I debated all weekend whether or not I had the energy to recap two dramas for the next two months and my immediate answer was “heck no.” Then I had to remind myself this is Joowon we are talking about. He is on a drama that could easily surpass how amazing he was on Gaksital. I’m sure he was great on Level 7 as well, but I don’t want to compare serious roles with light hearted ones. If I had to pinpoint one main deterrent – to put it bluntly, there are just too many names to memorize on this show and I hate subjecting readers to my abbreviated ones. Problem is, some of these characters are so despicable, I just don’t want to bother memorizing their names. I don’t blame the show at all. In fact, this drama is very well received here in Seoul. Friends who rarely watch dramas are tuning in to catch it cuz they really love the acting and story. There are no action scenes and nothing scary jumps out on the screen, but this show has something else going for it aside from Joowon – a story with possibility to go beyond what’s just on paper. This is the big question for me though – how much corporate back stabbings must we wallow through to see the good come out victorious in the end. After watching E3 just now, I have my answer.
Kim yells at D for taking away his patient after he warned D. Y tries to say you are misunderstanding- after that day I didn’t, but Kim tells her to shut up. D says I don’t know about this – who stole your patient and Kim says the patient’s parents told me a male resident from pediatrics so it would be one of you guys. S says I did it. he told the parents – the baby can be saved. that pediatrics can save the baby and that professor Kim D can perform the surgery. Kim says to D sarcastically you trained your residents well – a resident went on his own and caused all this trouble. S says I did it and professor Kim said nothing but Kim interrupts and says to D -do I look that easy like your director- is pediatrics doing business with kids. Y says it’s understandable he is angry but he is speaking too harshly but D tells her to be quiet. Kim says if you don’t want to hear it and then behave. he tells D to take care of this well or he has to take responsibility with the hospital board. S looks guilty and stares at D. Y asks how S plans to save the premature baby this time (cuz last time the problem was visible right away with sun woo). S explains how Kim’s department wouldn’t do the surgery so pediatrics should and she yells at him cuz that was the only reason. the parents of the baby come to see D. S says it’s the premature patient’s parents
D explains to the parents that he thinks the same as Kim and the surgery cant be performed. the dad says but that doctor outside said you could save her. Y explains S is still in training and spoke out of turn cuz he felt bad for the parents and their sorrow and made that mistake. D takes all the responsibility and says it’s all my fault please forgive us. the mom cries and says what are you doing – why destroy our last hope
the other doctors scold S. why do this and get D in trouble too. the mom comes out and asks S – why did you do that – you shouldn’t have done that to us. after they leave Y makes the other doctors go to work and check stuff
the mom tells the baby – you are hurting a lot aren’t you our baby. have strength -have strength for a little while longer baby. she asks her husband what to do now – should we change hospitals. he says this is the best hospital in our country so where else could we move her to. she says we have to do something – cuz we went through so much to have the baby. as soon as she was born, I didn’t get to breast feed her once. I didn’t get to hug her – didn’t get to change her diapers once. I should get to do one thing for her at least -so that I am her mom. her husband hugs her and cries with her. S watches that from the door and stares at the baby
D reports to Kim that he returned the patient and then apologizes. Kim asks what if this happens again then what will you do. D says it wont. Kim asks why D is sticking with pediatrics. is it cuz of the director? D doesn’t want to say the reason. Kim offers D a better position to come back. D says I will be going
Y looks up and sees S with the baby again. he is watching the baby’s finger’s moving. she remembers how D said S was just after fixing the patient -like a machine and not a doctor. a robot that only thinks about fixing the patients no matter what. other doctors from Kim’s NICU motion for S to come out of the neonatal unit
they corner him and ask have you not come to your senses still. why are you still watching that patient. it’s tiring so don’t do this. S says the baby’s condition is not getting better and needs to have surgery quickly. the guy is about to hit S so Y comes over and yells at them for being bullies. she says what are you doing – should I give you each 50 cents? the guy says that’s not it – this matter has already been settled from high up. she says it has been settled but cant he look? if it’s not your patient in NICU do you have to go around with your eyes closed? she yells at them tormenting S without any right – especially when he is under her charge. she tells S to follow her
Gu asks Kim – why didn’t you tell me sooner. Kim says if I did could you have settled it ok. if you don’t have skills (as a surgeon) at least be able to keep control over them well. he suggests for Gu to go to another branch for various reasons (mostly cuz none of the doctors respect Gu at all cuz he has no talent as a doctor).
