Secret Garden E17:Live “Transcap”

It is the morning after and I am numb from crying so much…this has to be the most memorable E17 of a drama EVER. Judging from everyone’s reaction here and at soompi, I dont think there were dry eyes anywhere.

If E17 was just like a preview of what is going to happen, E18 is going to leave me in a fetal position crying all night long-not so good for me cuz it’s gonna be hard to type like that.

They should seriously give awards for best episodes cuz this one would win hands down. Even though no one wants to watch it twice – and trust me the tears keep coming every time- you cant deny they did a wonderful job of doling out the heartache and even managed to insert some comedy here and there so there is laughter through the tears – the best kind. I dont know how they are going to beat this episode. But I cant wait to see how they try.

 

 

Secret Garden E17 Transcription

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R: what you just said -is that the truth?

did my father -the person who saved KJW – was it really my father?

jwm: you said it yourself

that your dad saved lives – one of them was JW

so dont think of adding some kind of meaning to it

jwm slowly kneels and says

compensate with a lot of money – no matter how much-and with this- dont hold onto to my JW

she cries and sincerely pleads

please – stop- let my JW go

i’m begging like this

I will do everything you want -no matter what it is – even more- bigger- I will do it all

but not my son-that kid is not yours

please -please – I’m begging you

jwm suddenly stops crying and says with a cold tone again

answer me

I said “please – i’m begging you”

she suddenly stands up

I told you I would compensate for all of it

I said I would make up for the cost of  your dad’s life

if I came all this way and did all this

if it was me – I would give in just cuz it made feel [she said “dirty” but here i think it means “cheap”]

how could you [resist] all the way!

should I make it that you have nothing left

will your come to your senses then?

dont let your father’s sacrifice be in vain

dont hurt JW’s feelings and settle it with him(break up)

after you are done breaking up with him,

come and get your money

jwm leaves

R just stands there crying out “dad-dad-dad”

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JW goes to action school looking for R

they ask what he is doing there late at night

he says it is late at night so I am here to see R

jw asks if she finished shooting her extra scene

they say that R didnt have any scenes to shoot

and they would know about it if there was one

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JW goes to R’s hm

AY is telling R to stop crying

before he comes in- R begs AY not to say anything and goes to wash her face

jw: is GRI here?

AY: she is in the bathroom

When she comes out she tries to act normal

R: what are you doing here without even calling?

he asks if she did the shoot well

she lies and says of course she had to do well to earn money-what are you doing here at this time?

he says you should ask if I want something to drink first

AY offers warm tea

He asks if they have coffee

She says yes

Then he says instead of coffee – do you have fruit

AY says they don’t have any

JW to AY: then that

JW to R: what are you doing? Go buy it

R: why are you looking for something we don’t have

AY to R: I’ll go buy it

AY to JW: please continue talking

JW: AY – you stay here-I have something to ask you about sec kim

AY: what about sec kim?

R: what kind of fruit

JW asks for expensive fruit

R leaves

JW: it’s not about sec kim but GRI

After our date, she said she suddenly had a scene to shoot and hurried away

But there was no shoot- I just came back from the action school

After making up a shoot that didn’t exist – where do you think she went?

AY: when I came home she was already here

R: I don’t think that happened

AY explains today was her dad’s memorial so she is not feeling good

When it is that day her mood is down

JW asks did GRI tell you to say that?

he asks where the nearest fruit stand is

 

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R is by some fruit stand crying still

He watches her cry then goes up to her and asks why she is crying

after lying about a shoot that didnt exist-what did you do so well that you are crying

after making up a shoot and ditching me – why are you crying in the street?

did my mom come by again-is that why you are like this?

tell me – mom came by and left-didn’t she?

R lies and says that’s not it

R:cost of living is up so much there is nothing to buy-so why did you ask me to buy expensive fruit?

I don’t have money so why did you ask for expensive fruit? Why?

JW yells: are you not going to be quiet! If an ugly girl acts stubborn (unyielding) do you know how much I hate that

He takes his gloves off and wipes her tears: your face is frozen stupid

he puts his muffler around her telling her: this is expensive-you know that right?

