Maybe their dreams of happiness is enough for right now to sustain them till the moment they can turn them into reality. That day is getting closer so I can already imagine all those happy scenes we will be getting in the near future. They are overcoming hurdles most drama couples don’t have to face so I think we need to give them more leeway to work things through. In the meantime, can I just say this show really knows how to give a person a lot of mini heart attacks. It’s not always just the shocking unexpected scenes that surprise me, but the quiet meaningful lines and looks that catch my breath that really slay me. That’s why I feel like for the past few weeks, I’ve earned my right to see some happy moments again between them. Unfortunately for impatient viewers like myself, it seems like it’s taking forever for these two to finally meet on the same ground addressing the same feelings. I feel like this is one of those cases where you have to suffer through a lot of sadness and heartache to rejoice in their reunion and cherish it that much more when it finally arrives. I haven’t seen a drama test the limits of an audience’s patience to this extent, but it looks like no one is going to walk away from this show anytime soon. My feet are firmly planted where they have been and nothing is going to make me budge. Thank goodness we have E15 tm night so I can finally exhale with a bit of relief.
Each time MJ denied having feelings for her, SY always came back with a surprising response. Not once has she ever reacted the way he expected and let him down. She takes him by surprise each and every time so that his breath catches, making it so difficult to hold back his elation and relief till she turns around. You couldn’t see it on his face here, but there were fireworks going off in his heart. Just one of these days, I hope it finally becomes SY’s turn to have her heart jump for joy over a confession for a change.
By asking SY to leave MJ alone and put her feelings for MJ in order, Lawyer Jang robbed MJ of something precious. Every second MJ has left on earth is a second longer he can spend with her. To make even one more memory with her is something he can store away in his heart for later when he feels her absence so acutely. This is a guy drowning right now – he is sinking faster than anyone can even imagine and SY is the only reason he is struggling to keep coming up for air. She is the reason why he is holding on – cuz if he doesn’t hold onto her, he will be so lost. Even though lately SY seems to be the one who has been clingy, emotionally – it’s been MJ all along. He is clinging despite knowing that the truth will make her think twice about him. SY gets to love him the way she sees him so that is why MJ has been reacting so distant. If she clings to him even after knowing his secret, I bet the reaction we get out of MJ will be a whole different picture. cuz then she will be loving him for who he really is and that kind of face value is something he has never experienced before except with Jang. I think that’s why during this confession scene, Jang hung his head in shame. He realized what he almost robbed MJ of and he couldn’t hold his head up. Jang did it out of loyal friendship to MJ and wanted to protect his safety, but Jang forgot about his friend’s fragile heart. When MJ gets injured, his body recovers. But if MJ’s heart gets broken, it’s connected to his spirit and lifeline. Shatter that and it becomes something far more dangerous – MJ might lose his will to continue living. That’s why Jang should have waited to hear an answer when he asked MJ “you becoming involved in Chun SY shi’s matter – what is the result? what is there that got better?” If Jang had listened very carefully in that silence, he would have heard MJ’s heart reply definitively: “Me. cuz she taught me about love, I’m a better person now than before. I don’t feel alone anymore. I feel security and stability for the first time when I am around her. She filled that void in my life with laughter and it continues to resonate even when she isn’t in front of me. Instead of just watching the world go by and biding my time, now I know how to love with all my heart and what it means to hold onto that love. She gave me all that and I realize it’s worth fighting for -even at the risk of losing everything I waited for all these years.”
What he couldn’t say with words or show with actions, he made up for it the only way he knew how – with this apologetic kiss that she doesn’t even know about. I always knew his powers would be used like this one day, but I had no idea it would move me to tears as well.
A first kiss led to a first confession. A 15 second seduction backfired and now she is bewitched by him. Then a revelation to protect the life of the one he loves – a sacrifice so great, yet done without a second thought. Jang’s warning fell on deaf ears tonight. Protecting his identity and his own safety is the last thing on MJ’s mind right now cuz he only sees her. We’ve been wondering if he could possibly leave her behind when it’s time to go, but the fact that he is taking so many risks to protect her is his answer.
I’m so glad she sat in his chair and saw the view he looks at each night. It’s too bad she couldn’t see what he looks at when he gazes out. He might be looking at stars and thinking of his home from time to time, but lately all his thoughts have been about her so how cool is it that sitting in this chair, her thoughts are probably about him too – how content and at home she feels here with him. No matter how you look at it – somewhere between all that playful bickering and eye rolling on his part, these two settled into a groove. She is more comfortable here than at her own place. It’s like she didn’t just step into his life – she crept into every thought he has these days. I’m beginning to think that door he was supposed to open to his heart to let love in, it was flung open by SY and she just made herself right at home - like she never plans to leave.
*I have too much to say about this episode so I inserted them between the recap and at the end.
MJ is far superior in a way that no one realized – not even himself. It’s not from all the knowledge he gleans from reading books or staying aloof for all those years either. When it comes to love – he doesn’t know fear. This guy acts on his impulse first and thinks about it later. While humans play mind games, strategize, and calculate at times when it comes to love, he just reacts in a pure instinctive way like a child taking the first steps. He isn’t afraid of falling down at all or the pain and just keeps his eyes on the objective. He knows better than anyone that there is a clock ticking and the sand in his hourglass is quickly dwindling down, but he isn’t going to let limited time left on earth stop him from going after what he wants. He waited 400 years for this opportunity so he isn’t going to waste even a second of it. Starting now.