Y asks why S -what is a doctor to you. he quotes the Hippocratic oath. think of the patient and his health and life first. a doctor thinks of a patient’s health and life first. she asks what is a patient to you? he says a patient is someone who needs help from the doctor. if they need help you must treat them no matter what. she asks how did you think that way? S says it’s what doctor Hippocrates said and director choi. she says not what the director said – what do you think about the job of being a doctor. S: when a person is hurting and needs help you must treat them no matter what. but she cuts him off and says never mind. I got it. for the past few days, you being like this I took it in a good way. it was hard and a headache but I liked it. it seemed like seeing myself in the past with overflowing enthusiasm/ passion. and it felt good like a real doctor came in. but now that I think it over, I don’t think you are working according to your thoughts. a doctor without passion is no different from a robot that does surgery. have your own convictions. before you treat and save patients.
Gu yells at D for not reporting to him after what happened cuz it’s looking down on him as the sunbae and his position as chief, but D brings up what Gu did wrong and asks if it’s ok for Gu to ignore his work (cuz the kid went into septic shock and had to have surgery). I have an appt. so I will be going now. Gu says I know very well you don’t respect me but couldn’t you pretend to at least in the hospital. D bows and says “something like this?” and leaves
Gu makes one of D’s residents (Kyu) report to him about any problems with D and S does from here on and also to do other things he makes Kyu do. the guy hesitates so Gu asks don’t you want to do it? Gu points out who brought you all the way here. think about it carefully. Kyu has no choice but to spy and work for Gu
C’s step mom invited C and D to lunch. the stepmom says I thought you two would be busy so I came in person. C says if it’s about marriage I want to cancel the (food) order cuz my appetite will drop. so the step mom says I wont talk about that if I want to feed you. C thanks her. the stepmom tells them both to go to America. D can move up his year ahead and go to boston’s children’s hospital as a professor and C can start with American law. D tries to bring up his pediatrics position but she tells him not to think about it and she and the director will take care of it. C thinks she is doing it for other reasons -for the two of them to go to America and naturally get together (as a married couple) and get rid of C so D says she (the step mom) didn’t mean it that way. the mom says I didn’t say it to hurt your feelings. do you really not know? C says there is something you are misunderstanding. I am not mad about you getting involved with my wedding problems-I am getting mad cuz you are planning things about my life. (as in trying to control her life). so don’t do it. she gets up first. D goes after C
D says that mother is trying to be the grownup even if you don’t see her as one. C says I am doing the best I can. he asks should we just get married. she doesn’t like the way he proposed and says how he doesn’t have to marry her cuz all she wants is his commitment
nurses are talking about what happened with Kim JJ and S so Jo tells them not to talk about S and go back to work
Kyu tell S not to go anywhere near the NICU and just stay here checking on patients. Jo asks then what about the ER call – which doctor will do it. the other doctor says we took all the ER calls cuz D said not to let S take them. cuz the maknae resident was coming in we said mansai but. a mom comes over saying how her kid wont eat and asks one of the doctors to scold the kid. so Kyu sends in S
the kid throws stuff and asks for pizza. the mom says the doctors say you cant have any. S explains how the kid cant digest yet so you cant eat food with flour. the kid whines so S distracts the kid by asking about the robot series. the kid asks how he knows about it. S says this is so cool where did you buy it? kid says my dad got it for me when he went to Japan. S says it must be so nice for you – do you have the second version? Kid says yes and lists what else he has. you are the first doctor to know about all the series. S asks to borrow it for a day but the kid says no. I will just look at it for a day and give it back tm. but the kid says no and cries. S tells the mom I am not trying to steal it – just borrow it. he threatens to pull it apart if the kid keeps crying and S messes up and breaks it
Lee hears that they had a chance for S and D to mess up. that they should have been left alone to do something wrong. Gu filled him in on the details. kang uses baseball field as an analogy and mentions the surgery that’s hard to do (the premature baby Mi soo’s). Gu says not just in our country but anywhere else you go that surgery is difficult. Lee asks if kang has a way and kang asks Gu if he has someone he can trust and give an assignment to. (he means Kyu – to bait D into doing the surgery)
the fussy kid’s mom and other moms talk about S. how it took over 2 hrs to calm her bratty son down after what S did. the other mom thought S was ok as a resident but he does have a problem. it doesn’t make sense that a person with a disability became a doctor. other one wonders why the hospital chose someone like S. the other one explains why the hospital took him in and the mom says they hospital shouldn’t have cuz a person’s life is on the line. the other one finds out he didn’t attend sungwon medical school – some college near his home. S also gets to leave early so how is he a resident. the boy he saved mom says my son was saved cuz of that doctor but the other mom says D did the surgery not S. tell the other moms to think it over
the teenage girl is joking around with Jo when the moms all come over and complain at the nurses desk to change doctors from S to D. nurse asks why they want the doctors changed and Jo tries to say S has really great skills but the mom say how much skill could a one year resident have. switch doctors. cuz he isn’t totally normal. S hears that and leaves.