Always remember how much this muffler is around your neck

He puts his gloves on her and says: I will buy the fruit next time so go in

Don’t think of anything and have a deep sleep

R: where are you going? Where are you planning to go?

JW: since you are never ever going to tell me – to meet someone who will

R: don’t do it- it’s not like that-it’s not like that- please don’t do it!

but he has already walked off

* that comment about the expensive scarf seemed like a backward way of saying that she needs to remember she has worth and to value herself

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JW asks his mom’s sec if his mom had gone to R’s place [her neighborhood name]

JW: answer me

I cant throw a punch at someone my mom [ordered]

mom went to [R’s neighborhood name] didnt she?

the guy says : I’m sorry but I dont know anything at all

JW: did you not hear me just say that “I couldnt throw one punch?

the guy repeats :I’m sorry but I dont know about anything at all

JW calls her cell and its off

the sec says she is clearing her head and went to hong kong for a bit

JW: so why didnt you follow her?

JW says tell her that she seems to not want to meet me but that makes me comfortable too

relay to her from now on I am going to do what I want-make sure you tell her that

if she has already heard this herself it would even be better

(he kind of senses she is listening so he says the last line louder)

jwm comes down and says look how smart he is- he took after me

she told him to have R followed 24hrs

jwm:she wants to do whatever she wants so I have to observe that

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seul tells oska that TS is leaving korea today

oska: he said he was leaving – so he is going to do that

none of the women I met ran off like this

seul: what?

oska: huh? what I mean is….but why are you telling me about Han TS?

seul: you went chasing after him all the way to jejudo

so i thought he was that impressive

oska: if i say he is impressive – are you going to stare at me again

oska says teasingly: Han TS is impressive

seul: stop it

seul gets up upset

oska: where are you going?

the only person who is impressive to me now is han ts

seul:ya!

oska: I thought you were going to talk about us so I was really looking forward to it

thanks for telling me TS was running away, but I want to hear about us

you really cant forgive me?

if i can get another chance from you – I have the confidence to do it really well

i know my sin towards you is heavy so cant I just be handcuffed to you for life?

seul: then hang onto me

oska: huh?

seul: hang  onto me- from now on whenever you see me – hang  onto me then I will think about it

so he yells: really? it’s real right? I’m really going to do that -like this

and she smiles (cuz he is cute)

* wasnt sure if it was cling to or hang onto

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TS is about to leave and he looks kinda sad looking at an oska ad

oska stops him

oska: where are you going? I told you to think about it

did I ask you to run off without thinking?

and who goes to China on a boat?

TS: then do I cab it?

oska: cant you live normally? I went all the way to Incheon airport (the international airport)

TS: if I lived normally I would make music like yours- hand over my mp3 player

oska: you think i came to give that back to you

I told you very clearly to come claim it

[something about how there were songs TS wrote on it]

what would you have done if I had stolen that?

TS: you’re not going to

oska: how do you know that?

TS: you dont have the nerve

oska acts like he wants to hit TS

oska: there is no need to prolong this conversation-let’s make a contract

TS: I told you I didnt want to

oska: stop resisting

why? [?]

when I said I wanted to train you – you must have thought it was unbelievable

(since oska doesnt have the right)

so that is why I am saying…couldnt you train me?

TS: what?

oska: let’s rewrite the contract – instead of me training you-to you training me

just trust me

to be honest – you want to help me

why do you keep hiding your feelings?

I really like your song- give it to me

the song in here (taps the mp3 player) you made it to give me

even the title says “oska” -so give it to me

TS snatches it back and tells oska to get lost

TS: it’s time for my boat

oska says again about training him and TS says he cant stand oska

and oska says he needs to tie him up and oska picks him up and carries him over his shoulder

TS: why are you doing this? are you crazy? let me go

oska: that’s why you should have listened to me when I asked

* these two guys’ scenes are my fav- they are so funny together

** in korean oska said “raise or grow” so shortened to train- but like I said before ages ago

he meant to help his career along and make it grow

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R boxes and keeps thinking about what jwm said to her

