that. That wasn’t the first time he showed equality though. He did that before too on the first episode. Even when he is being such a bully, he is still fair about it and gave one of his goons the chance to step in Joon’s place and get hit by the tennis ball. It could hardly be considered generous, but those actions reflect that there is still some hope of decency left in him.
Young Do calls Eun Sang and says I want to eat black bean noodles but they wont deliver just one bowl. ES: what? YD: won’t you come and eat a bowl with me? ES: order two bowls and just eat one. you have a lot of money. YD: how could I waste food when the economy is bad. ES: find someone else – why would I go there. YD: you will end up coming soon. didn’t you meet Joon yet? She looks up and Joon is standing by the doorway. YD:I told him if he can make you come here, I could cancel suing him. ES: “you jerk – how could you. hang up.” Joon comes over and says “I am sorry – I am really sorry but…”
Cut to ES watching Young Do eat his noodles in his hotel room. ES: what is the purpose for playing around with me. YD: purpose? ES: you aren’t really going to cancel suing him so why play around with a person? Joon came to me and pleaded with a face that looked like he was dying. to you it’s just playing around, but to Joon it’s…YD interrupts and says who said I was kidding? ES: then are you really going to call off the lawsuit? YD: yes. ES: why? YD: cuz you came. ES: what changes cuz I came? YD: my heart changes. ES: why does it change? YD quotes a line from a poem: “cuz you came to me and became a flower” – something like that. ES: I’m in no mood to kid around. YD: does everything I do seem like a joke? you don’t like flowers? do you not like flowers or not like coming to me – choose. so I can order (you to do) the one you don’t like more. ES: I don’t like both. YD: oh – I’ve been rejected. I have to get revenge. He resumes eating but his doorbell rings. He gets up to answer it. Rachel: why didn’t you answer your phone? YD: cuz I was having a meal with an important guest. Rachel: You said you would take care of it – so why are we taking photos this weekend? YD: Do I have to tell you again that I have a guest? Rachel: who is the guest? she goes in and sees Eun Sang sitting there. Rachel asks YD: what picture is this? YD: don’t be curious cuz I don’t plan to include you. Rachel: I don’t want to stay anymore too. take care of the photo matter properly and don’t make me stand there with my hands down (meaning – not doing anything). Then she says to ES – more than I thought – you sure are doing some questionable things. (meaning hanging around Tan who has a fiancé and now hanging out with Young Do alone in a hotel room.) After Rachel leaves, ES gets up and says to YD – I will ask you as a favor to retract the lawsuit. since you are done eating I can go now right? YD: where are you going? your part time job? She doesn’t answer and leaves.
I know this was so wrong, but I loved their forced date time. If he actually does call off his lawsuit against Joon just for having Eun Sang come over, I say this was totally worth it. Spending just a few minutes alone with Young Do might have been the most unpleasant thing she had to do, but if it saves Joon, I say swallow your discomfort and sit there. I am so proud of Eun Sang for helping out Joon like this. It felt good when Tan indirectly helped Joon out by punching Young Do too, but I felt that was something that was long overdue. Tan is the only one in the school who could have done that and gotten away with it and Young Do had that punch coming ever since their last confrontation as kids. We all thought Tan was the deep one who writes and has all those feelings, but it appears that Young Do is pretty well read and eloquent in his own ways. So far he has quoted Henri Cartier-Bresson, the French photographer and tonight he quoted a Korean poet. The lines that really struck me was “Like I called her name, will someone please call my name that suits my light and fragrance? I, too, long to come to her and become her flower. We all long to be something. You, to me, and I, to you, long to become a gaze that won’t be forgotten.” If that doesn’t reflect his current emotions, I don’t know what will. This guy is desperate to have someone notice him – to acknowledge the silent pain he is going through. Even from a distance, he can see that Eun Sang is that flower to Tan – the one who gives meaning to his life and comfort in his moments of sadness. I have a feeling that is going to eat him up inside – the fact that Young Do was too late to even have a chance with her. She is going to be the one girl he genuinely likes who could have seen his true side, but they met at the wrong time and under the worst circumstances. Just one more thing in his life that didn’t work out that will end up meaning the most to him. In a way, all those acts of aggression is his frustration at not being able to change his situation. He is stuck with a father who insists on marrying someone he doesn’t even love in earnest. It’s either let his father marry Esther or keep dating younger versions of her and Young Do finds both options unappealing since it disrespects his mother. He is raging against things he can’t control. I realized that today as I stood across a bike shop and it suddenly made me see why Young Do pays so much attention to his bike. He steals every chance to do the small things he does have control over – like riding his bike instead of going with the driver his dad sent. Young Do rebels when he can cuz that’s the only way his spirit can make it through another day. It will take a miracle, but I wish someone would see beyond his hostility to see his pain and reach him. Something tells me they won’t have to go far before they get to the humane side of him. Cuz with each interaction with Eun Sang, you can tell his conscience is bothering him and the good side of him is fighting to surface.