S is sitting alone outside and choi asks what are you doing and not working. did you get in trouble again? S says no. people seem to all hate me again. but I’m not sad. this always happened. he brings up being called “surgery robot” by Y, but doesn’t finish and says I will go work
Jin asks where did you go when you were told to stay at your station. he tries to cheer up S and says relax your shoulders- when else can you cause trouble except when you are a resident. today it was a bit harsh but don’t do that again in the future. a kid comes in and says hurry- Innae noona.
S and Jin run in and Jin asks where it hurts. the teenage girl says my eye balls are hurting. they feel like they will pop out. Jin gets the clue from other kids what’s going in – that this is a prank. Jin tells S to take care of it. S takes it seriously and asks where does it hurt. let me see. lower your hands. she removes her hands and fake eyes pop out. she welcomes S. they all clap and laugh. he seems hurt and asks is it really a lot of fun. I don’t think it’s fun at all you kids teasing me. S leaves. she says oops -this wasn’t it. Jin says there is a misunderstanding I will bring him back
on his way out Jin meets the girl’s older sister and say how it’s been a long time since he has seen her. Jin seems to have a crush on the older sister and Innae picks up on that
S packs up to leave and bows at Y then goes.
D gets a call from choi to meet
they drink soju. choi says I heard what happened. sorry. thank you for not chasing out S. D says hearing you say sorry and thank used to burden me but now it makes me mad. even over small mistakes you threw a fit. he lists the other things choi used to do and that he misses it now. please answer me truthfully -why are you protecting S so much – to the extent that you are overlooking the things that matter the most to you. choi says I told you already last time. D: after getting bit the finger that hurts the most? no the doctor I know – all your fingers hurting. but choi says this time you are wrong. S is a special kid to me. from the start you were the best at everything, but for S – everything was the worst. if he had the same conditions as others, he might have been the best teacher like you. to that kind of S – I want to help his life recover even a little bit. D: what meaning does that have for you. choi: cuz I am a doctor. treating one person’s life is this old man’s last wish. before I die, a wish for it to come true.
S is walking home but he goes in and stares at a 3D tv at a store.
*each time he stops to do this, it makes me wonder if he puts on those 3D glasses – along with seeing things differently -does he get to escape his reality for a bit and enjoy the peace that comes with wonder and delight.
S takes off the glasses and remembers how his hyung made him a kaleidoscope and asked S to look through it. S was fascinated and D asks what do you see. S says butterflies, flowers, and names other inspects. his brother says you see that much. my dongsang is the best. his brother pats him on the head. S puts the glasses back on.
D is drunk and D makes choi promise not to step down easily and to hang in there. if you leave unfairly I will really resent you. choi says ok. D says I will make sure you don’t leave – me – Kim D. Y comes out and sees D struggling to walk. she runs over to help asking if the two of them drank this much. choi asks what she was doing in the hospital till now she tells him what she was preparing. choi tells her to go in then but she tells choi to leave cuz he isn’t well and I will take the professor (D).