JL gets a call from jackson and they speak eng

jackson says R got the part

JL finds out about the audition JW set up

she got the part of Jin- a character in dark blood

JL tells her JW made it happen

 

 

cupid jokes does JW like guys? cuz I wanna date him

R tells JL she will be gone for a sec

she wants to go and thank JW

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R goes to see JW

she hides and watches him from afar

he is testing out a new concept where you put your hand on that star shaped thing

and make a wish it is suppose to come true

JW wishes for the guy who just spoke to fall down

and that’s when sec kim runs up and knocks down the guy so he does fall

and JW is impressed how well that thing works

sec kim says JW left his phone behind and the call is imp

it is R

she asks if JW is busy

JW; where are you? i called awhile ago and you didnt answer

R says she was filming at a far away location and she is filming night and day

so even if he cant reach her to not be mad

JW accuses her of lying and asks to speak to someone next to her

she says she isnt lying and she only has a few mins to talk so she is going to get to her point

she says a miracle came to me and she got the audition

he is happy and gloats how impressive she is and that she is his impressive woman

R thanks him and says it was cuz  of him

he says the guy saw you for 5 mins so it wasnt cuz i chartered the plane it was you

R lies she has to go film

seul asks R if something happened

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R takes her to the art museum

she asks if seul comes here often

R asks what seul thinks when she sees art

R asks what she is suppose to feel when staring at art

seul says what is wrong tell me and i will help you

R explains she is a stuntwoman and that the distance between them is too far apart

even when they are next to each other it’s not like he is next to her

seul says I knew it wouldnt be easy (for you two) so I guess you ran across the obvious problem

she says : this is not why I backed out

she tells R not to throw JW away

seul: were you always that cool hearted?

if the distance  (between them ) seems far -run after him

if he it doesnt seem like he is next to you hold onto him

R: even if that makes it harder for KJW?

seul: that is the problem with his household – in this world they dont have

just loving someone a lot

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jwm finds out from the housekeeper that JW chartered a plane for R

cuz R didnt get to do her audition and called R audacious for making that happen

she says she shouldnt have tried to control/catch R

she calls someone in LOEL

she tells the person to meet for dinner to talk about helping her

a bunch of men come out in cars – looks like an army of them to meet her

(stockholders)

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JW is buying a coat/jacket

sec kim gets a call and he asks to speak to JW alone

in JW’s office sec kim tells JW that an hour from now

the board or stockholders are going to depose JW as president

and the person doing this is jwm

jw: what?

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R goes to JW’s mom’s home’

they are sitting across from each other

jwm keeps rejecting his calls throughout this whole scene

jwm: it was time for you to come get the money

but since you didnt contact me I called you here

I’m gonna trust you broke off with JW

how much should I give you?

name it

your acting like you have pride

i’ll acknowledge you got as much as you could so -name your price already

R: I’m sorry

jwm: why are you sorry?

R: i really thought about it for a long time but i cant break up

jwm: i didnt give you time to reach that conclusion/decision

R: i’m really sorry but if my father put his life on the line – to save a life –

now it’s a precious life to me too

because my father put his life on the line to keep him alive

for the rest of my life – I will protect that precious life

jwm:why are you so stubborn (strong willed)

you think i called you to give you my approval

you will always be Jw’s flaw for life

the only flaw in my perfect JW is you

because of someone like you – why does my jw have to endure people’s [criticism]-why?

R: I will do better/work harder

I will do everything well and carefully so JW wont have to face any [ridicule/burden]

jwm: shut up – there is only one way for you to be good to JW

disappearing

R: I really love that person

KJW – and me – we are sincere ( with our love)

even it’s like that – won’t it do?

will I not do?

please let it happen

i beg you -please give us permission

jwm: so you are saying you wont let go over your dead body?

fine-then do it

jwm answers JW’s call and puts it on speakerphone for R to hear

jwm: um it’s mom

JW yells: mom what did you do?

how could you depose me just cuz you felt like it?

how could you fire me cuz you felt like it?

are you really going to go this far?

jwm: when you met a lowly girl- you should have expected at least that much [happening to you]

i told you very clearly that you had to be responsible for everything you did so far

now you know what I meant

now it’s your turn to reveal what you want

what are you going to do?