I wish someone would tell Rachel she is just digging her own hole by informing on Eun Sang’s whereabouts to Tan. If she really wanted to break them up, Rachel should have kept her mouth closed and not tattletale that Eun Sang was at Young Do’s hotel room. Instead of driving a wedge between them, Rachel is actually helping Tan and Eun Sang’s relationship to progress – to that next level that Rachel didn’t want. Tan drags Eun Sang outside and asks why didn’t you pick up your phone. ES: can’t you see? I’m working. Tan: did you go to Young Do’s hotel? ES: that girl Rachel. Tan: did you go? ES: is that hotel Choi Young Do’s? Tan: are you crazy? how could you go there? ES: in America – I even went to your home when you could have been a drug dealer. I don’t have a personality where I would do something stupid where I go so…Tan cuts her off and says- that’s what’s dumb – that. how could you trust me to follow me you dummy. what would you have done if something happened. ES: you aren’t that kind of kid. Tan: how would you know that – if I was that kind of kid or not. why did you go to Young Do’s hotel? ES: cuz of Joon. if I go, Young Do said he would cancel suing him. Tan: do you trust that? ES: I don’t trust it, but what could I do. when a friend who is in the same situation as me asked me as a favor. Tan: how are you friends with him? you didn’t even meet that many times so how could you be friends? ES: he knew I was a scholarship/charity case kid and even knows what my mom does too, but he kept my secret so how could I not go? Tan: he is going to transfer anyway so what difference does it make. how many times did I tell you not to get involved in that stuff. do you want to act like the nice one? ES: why is Young Do tormenting me? it’s cuz of you. Tan: that is why I am doing this. cuz something might happen to you cuz of me. please- I am asking you as a favor. can’t you not make things that would bother me? can’t you just be still? ES: cant you leave me alone? it’s hard and complicated just living the way I am. but somehow I think I got on the wrong side of Young Do and it’s getting uncomfortable around you every day. I’m not asking for anything big. just to somehow safely graduate and at 20yrs old live a little better than now-that’s all I want, but I don’t know how to do that. Tan: should I tell you how to do that? leave my home tomorrow right away. ES: what? Tan: can you not eave? do you want to continue attending school? then starting from now like me. if possible – genuinely. I ended up liking you. Tan sure knows how to get his way. If you look at it from another side, Tan’s declaration tonight was the most romantic, but it was off a bit. It made it seem like there is no choice for Eun Sang but to like him. Not giving her that choice is a bit unromantic, but just by finally admitting aloud he likes her now is swoonworthy.
So we got more insight as to why Young Do and Tan had a falling out, but I have to say it’s certainly not what I expected. It doesn’t seem like something you would break up a friendship over if you see it from Young Do’s perspective. Back when they were kids, Tan asked Young Do why he was avoiding him. was it cuz he was embarrassed about what they saw. (the kids saw Young Do’s dad with some woman.) Young Do is running on denial and shame so he grabs Tan’s jacket collar and says what did we see? Tan: that isn’t something to be embarrassed about – it’s just something painful. Young Do asked him – what do you know. Tan says those situations happen – it’s the same for me. To tell the truth, I am not the school president’s son. I have a separate mom. I’m telling only you for the first time. That’s when Young Do turns on him and says “you were an illegitimate son? so the woman from yesterday that we saw -if she has a child with my father, it will be a child like you.” I get those words hurt Tan’s feelings and that’s why he isn’t friends with Young Do, but I don’t get why Young Do was so upset about Tan’s birth secret. How Tan was born shouldn’t matter to Young Do, but he took it personally – like it was an affront to him to be friends with Tan. Maybe it’s cuz he doesn’t like the fact that Tan is the walking talking reminder of what Young Do disliked the most from his father’s relationships. If that’s the only reason why Young Do can’t be friends with Tan then I don’t see much hope for a reconciliation. I’m suddenly picturing my dreams of bromance between these two on this show swirling down the drain.