Y takes D home and puts him on his bed. she looks over at his photos and smiles. she remembers how they all drank at her uncle’s bar and they drank for their pediatrics department (when she was just starting). she had a crush on him back then cuz D knew how to smile. later on that night D piggybacked her home. she tries to confess but doesn’t have the courage so he says don’t blow cuz I smell alcohol on your breath. she tries to say I liked you from long time ago but changes it to do you like marinated dishes. he asks what are you talking about
she looks over at D sleeping and smiles
she walks home and sees S sitting outside staring at the sky. she goes inside without saying anything to him
S is having a bad dream. the night choi performed CPR on his brother during the cave in. S saw his brother’s fingers moving. S wakes up and says hyung-ah. S sits up and he is all sweaty
next morning D says you worked hard yesterday (taking him home). Y says it’s nothing and tells him not to drink so much. he says it’s cuz of piled up stress. you guys just need to not make me upset. Y: if that is our fault then we will do well. he gives her perfume as a present cuz she doesn’t have any and tells her not to drink so much. she thanks him and leaves
she goes out and sees S leaving. she stops him in the hallway before he can see the baby again
she lectures him. can you not understand my words? can you not hear (my words)? do you think this is for the baby’s sake or our team. why do you only do what you want? I told you clearly to have thoughts. S says I am not a robot. she says his heart isn’t with the patient – all you want to do is save them. S: no I can feel it. that baby wants to live. did you see the baby’s hands. it’s expressing that it wants to live – that it wants to live so much. she thinks it’s just a reaction to the treatments but S says no – the baby cant talk – it’s too young, in pain, and scared so it cant talk but it wants to live and wants to see her mom. he remembers how his brother’s fingers moved as choi performed CPR on him
Y goes and looks at the baby’s hands.
D is telling a mom her child is ok and not to worry. Kyu remembers how Gu asked him – listen well to my words and just relay it exactly to D
Kyu goes and speaks to D. he says I don’t know if I should tell you this but after dinner yesterday – by chance I heard other residents talking that you turned away that baby cuz you didn’t have confidence. they were spreading that talk around. professor Kim JJ must have said that. if you have that surgery for nothing, that you didn’t want to take on the bad repercussions. I heard that so I am just telling you. D laughs it off and says don’t spread that around. but he walks away with his pride bothered.
D goes and asks for the baby’s chart. the other NICU residents say you shouldn’t do this – it will become a problem/complication – we are doing everything we can. D says then I will make it so it’s not a complication for you. I will take on the premature baby’s case. is just taking xrays all that you can do? are you calling yourselves surgeons? give it all up. you don’t even have the basics of a surgeon.
Y gets the call and asks Jin why D changed his mind but Jin doesn’t know. she tells S -later on tell the professor thank you. you aren’t the only one who wants to save the baby. be warned
D goes over the baby’s case and since the baby is still hanging on it’s worth doing the surgery. let’s have surgery as soon as possible – within 24 hrs. remember this though -this surgery has 20% chance of succeeding. but S says he sees something twisted below an organ that isn’t showing up on the xray (but it’s not visible to all the others) so the guy asks if S has 3D vision.
Kim comes with his staff and asks what are you doing. D tells Kim that he is doing surgery on the baby. D says what Kim is doing is not treatment. Kim says I clearly told you to take responsibility in front of the hospital board. so prepare to do it properly. S offers to take responsibility too and asks but what do I need to take responsibility for? S asked sincerely but to others he looks like he is making light of what D is doing
kang tells choi what’s going on. since S caused this problem to start with, choi says I have to take responsibility too with him – since I promised in front of everyone. kang says you don’t have to worry about that problem
Jin cant believe they are having that meeting right away tm (to discuss having the surgery). Y thinks higher ups want to settle this. cuz it’s a problem with pride. other doctors wonder if they will be able to do the surgery or not. what to do cuz the baby’s condition is worsening. Y says we just need to follow the professors decision.