JW: fine – take it all – all

I will never give up that girl

jwm: is that so?

then you do that too

jwm hangs up with JW and smiles at R

jwm: there is no need to make that face

now I wont mess with you

to be honest – what did you do that is to blame

from now on I’m going to ruin JW’s life

R hears that and breaks down even more

jwm: you are going to think

“no way is she going to do that

she is only doing this to put fear in me”

whether I do it or not – want to see?

JW will never beat me

if a child goes astray dont you think a parent shouldnt go astray too to beat/win against the child?

I’m saying I can do anything

even if that means [destroying] him

in one hour it will be decided

he will know the worst kind of betrayal in his life today

because of you

he will have to break away from his mother’s hand

R gets up and gets on her knees

R: please wait a moment mother – wait a moment-wait a moment

I wont do it

I will break up with him

I will let him go

I will disappear

like water bubbles I will disappear

so please dont do it

dont ruin him

I was wrong

I did something really wrong

jwm: i had to do something like this for you to obey/listen to me

so frustrating

R keeps bawling

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JW sits there stunned

 

 

sec kim calls JW “president”

JW: dont call me that-i’m going to be fired soon

sec: are you just going to let this happen to you?

JW: i cant let not meeting GRI happen

so I am choosing the best possible way

sec: wow-how can getting fired as president of a dept store over a girl be the best possible way?

JW: that’s what I am saying – isnt GRI something else?

how could she get a guy like me fired/deposed

[something something didnt get a single word of that]

sec: you became a Romeo

you’re really going to sit back and let this happen to you?

JW: of course

if I try to fight my mom right now-my mom will come back with stronger hits

then who that will be – it’s too obvious

sec: there is no way- you mean R?

JW nods his head

sec: chaebol life is not that great

president – dont worry

by any chance if you really do get fired for real

i will tender my resignation too

JW: why are you tendering your resignation? you’ll just be automatically fired (LOL)

sec:why?

JW:  cuz I hired you

sec: then what do I do- does love buy rice? money buys rice

JW: should we build a farm?

you wanna raise the cows?

sec: president

JW: i’m not the president anymore I said

sec: joo won ee

JW: are you crazy?

sec realizes what he said and starts to run away

JW: stand right there- get back here!

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R is at JW’s hm and pulls out the alice book and looks at it

she puts something in it

oska comes up to R

he says: it is you – when did you come?

did you come to meet JW -he just left

she said she saw him leave

oska: so did he ask you to wait

she says that isnt it and that she cant have fan meetings with oska for the time being

oska: why? by any chance cuz of the director Ian jackson? so it worked

he goes on about how hard it was to get his number from Japan -that oska had to call alot-how he had to say something in japanese like a hundred times

she thanks oska for his part in helping her

he acts like it is no big deal between them since they are close and for her not to just say thank you with words and hints that she should buy him a meal or something

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JW takes R flowers

he smiles and says “how did you get me to hold flowers? you amazing girl

JW is busy trying to attach the cat pendant pin to her bag

he says he heard she got the stuffed cat from her dad from AY

so he tells her to carry it around on the bag like this and not wrap it with a handkerchief

R: handkerchief? she remembers how she wrapped the safety pins

so you saw?

JW; I’m the kind of person who gives poignancy (a moving emotion)

he finishes:  it’s done

he asks her to hold the bag up

she says no and sort of slaps it aside

he looks kind of hurt

R: you were originally a girl who carried a bag like this

so behave well -is that it?

or do you want me to relive feeling what I did that night every time i carry this bag

is that it?

JW: you know that’s not it. I just….

she pretends to get mad over it

JW asks if he did something wrong

R: i dont have time for stuff like this -for the time being-let’s not meet

she says she has to start filming…

dont call me -it’s bothersome and a it’s making it hard for me

JW: okay-i know it’s hard for you

but I’m sorry – I have no plans to do that

how can you act like this-it’s not funny

how could you do this too

these day I ….

to go to you- do you know what I had to throw away?