Tan knocks and goes in happy to see Won. Tan: hyung have you come home now? Won: you and your mom – is that what you are the most curious about? go out – you are in the way. Tan: whether you and I hate or not – can’t we live together? Won: that’s what real families do. Tan: when you talk like that – is your heart ok? Won: I’m not okay. but you aren’t ok too. then that’s good. move aside. Tan: hyung. Won: I think I said to move aside. Tan: how could you go so far as to do this? just cuz I came how could you leave home? Won: cuz you keep chasing me around. Tan: what? Won: you came to my hotel. you came to the office too. if you keep chasing me around like a seven year old like this – I have no place to avoid you. how could I go this far? haven’t you thought that you are stealing the place I should be? or this time do I have to go to America? when will you grow up? I cant go up against a child. please hurry and grow up. Won walks out. It never ceases to amaze me how many ways Won distorts the truth to suit his view. How can he see a brother wanting to connect as chasing him around. It’s like he won’t even give Tan the benefit of the doubt that Tan might not have ulterior motives for seeking him out. If Won is going to accuse Tan of still acting like a child, he should look in the mirror when he says that cuz only someone who is being childish would twist the sincere love of a brother into something it’s not. I felt so bad for Tan in this scene cuz all this time, he keeps trying to climb over that high wall that Won has manage to brick up with each new reason for resentment he has created against Tan. Going over that wall looks impossible from his view, but it’s good to see that Tan won’t stop trying no matter how many times he has to start over.
Won goes to get some bottles of the wine his mom made for him when he was born. Tan goes down and says -sorry for going to find you at the hotel on my own (without asking). going to the office too – I’m sorry. coming from America too – I was wrong. it was all my fault so stay home. Won ignores him so Ta grabs his arm. Won tells him to let go. Won: are you holding onto me? Tan: can’t I show this much courage to you? I know it’s crossing the line (it’s not my place), but I understand you. Won: you understand? are you pitying me now? what are you to understand me? a guy who has the courage to come back doesn’t have the courage to fight? how dare you recklessly…Tan suddenly hugs him and leaves Won speechless. Tan: I won’t fight with you hyung. cuz it’s obvious I will lose. a fight that no one means – how can I win? Tan pulls away and starts to say “so” but Won cuts him off saying – I don’t know who you take after but you sure are noisy (as in talks too much). Won grabs his wine and leaves. The good news is that Won didn’t pull away from that hug so that’s something. I sort of wanted to tell Tan – this isn’t your fight or Won’s. It’s what your parents started and something they have to resolve. They have to choose the heir and settle it. Fighting each other is futile. Won is only going through the motions of fighting with his little brother, but you can tell Won is sick and tired of this too. There just has to be a side of Won that misses his brother – even if Tan is only his half brother – they still share the same father no matter how you look at it. Instead of focusing his energy on resenting his little brother, I wish Won would let it go. He told his father – if he has to lose stuff like his position as heir he will lose it. If only he meant that. Part of me thinks that Won is fighting so hard for this position cuz it’s the only thing he has. if he stops fighting for it then what other meaning is there for him in life. Won is the legitimate son, but the rest of society thinks that Tan has a legal right to be heir since his stepmom put him under her registry. Their father did that cuz it’s only fair to give Tan a fighting chance to be heir when he grows up. It was the right thing to do, but it sure is complicating matters between two brothers. Somewhere down the line, I see potential for some kind of middle ground for these two. Where Tan and Won don’t have to meet as rivals and can just be loving brothers.
Tonight is the first time where I realized this drama is mostly about pride. There are so many people trying to hold onto theirs, but circumstances keep robbing them of it. Young Do was ashamed of his father and his numerous girlfriends in the past and Tan knows that. He can’t pretend to have any pride in his family when he knows Tan knows the truth. That’s why Young Do keeps bringing up Tan’s secret of being an illegitimate child. It’s his only weapon that could hurt Tan’s pride – until Eun Sang came along. Rachel goes around looking down on Eun Sang every chance she gets cuz she doesn’t want to admit she lost to someone like Eun Sang. She didn’t just lose – she never had a prayer of a chance of winning cuz Tan never liked Rachel the way he liked Eun Sang. He liked Eun Sang more just in the first few minutes they met compared to all the years he has known Rachel. Eun Sang is trying to hold onto her pride by staying clear of Tan cuz she is sensible enough to know life won’t make things easy for them. She is also sacrificing it each time she has to say “yes” to whatever request Tan’s mom makes. It’s the only way to keep peace and continue going to school and living there. Won is staying away from his little brother cuz his pride won’t allow him to lose to Tan. Even the slightest chance of losing is too much for Won to consider so that’s what has him running scared. Tan’s mom wants to have some pride to protect, but no one is letting her have any to begin with cuz she had Tan out of wedlock, but she is okay with that cuz her compensation is Tan. If he succeeds as the heir, all her sacrifices will have been worth it in her eyes. You don’t exactly expect so much substance from a drama with a high school setting so it’s a relief to have so much fodder to delve into. Each week, I find myself pleasantly surprised by how much more I am loving this show. It’s almost nearing the halfway mark and already I am dreading the second half cuz it means it will be over soon. This just goes to show – you can never underestimate the appeal of grown actors walking around in high school uniforms. As long as the dialogue that comes out is this interesting, the fun never stops.