S goes to see D and thanks him for doing the baby’s surgery. D says you don’t need to be grateful cuz I am not doing surgery for your sake. he points out – you did something wrong to the patient and her family. you gave them hope when there wasn’t any. and that hope made more big expectations. he thinks S is the worst doctor in that sense for that reason. so I wont chase you out with my hands. after going through your residency and fellow become a real doctor. then the patients you will be responsible -at that time – how big a wrong you are doing to them – realize that yourself. when you realize that, take off your doctor’s coat and don’t have any second thoughts
Lee praises kang for reading a person’s personality so well (cuz he read D like a book).Gu says who knew D would fall for it – guys with excessive pride is their weakness. if you just mess with them they give into it. Kang says for now we sent out the arrow so we have to watch it. Gu thinks S will be the target cuz he caused the problem. Lee says after that is director choi taking responsibility (to get him to resign). kang excuses himself to leave first cuz he has urgent matter to take care of
Kang goes to the hitting range. he gets a file delivered and looks through it in the car. it has photos of D on it. kang makes a call
D is at home and finds a photo with him and that dead kid (from the memorial D visited) so he tears it up and crumples it
D and S are in front of the board. gu wants to know who will take responsibility first. who is the one who convinced the patient’s parents? was it D or S acting on his own. choi calls out S’s name so S tries to take the blame and says it was me. without permission I” but D cuts him off and says I gave the order. S tries to say no I told the baby’s parents but D tells him to stop. Gu says from what I know S made a decision on his own but D says think about it rationally. a one year resident cant make this kind of decision and couldn’t have given it. Kang asks what is the reason for reaching that decision. D says it’s cuz of NICU’s neglect/apathy (as in they didn’t do anything for the patient). Kim gets mad and argues so D asks then did you treat the baby? Kim says a patient with no hope – doing surgery no matter what as treatment is the surgeon’s selfishness (to win). but S says the chance for succeeding in surgery is 20% so she isn’t without hope. Kim yells at him for interrupting since he is just a resident. Kim says the reason I didn’t choose surgery was for the family and the patient’s sake. D says wasn’t it cuz it was obvious that even if you did the surgery she would die. so you didn’t want to waste time and effort? Kim: what did you say? choi tells D to be respectful of his elders and for Kim to control his emotions
the vitals for the baby beeps so Y checks them and runs off
choi says that without permission D used the patient’s parents choice and transferred the patient. there are two choices. return the patient to NICU or perform surgery on the patient with all the ramifications in tow. he asks what D will do. D says I will do the surgery. kang asks what if something goes wrong with the surgery. will you take responsibility. Kim says no cuz if something goes wrong the reputation of the hospital could be tarnished. Y runs in and says the baby’s vitals are spiking and lists all the things wrong-what’s dropping and getting worse. that the baby hasn’t had a bowel movement from 3 hours ago. S says the baby has to have surgery right now. D says sorry I will come back after surgery. kang and choi call a recess to the meeting till after the surgery. choi says it cant be helped. I have to go to NICU too
they all run and D checks on the baby and orders surgery to be done here. S lists all the reasons why the baby cant be moved cuz it would be dangerous so the surgery has to be done here. Y adds shaking the baby even a bit is dangerous. D sends them off to get everything they need for surgery
D asks why they aren’t preparing for surgery still. the other doctor say how someone high up is not giving permission. how the vitals are dangerous. D tries to ask the scrub nurse but she says surgery isn’t allowed in here. and the nurses here do not have experience with surgeries. D says it’s urgent and Y says the baby’s life is on the line so why keep the rule but the head nurse says who will take on the responsibility if something goes wrong. follow the rules. but choi comes in and says I will take responsibility if something arises- prepare for surgery.
the surgery is under way and everyone watches. (not sure how trance music is appropriate here but let’s go with it). the mom prays outside. since he doesn’t know, kang asks if the surgery is going well and choi says it’s not to the extent that it’s going well – that it will become a big deal (record surgery kinda thing) for being successful.
D is about to close but S says you cant – I saw something clearly on the scan that below the liver something is twisted and D asks what he saw and Y thinks S is mistaking it for something else but S says I clearly saw it. Y says we have to end surgery quickly cuz the baby is in very dangerous condition. but D stops her and asks for suction. both D and Y sees what S was talking about and Y says it was CBD perforation. D and Y say what needs to be done cuz the danger is big but S says they cant do that. Y: what are you talking about. right now that’s the only way. D realizes and says: what S said is correct. Y asks then is there another way. but D says there isn’t.
there is fall out from the surgery
D takes all the responsibility. S says I have to go too and receive the punishment. D: go and stay there when I say go
other doctor Kyu throws S down and ask – cant you say one word – I am sorry – I committed a sin/crime that deserves death
C asks D -cant you quit pediatrics
a kid is hurt and S gets blamed for the kid’s injury. the mom asks what kind of person is he? the kid says I’m scared- that doctor is really strange
Y tells at S and says what is the point in reading all these (medical) books when no one wants you to be a doctor
someone says if they leave S alone he will kill someone
Y looks at a stuffed animal and asks what kind of person are you park S?
**Just to let everyone know, I found out someone else is doing live recaps of this drama on Soompi so I think this will be the last one for me since no one will need these. I won’t have time to make it detailed like I normally would with another drama on my plate and I don’t think it’s fair just to post the incomplete versions of the rough live recaps each Mon and Tues. I read on comments that subs for this come out very quickly so that’s good news for TGD fans. I’m going to miss posting Joowon’s screencaps. Enjoy the drama for the rest of its run everyone. 🙂