R: if you were going to throw it away anyway- you should have done it sooner

before i got tired (of you)

please leave

i dont want to see the face of someone in your family

jw leaves

after he is gone she looks at the cat pendant and cries

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JW starts drinking alcohol

then he takes his pill again

he stands by his window looking out and grabs his coat and leaves

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R goes hm but JW is inside

he says : i asked AY- AY is my fairy godmother

R: from now on dont do that – if we need to meet – (let’s meet ) outside….

JW: dont act like this -there is no guideline to what you are doing

if I am going to fight with you

why are you late

why did you look at that guy

why do you cook only for oska

i wish it was over something childish like that so….

R:  the accident you had 13 yrs ago

the accident you cant remember

at that time -after saving you – a fireman lost his life

that person is my father

JW’s eyes get round: what?

R:you can be comfortable not remembering

but every time I see you i cant stop thinking about my father

now I dont have it in me to see you comfortably (without a heavy heart)

because if I did- I feel too sorry to my father

cuz of you – i had to live 13 yrs without my dad

can you imagine what that time was like

you said before that you would be the LM

I’m asking you – like bubbles – disappear

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JW goes and does research

he gets old papers delivered to him

and he looks and finds her dad’s obituary

in the paper -omg

scary music

it says  he died in a fire when the elevator fell with him in it

and he person he saved was an heir to a dept store

her dad’s voiceover narrates that fireman’s creed line

about being prepared –

about God protecting his family and wife

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*I wonder if JW remembered her dad reciting this during the accident

and that is why JW is hearing it now

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R goes to see her dad

dad I came again

dad – did you really save him?

you told me you would come hm early-you told me not to eat dinner and wait

and you didnt come hm

cuz you saved him – you couldnt come?

i’m sorry dad

because I love him – I’m really sorry

i’m really sorry dad

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before R leaves

AY: arent you nervous? it’s your first day of filming

R says she is so nervous she cant button her coat properly

AY tells her about a dream AY had

she says one a snowy field there was a beautiful table set and

JW and R were sitting across from each other drinking tea

a pretty flower tea

R: was it by any chance flower liquor

AY: how can I know that? is it possible to know taste in a dream

but  besides you and president there was one other person too

but i dont know who that person was

AY: anyway because you two drank that tea

red rose petals rained down from the heavens

R asks why are you telling me that dream (she literally said “why are you selling that dream to me”)

AY: cuz you and the president were in it

R: you said there was another person

that must be you

AY: was that it?

AY tells R to film well

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R goes to film site

R meets jackson and starts filming car scene

jackson says R was too slow so go faster and JL translates and she does it again

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the roads were blocked for filming

one guard explains to the driver he cant pass cuz there is filming going on

the moron complains about the road block

the guard asks the jerk to go wait or around but he wont

the jerk decides to not listen and drives thru the barrier

he runs into R

she crashes

JL runs like crazy in slow motion to her car

the camera pans to the driver’s seat and her bloodied hand drops

JW is at hm looking out his window holding a book

sec kim comes running in yelling “president”

JW’s book knocks over and breaks a vase full of red roses

it’s like he knows-he stares at the roses on the ground

and then he looks at the sec

at the hospital

AY is crying like crazy-cupid has to hold her back from going in

JL is in shock and sits there stone faced

action school guys are bawling

R is in a coma

doc  narrates – she may never wake up

she is brain dead

JW is still not crying

he just walks down the corridor

as sec kim follows bawling

oska and seul come up behind them

the screen goes white

then it shows R’s room

it’s dark

the camera zooms in on R’s pic

a red and pink rose petals drop in front of it (from the flowers JW gave her)

JW narrates

half a month went by

she is still in her dreams as usual

when I see how comfortable her face is

in her dreams I am not there

so it seems she is waiting for me

till i come

she looks like she is waiting

tm and the day after tm

he takes care of her -wiping her hands and stuff

he doesnt sleep and stands looking out the hospital window

change of clothes again and he holds her hand and cries

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omg this is so awful- i cant type cuz I am crying too hard and my hands are shaking

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JW writes down

*GyeongGi Do IlWon(name of province), ChungBock province(name of province)
20~30mm per hour, the news of rain (It will be rainy)

oska comes over

oska: you were here

JW covers up what he wrote

JW: um-why?

oska: to be honest -a few days ago-I saw R here

JW: here?

oska: before she got hurt

JW: why did she say she came-to see me?

oska: she said it wasnt to meet you but she told me to be sure to be happy-like someone who wouldnt see me again-it felt really weird

how is R?