The gamut of emotions Young Do’s character elicits run from sympathy, pity, admiration, to sheer detest. I don’t care what other naysayers think about Kim Woo Bin’s expressions – he is not being typecast – he is playing roles where he can show more of his strengths. Even though on paper those roles might overlap, each of his bad guy personas have been different – that is all due to his natural talent. He changed the attitude and tone of that character to make them stand out and be memorable – whether it’s to like that character or despise them.
I wrote this Tues night when the kiss stills were released:
This isn’t what it looks like. From the new stills for E8, it does appear to be Tan holding down her hands to kiss her, but it doesn’t seem like a forced or unwanted kiss. She was about to take a call and this is how he chose to stop her. I don’t know why, but I get the impression the call was from Young Do. He warned her to take his calls so it looks like she was obeying and was about to when Tan stopped her. If we’ve learned anything from BTS stills, it’s that they tend to be very misleading. I’m not even sure why I am going on the defensive and already sticking up for Tan, but I didn’t want to be passive anymore. I saw how things got out of hand when the audience reaction erupted during Secret Garden and That Winter The Wind Blows’ controversial scenes so I would hate to see the same thing happen again here. Let’s not jump the gun and assume Tan was in the wrong. This is supposed to be a high school drama so something tells me this writer won’t be dumb enough to incite outrage so early on by having Tan make a move that could be construed as borderline assault. We already had to sit through disparagers who criticized him for his wrist grabs when he ran through the streets of LA with Eun Sang so there is no way this writer is going to take any chances with her high school setting drama with anything more controversial than bullying. That in itself is plenty. I hate when harmless scenes that end up being one of my favorites get dissected and analyzed to death – it saps all the fun out of that moment and that scene. All that backlash tarnishes the scene for me. It’s like giving a kid an ice cream cone and letting him have one taste and then knocking it out of his hand so it lands on the ground in a splat. I want to hold onto that ice cream and enjoy it this time so I’m writing this. If anything, I rather talk about why Tan felt compelled to kiss her at this moment. Who was on that other line and why was it so urgent for him to stop her from taking that call that he had to resort to this. I would have thought he would have wanted to choose a more romantic setting for what might be a first kiss for both of them, if not, at least it seems to be for Eun Sang. That look on her face after he leaves indicates stunned disbelief, but she wasn’t crying. If she had been upset by that kiss, there would have been more tears. Judging from the stains on her uniform, I bet something awful happened at school so she is upset by it, but now Tan kissed her on a day that wasn’t going so well so maybe she resents him for not choosing the right moment. She might even resent that he kissed her when she wasn’t ready emotionally. He has been the one chasing after her and pursuing her despite her effort to keep him at bay so she is probably thinking – “then why did I tamp down my own feelings if he was going to do whatever he wants anyway.” Eun Sang isn’t just thinking about Tan and herself cuz the equation clearly includes her future and her mom’s source of income. If Eun Sang is kicked out of school for dating Tan, her future hopes are dashed and her mom is out of a job and they are out of a place to live. Eun Sang is not her sister. She can’t be selfish and only think of herself. Her feelings for Tan is tied to what’s best for her future and her mother’s livelihood. Tan’s kiss sort of robbed her of the right to hold onto those things. If she goes around kissing him, her emotions will eventually follow then where will she be – probably standing outside his gate homeless. The more likely scenario is whatever bullying incident she endured, she was scared and still rattled by it. Maybe this was his way of calming her. Let’s face it – when it involves Eun Sang, he doesn’t think about long term solutions and will find any excuse to come to her rescue. If he had a choice, he would resort to kisses all the time I bet.