JW: what was she doing here?

oska: she was looking at a book

he walks over to where  she had been standing

she was standing somewhere around here

jw asks which book

oska says he didnt pay attention that much but

she wouldnt have come all the way just to look at a book

I thought of that today

JW goes thru a few books

he finally pulls out the Alice book and finds the pic R had put there

*The paper Rime put in Alice in wonderland is the last page of the little Mermaid.
The content is…
The knife the little mermaid was holding was shaken.
But the next moment, little mermaid threw the knife away into the wave (sea)
As the knife was falling, the wave shone ruddy brightly
At that time, the sun was rising over the sea
The little mermaid was looking at the prince with dim eyes
And threw herself into the sea
And she disappeared becoming bubble
he cries while reading it

he holds it close to him and bawls

and sits down on the ground and keeps crying

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*thanks naey

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JWM gets flowers and reads the card

JW says “mom i love you -always-always – JW”

she says he came back to her

but that he sounds like the way he was when he was 21

she asks for the prettiest vase in a happy tone

she kisses the card and smells the flowers

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oska makes JW laugh

oska tells JW about a time when some lady at a restaurant asked why the cameras

she heard oska was a singer and she thought she should get his signature

and she kept asking “who is it – who is it?” and she was told “oska”

and she said “if is oska so I should make sure i get a signature then she asked

“is he a man or woman?”

jw laughs too much

oska: your reaction is over done-this isnt a very funny story

jw; what do you mean it isnt funny – i think it was

oska: are you taking pity on me cuz I’m old?

if you are going to take pity- give it to me with money

 

JW :oh it was so funny – ok- even if it isnt money -I’ll give you something that will suffice

he gives oska a gift box

oska asks: what is it- if I open it – will it explode? or is it a dead bird?

JW: aish – why didnt I think of that?

oska: why are you like this today?

he opens it slowy

inside the box are the most hideous pair of blood red shoes I’ve ever seen

and brown shoes and lots of luxury brand watches

oska: what is this? these are the ones I tried so hard to steal

you are really giving them to me?

JW says he is paying him for letting him stay there

oska asks if JW caused trouble

JW grabs it back saying “if you dont want it never mind”

but oska hugs the box saying”no no “

oska says thank you joo won ah

jw: then let’s take a pic-the two of us

oska: why would I take a pic with you when it’s gross

JW says after he was 21 – they dont have a pic together

you will regret not taking a pic with me

oska says in his life regret is half

he says that kind of regret wont even be noticeable

JW: thats true hyung you are a really bad guy

oska glares at JW and goes back to admiring his watch with diamonds on it

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oska is sleeping

JW watches him sleep

he says I knew all that time what you were doing

that you kept losing to me (on purpose)

I was always grateful hyung

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JL shows R her action film clips and says “this is the kind of impressive person you are

can you see it? you are strong and a [resilient] kid so you can wake up-hurry and wake up GRI”

she shouldnt sleep this much

“cant you see that sunbaes are all worried

wake up -just wake up-if you wake up-

I promise to send you to JW with a smile

if  you only wake up”

JW watches all this from the doorway

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JW narrates his letter to R

I’m telling you in advance

You are the only poor alienated neighbor to receive a letter from KJW who is writing for the first and last time

So it’s ok for you to be proud of yourself

The wind is blowing strong enough to shake the branches this afternoon

When you read the letter too – I hope you can also see the wind blow and shake the branches on a afternoon like this

So that what I saw- I hope you can see it too

The window I stood by-you stand by

The bed I laid on –you lie on it

The books I read-if you read them

Even like that – if we can be together

if is is that much – let’s say we are together

if it is that much-like other dating couples- let’s say we are happy

he keeps crying as he writes this letter

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Hyun Bin’s version of  “that man” plays-and breaks hearts all over the world

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he goes to the hospital and takes her out of there

and takes her in his car

they are parked somewhere on a lonely road

she is leaning on his shoulder with a blanket around her

JW says to her calmly at first then crying:

dont love anyone else

and just think of me and live alone

dont get too close to chae woong-that’s incest

it will seem like a selfish/”do what I want” decision

but it’s made by a leader of society so respect it

the gil ra im that was always impressive/cool no matter what

even in the future you have to be impressive/cool

he kisses her forehead

i’m going to miss you a lot

i love you

i love you

there is a storm in the distance with lightning flashing and dark clouds

he drives right into it …

and I guess they switch

omg

it ended

no preview for SG

just preview for next drama after SG

*not sure about the brackets – just new a word or two so I pieced it together so no quoting please

 

 

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Now I cant help but wonder if her dad wanted JW to drive into that storm

was that part of her dad’s plan all along with the switch? knowing the car accident would happen

did he trust JW enough to do the right thing and save his daughter like this?

cuz if her father did -he took a huge gamble cuz what if JW didnt use the switch to his advantage to save R?

if her dad didnt plan this – I wonder how he would feel watching JW bravely make his sacrifice

and thereby taking away the only person who could have been her family for life

as her  father – this has to be a tough choice for him to make -or watch as it is happening

I bet when he saw JW driving into the storm – he was thanking JW-but I hope he realizes this act will also break his daugher’s heart cuz her last words to JW was to do exactly this- to disappear

* i think I broke some kind of record for crying non stop during these translations – you would think I would become numb to this after a while but no…..now hearing exactly what they said during these scenes is making it even harder for me to stop crying

 

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at the rate I am going – I am going to be up for a total of 11hrs- stupid blog break down

I am never doing another weekend drama unless it is the sequel to SG cuz I’m going to miss church again.i only went once since SG started. it’s either sleep thru service or sleep thru church service time so I’m going with the latter. if I dont go next week for sure-God is not going to recognize me and go “who are you?” when i finally make it there

when I pray for forgiveness and tell Him it was cuz of a drama – I hope God has a sense of humor

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this episode is like emotional overload – the tears just would not end

pow- more sadness- pow-some more- and just when you think they will ease up and save it for tm

another pow- the worst kind

this ending was the best one yet in this drama

I literally wailed when he drove into the storm

what kind of drama does this? omg I didnt stop crying for like 40 mins…

who does this on ep17? there are still 3 left

omg omg omg –oska is going to cry like crazy

what is his mom going to think? she is going to have a heart attack-she caused her son to do this

when he sent her flowers I just knew it-then he gave away his watch to oska- all the signs

pointed to this-but I had no idea about driving into the storm-omg i love this drama

tears and all- my head hurts from crying so much

 

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The second the music cue began and JW’s mom’s facial expression changed from hardened to desperate – I felt it – as she started to slowly kneel down – a wave of emotion flooded over me and I lost myself – that is how I always feel when I cry with a character. With JW, knowing how much it took to get here, for him to realize he is the reason she doesnt have a family-her father – omg – how do you make that up to someone you love? There arent enough thank you’s in the world. I keep thinking of that fireplace scene at the golf club, when he told her he couldnt sleep cuz he wondered why she didnt have what everyone else has – now he knows that reason had something to do with him…he is going to have to deal with the shock of remembering what he had suppressed all these years, but something tells me the truth of what he inadvertently took from her is going to be harder to face-the show hasnt even started and I am already feeling it….crap – totally screwed.

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can I also add thatI love Hyung Bin’s rendition of “that man”. The fact that he is so sleep deprived and losing weight in the process of bringing us such a memorable character makes my heart ache listening to him singing – like his voice is pleading us to remember all his effort for this drama and making us feel even more for his character- as if that is even possible. Years from now-I am still going to think of Joo Won as one of the most memorable main leads in a Kdrama.